Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss ~ August 2010

Kell I am so happy for you just wonderful news for you, it seems we are all on a roll in here with something. Maybe it's the taste of spring coming in the next couple of weeks.
AFM- Well I have no idea if I have O'd yet or not this cycle has been very strange for me starting to worry now something maybe wrong with me. I haven't had any real temp rise apart from the 2 mornings I was sick and now they are back to normal again. Still have very tender and tingely bbs and feeling pretty run down could do with the flue I have, the tired part. Still have a bit of CM going on as well and no we haven't been getting any bding in at all since we got home last week end as we have both been sick. Might try and get a bit in tonight just in case. I'm feeling so confused right now and really down about not being able to read what my body is telling me this month. Frustration is doing my head in.

OH MY GOODNESS! CONGRATULATIONS KELLBELL!!!!! U DID IT!!!
Am so so so happy for u :)
And yes let the worrying begin!!! Lets try and help each other thru it..?? Are u going to try and get bloods done on monday then again on wed?? We can both be in a panic together!!

Forshelby- Thanku once again for ur words of wisdom.. everything u say is so true.. it just takes me a little while to believe it :) Oh and my body is the perfect example of it not working after going off the pill.. it took mine months and months and months! I dont think it wld still know what it was doing if i didnt start taking clomid. I partially blame it on always skipping the sugar pills so therefore never getting af.. silly silly me.

Loops- Have u been trying to use opks as well?? Arent our bodies frustrating??! Have u been busy bding just incase u have already laid ur eggy?? :)

Clairesmummy- I felt exactly the same way as u.. when u dont know if u have O'ed already or if ur still waiting u dont feel as if u have control of things.. its super frustrating!! But i managed to get my bfp and i knew nothing!!! If i hadnt gotten the bt done to see if i had O'ed i wld probly still be doing opks!! Hang in there..u cld just have a surprise coming ur way :)

Mum22- Thanku for all ur reassurance with this horrible hpt line business :) Oh i hope af isnt on her way and it is just ur little baby digging!! Have u been tempted to test? or still too early?? Oh and im not sure if it was the Preseed that gave me my bfp but i must say thanku so much just incase it was :)

Lil J- Sorry to hear ur feeling so miserable :( i tend to try and keep some of my emotions from my dh.. my main reason being that i cant handle seeing him upset.. i hate the thought of him being all sad cos i am. Altho forshelby is right.. thats what husbands are for! I hope ur feeling a bit better soon. I hate when i have those downer days.. everything feels so gloomy. Am thinking of u xxx

Stoked- Ohhh sounds to me like u cld be getting urself a bfp soon too! Lets hope so!! Good luck!

Well afm- Feeling a bit better today.. sometimes the fear takes over and i nearly hyperventilate! well not quite but i sometimes feel like i am on the inside.. if that makes sense?! I spent the day helping a friend clean her house cos shes moving out.. i had a mini freakout whilst i was doing the shower.. all i cld smell was domestos everywhere.. there wasnt any fresh air.. i was so close to running out and telling her I cant do it.. u have too! But she wlda thought i was crazy! I was just thinking the worst straight away.. breathing this in so going to make my baby stop sticking.. ill be bleeding in no time at all! Then i had to keep checking every 5 mins. I probly sound crazy! But im defintely not going to be breathing anymore chemicals in.. if something bad does happen i dont want any excuse to be able to blame myself.
I keep feeling my bbs to see if they are sore or tender.. and nope their not! Bugger! Bons and kell are urs??? Maybe u actually need bbs for them to be sore haha my little 10b's might just not cut it!! :)
And i am defintely not doing another test.. i think i wld vomit whilst waiting.. its just not worth that sick feeling. I wld rather wait for the phone call once ive had blood tests.. cos as u all say.. its a lot more reliable then that stupid stupid second line!
Well i hope everyone is having a good weekend.. im just cuddled up on the couch with my gorgeous dogs.. im even looking after a pup at the moment.. shes beautiful. Thats 4 girls running around keeping me busy!! I think i wld go insane without them!

xxx

Clairesmummy - That's better! LOL, I read you loud and clear now :)

Kellie - Have fun peeing on sticks! LOL... :) I still have all of my BFP sticks in the bathroom, all lined up in their glory. I look at them every time I go in there. I love it. I know I should part with some of them, but I can't decide which one to keep... they all seem precious. Yes, I am a bit strange... hehe.

