WTH--I have no plans for my EDD... just keep thinking if I ignore it, it won't show up! Ridiculous, I know... but I think it's my brain's way of shielding my heart.

I did have a nice temp drop this am, so I'm hoping that the crampiness I've been having is due to implantation! Would be SO much easier dealing with EDD if I were already pg, so I'm hoping and more than usual this month! Thanks for asking about me! I hope you're doing well, hon!



tutmae--Thanks for the baby dust! I'll swap you for some



jenushka--No wonder you feel picked on by the universe! First of all, I have to say that there's no such thing as selfish tears when it comes to feeling sad over your losses! You have every right to feel that way--and it's far from being selfish! You're still grieving--I'd be more worried if you didn't respond with tears! You've endured so much this year, more than most women could handle--you're amazingly strong--and still so compassionate to be here rooting for us!

I was watching Oprah yesterday, and it was a show about spending money... didn't have anything to do with TTC--but the moral was the same... I guess I have to explain the story a little... husband and wife put house on market and bought another house. The first house hasn't sold, so they've got 2 mortgages. Then they went to buy a new car on the same day they bought the second house, and ended up buying 2 new cars! Then, of course, the husband loses his job, and now they have to sell both homes and both cars to pay off their debt. Anyhow, they realized that in him losing his job, and therefore them losing everything, was really a gift from God... that we don't always see our experiences as gifts, and we just need to open that gift to see the present inside! It's hard to look at a m/c as being a gift (and I'm not saying that it is) but I think all of us are meant to learn something from it to help us all on our journey of life. I'm still trying to figure out what I was supposed to learn--but I do know that without my loss, I wouldn't know any of you--and I think somehow we're all truly connected to each other, and are supposed to support and learn from each other.

Sorry to hear about DH's job--I'm sure a better one is just around the corner! When God closes one door, another one opens--something bigger and better is looming in the near future, I just know it!

So very sorry to hear about your grandparent's health... Wow, 63 years together and they still hold hands! We could all learn so much from a love like that! Is this the g-pa that nicknamed you jenushka? I've always told people that the most brilliant minds of this century are called Jen--they just never believed me!

:goodluck2: with the naturopath/herbalist-- sounds like she's got a great success rate!

Ok... well now my post to you looks like a novel! I hope things are on the rise for you, hon--you can only go up from here! Please remember you're always welcome to cry and vent here--that's what we're here for--complete support and understanding! Sending big and hope you feel better soon!