Cherished - no need to apologise. It has barely been weeks since your loss . Of course you feel angry and bitter. There is still a gaping hole inside of me - a heaviness in my heart, despite the promise and hope my new PG offers. The losses never leave you, but as cliched as it sounds, the days do gradually get easier. I totally agree about smoking PG women, etc. They are ungrateful, undeserving stupid cows!!