Loops - Perhaps you'll O in the next couple of days? I only got to track for a couple of cycles, (feel free to cyber-slap me for being lucky) but my O differed by about 4 days each cycle, according to my OPKs. Either way, October isn't too far away now. I would just love for you to get a sneaky BFP though.

Mum22 - I hope it's implantation cramping :)

Stoked - Ooohh.. sounds interesting! I might have to stalk you now. Could you be next?!

Reet - Always here to support you, hun. Glad to put your mind at ease if only a little. About the sugar pills, I tried skipping a few times, but about 2 weeks later would have a breakthrough bleed and it would last the rest of that cycle, or until I gave up, let myself withdraw for 7 days and then started a new pack. My body was so well behaved I had no control over what it did. LOL. And about the chemicals, don't stress. I can't stand the smell of them either right now, so if I need to clean, (DP has been doing it for me) I'll do the ole bandit trick. You know, tie a t-shirt around my face. Haha... that one also used to work for really bad smelling kitty litter, too. :) Not that any of that is my job anymore! Love it.

AFM, stretchy crampy ouchiness is back again. It's all low and groiny. If that's even a word... LOL. Anyway, I'm not alarmed about it, just keeping tabs on my tummy for the time being. It's all round and hard and I'm only just coming up on 10 weeks! I swear the constant eating has nothing to do with it.... hehehehehe... naughty.

Just popping in to say hi and congrats to the BFPs :)

I'm not lurking as much as I was last week so I'm sorry I have missed so much.

Waiting for O atm, seems to be taking a while this month, come on and happen already so I can get on with my month lol. Job is good, study is good, DP and DS are good, PCOS scan..... AWESOME!!!!

Lil J Hope you are having a bit of a better day today sweetie!! Gosh life i hard sometimes isn't it???

Forshelby not sure about the cramps being AF....my temp has remained the same today hasnt dropped. The cramps remain in force this morning as I type, sorta in the tummy and sides. Odd. So as of today my luteal phase is an 8 day one, hoping it continues and is at least a 10 days one but if AF going to arrive this month then I want her to arrive between the 10 and 14 day luteal phase so I dont have to wait too long to start a new cycle!! Hmmmm.
Hows your pregnancy coming along anyway, soooo exciting for you!!

Reet, no need to thank me!! I'm just glad you got your BFP!!! Wooo hoo. As above re the cramping. No, not tempted to test.....yet!! We will see how long I manage to hold out.....I have intentions of waiting at least another week and a half.....but I am pretty sure AF will arrive before then so I will be saved $$$ in tests!! Well you have only got to get thru today before you can go for BT!!!

Dory....wow 6 weeks to go....wow!!

Damprye - good to hear your PCOS scan went well! I take it that means it's not as bad as it was? Also, how's your liver?

Mum22 - Do you usually cramp before af? And I'm assuming from what you've said your cycles can be kind of irregular?? I hope you're pg instead of getting af :) Thanks for asking about my pg, things seem to be going well. Into double digits tomorrow, 10 weeks! EEEEP!

Ummm, I have just been conned into testing and not with FMU.....crystal clear has the ever slightest hint of 2nd line. FR appears -.....not sure......crystal clear maybe more sensitive than FR???

Oh my god ladies i woke up this morning with THE URGE TO POAS!!! I was SO adamant that i wasnt going too but that feeling just takes over!
I was shaking so much and feeling as tho i was going to vomit.. but the line came up very quickly and its darker then the last test i did 2 days ago!! :hooray: So i am defintely happier and feeling a bit more positive :)

Just gotta get thru the bt's in the next 2 days and past the 5-6 week mark cos thats when i think our baby stopped growing last time. I think i will try and get a scan done at 7 weeks. It will be hard waiting that long but on the 28th of this month we are going camping for a week to celebrate our 1 yr anniversary and just to get away over our original edd. I wld love to organise to have the scan before that but cant risk it being too early and there being no heartbeat.
I hope the next 3 weeks goes super fast.. i think there will be lot more POAS in the meantime!
Am thinking i might make myself up a ticker soon.. just cos i know it will help me to be more positive plus im always looking at forshelbyes and thinking 'wow time is going fast!!' so it might help time to zoom along for me :) i know it is still way early and i really dont want to jinx myself.. i might wait til after bts and do one..

