Coco - hi.

Like many women on this thread, I perfectly understand the feelings you are going through. I have lost four pregnancies and never felt confident enough to announce my PG's to friends or family. I would go to playgroup and it felt like every month there was a new PG announcement. While I am incredibly blessed to have DD, I have felt like I have robbed her of a sibling. She is such a lovely little girl and the guilt in me has been overwhelming. I felt I was failing her. It has been my love for her which has made me never give up.

It has been very hard keeping a brave face. Some days have been so hard. I couldn't go anywhere without seeing PG women - Medicare, the supermarket, the beach. Early after my MC's I have been a little introverted, not wanting to go out, because it has been so emotionally painful to see larger families or PG women. And when I did the Miscarriage Investigation Program and tried IVF, I had to attend clinics and ultrasound rooms full of glowing PG women.

BUT...... then something occurred to me. I did not know THEIR story. For all I know, that PG woman standing next to me in the Post Office may have been through the rollercoaster of ten IVF's before successfully falling PG. Or that family playing in the park may have suffered recurrent MC just like me. Maybe that PG woman at hairdressers has been through the agony of losing a stillborn or a child.

Your feelings are perfectly normal. I know them too well. But I thought I would tell you about this, as it is what has kept me sane and kept my head above water. I hope this has been of some help xx
That's a lovely post and I completely agree. Everytime I envy a pg woman I tell myself I do not now what they have been through to become pg. However, I still have my bad days and that is what is so great about this thread. We can all vent when we need to and not have to feel guilty as we are still happy for these pg women we are just heartbroken for ourselves. There has to be a way we can express our feelings and I am so glad I found this thread. Although my hope in the future is that we can shut it down!

I guess what I am saying is that although sometimes telling yourself they may have also had trouble may work other days we need to vent.

Cherished - Looks like I still have some healing to do as well