AF PLEASE STAY AWAY!!!! :noaf::noaf::noaf:

Love to u all. xxx Will be back later on. Am going to my mums for the day.. oh i hate keeping secrets!!

mum22- OH MY GOSH!! Go and buy some more tests ready for tomoro morning!!! :) :)

Mum22- That's wonderful news as the ladies keep saying in here a line is a line sounds like you have your BFP........are you going to test again in a day or 2? If so I wish you all the very best of luck and sending a truck load of sticky vibes and baby dust to you.
Reet- Woohoo, very awesome news for you, congrats. Great to hear you are feeling happier and more positive about your PG now that is truly wonderful. I am just so happy for all you lovely ladies in here, it gives me hope that it may be my turn one day sooner or later.
AFM- Well what an interesting week end we have had......sometimes I wonder why we even own horses. Our stallion came down with sand colic yesterday so we have been up with him most the night but now the morning has arrived he is looking alot better and is eating again, I'm thanking my lucky stars that we didn't lose him I would of been devestated. In between checking the horse and trying to stay awake we did get to DTD.... Still have a bit of CM going on atm and my chart of FF has not detected O day for me yet, last month it detected it at CD18 now I am on CD21 and no sign of O'ing yet. Ahh well just keep DTD until AF arrives I think, might have to catch that egg next month. Either that or my chooks have gone on strike and aint laying any eggs this month....lol.....Just wish I would stop dreaming about having a baby it's like a real hard slap in the face at the moment.

:wall:I have just learnt a very valuable lesson again...lol.....:wall: About half an hour after I posted my last post guess what....Here comes the O cramps, they are on the left side this month it was the right last month....lol....so maybe just maybe we may get that ever so wanted BFP...definately early to bed again tonight....lol :pray: So my valuable lesson is I should never give up hope and just go with the flow....lol....Yeah I know I'm a nutter but I guess some one has to be....lol.....just plz plz plz don't call the white truck on me just yet. LOL...;)

Hi, I am going to wait another few and re test, will wait and see I suppose....gives me something positive to think about tho I am not going to get my hopes up just incase it turns out like last month.... who knows.

Wooo hoooo Reet FANTASTIC!!! So glad for you sweetie!!

Mum22- Are crystal clear the ones that come up with the blue lines?

ClairesMummy- Maybe late O is in this month lol, I am pretty sure I O'd yesterday (off the left side too lol) just waiting for my temps to confirm :) And noone is going to cart you away for that lol, we have all been in that situation before :)

Reet- YAYS, I can't wait for pics :D

Forshelby- Just another two weeks, one day and you will be at the 12 weeks mark :D it is going so fast. And to answer your question, left ovary, still covered in cysts, right ovary, had 25+ last year......... and on Monday there were...... 5!!!! just 5 yays :lol: I couldn't believe it. The ultrasound tech talked to me about this one unlike the liver. I find out about the liver when I see my doc sometime this week it should be.

Kellie- I knew you would get your BFP soon, I just had a feeling since I first seen you in here.

Stoked- FX this is your month too.

Loops- Not long now before your IVF cycle comes up :D bet you are so excited.

AFM- No chance at all for getting UTD this month which I am happy about cos the stress of am I or arn't I isn't constantly there. I last BD on CD20... last cycle. Going nuts with the drought though but DP is sick and with work and everything I havn't really got time, by the time I am finished work he is asleep.

Damprye- Just when I thought I was going to get a holiday too....lol.....in a straight jacket......Definately having O pain now just hope DFs little swimmers catch that egg as it gets there......would DTD last night be good timing for Oing this morning? Or should we go again tonight? I have no idea how it all works with catching the egg always just went by if it happened it happened but these days I want to know how to catch that egg at the best time......Advice needed please ladies........pretty pretty pretty please......
And a huge thank you in advance.

Dampre, yes they are!! It is probably a false +!!

Hey ladies! Heres the link to my exciting pic!!! :) i just love looking at the 2 sticks!! I am so happy the 2nd one is darker now.

http://i758.photobucket.com/albums/x...ccourt/085.jpg

Reet- :clap::dance::clap: Love the pics, definately got to put a smile on your face to see those 2 magical lines. I can't believe all the BFPs happening in here this month it is so wonderful. So I wonder which of you lucky ladies found the 4 leaf clover and is being generous sharing your good luck around with everybody.
Mum22- I reckon you are in for a nice surprise and your BFP is a BFP. I'm :pray: for you that it is and sending you those :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy: try to stay positive as hard as I know that is darl, you already have the 2 lines and it will get darker for you.

Reet: good strong lines there ! :D especially since af isnt due yet ! lots of :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy: for you !

Oh Reet!!! :clap:

So excited for you and I have my fingers, toes, legs, arms and eyes crossed for you that everything goes super smoothly.

Please keep us updated.

xox

Hi All,

I am hoping someone might be able to give me some insight into what's happening with me at the moment, and maybe give me some advice.

I'm currently getting little cramps. Its very similiar to AF pain, but AF isn't due until the 24th (ish) and its a bit odd for me. Any ideas?

Secondly, I have absolutely no idea at all on when I ovulate... My mucus never ever has appeared eggwhite-ish or anything so I can't really go by it. Sorry if tmi. What are the methods that you use and what have you found to be best? I know its personal so if you don't wish share please don't feel you have to :)

Also... as for a luteal phase... how on earth do you find out how long that is?

I feel a bit silly asking these questions:redface:... but I'm a newbie to the whole ovualtion tracking thing and I figure that you know what you're talking about and will probably give me much more reliable answers than what I might find on the internet (everything I read seems to conflict with the last thing I read.:doh:

Thank you so much.

J
xx

My goodness, what a fertile bunch of ladies you are at the moment! Bons, Reet, Kellbell (and Mum22 probably yes?) well done! FX for you all.

Clairesmummy: DTD the day before and the day of 'O' are meant to be ideal i think (and the day after couldn't hurt, although the eggs don't live long once they are released so it might be too late by then). So I hope you had enough energy for tonight!

Lil'J: Not sure but i had pain for a few days around the middle of a couple of my cycle after my 1st mc. It seemed to be related to 'O' although it felt more like AF rather than 'O' pain. It was new for me but a friend of mine said she's had it also. But when i was pg the first time i had cramping that felt like AF but was in a different spot to the usual. It was down the sides of my tummy rather than across my lower tummy. I had it from 10 days before AF was due until about 3wks AFTER it was due. So, it's hard to guess what you've got. Hoping for you that it's pg hormone related!

Forshelby, Dory, Damprye, minnimouse, melster and anyone i've missed, hi and hugs!

Hi all just an update...

I have redone tests today with a different brand and got a BFN this morning so I think crystal clear tests are unreliable and give false + for anyone thinking of testing.... Not the big midstream ones they were the smaller crystal clear ones with 2 blue lines for anyone who may want to avoid getting their hopes up and crushed!!

Anyway, I am getting off this site for a few days just to clear my head etc about oncoming AF.

Goodluck to everyone. Lots of babydust to you all

Goodluck Reet and Bons and Kell.

morning ladies....
reet...congratulations on the darker lines
lilj...sounds like it could me o pains
mum22...you poor thing...i hope ur ok....

well with me...im 6dpo and so far i have headaches...lower back pain...pinching in my stomach..feel slighty sick...vivid dreams.........the pregnancies before i have always known straight away that i was pregnant..this time its the same but im worried coz this time i want it so bad that i could be making the symptoms or its something else....doesnt feel like pmt coz normally i dont get symptoms till the day before........do u think im pregnant

Awww mum22 ur not out yet! Pls take care. See u soon xxx

Lil J- I have been taking clomid and it seems to give me a really sore lower abdomen around O time.. which i only managed to figure out last cycle! Im not sure if the same thing happens if ur doing it all natural.. maybe ur O'ing now??
U kinda need to know when you Oed to figure out ur luteal phase.. its from O day to the day u get af. It shld be 14 days. How many cd's are u normally?? Count back 14 from that and its probly likely U O'ed on that day. Does that make sense??!
I try and use ovulation predictor kits.. u can get them from woolies or the chemist.. i think u shld try them next cycle.. when ur lh is surging u get 2 dark lines then u know u will o in the next 2 days. They havent always worked for me but thats cos i had bought internet cheapies.
But yeah by the sounds of it u cld be O'ing OR it cld be implantation cramping!! :)
Good luck!

Hi Possum :) xx

Melster- It sounds promising to me!!! Are u going to test early at like 10dpo or wait it out??? :)

mum22: sorry to hear about ur bfn this morning, what brand test did you use today ? i only like first response, have never had a false positive with them

sending u big hugs and hoping af stays away :noaf:

OMG!!! I'm so slow catching up! So much for stalking! More like I'm dawdling - this thread moves at the speed of light!

What have I missed???

:leap: Reet!!! Bons!!! congratulations lovelies!!! Wow that is such great news for you both :leap: Wishing you both happy and healthy pregnancies and all the best for the coming weeks xxx

Hi to everyone, I'm going back now to catch up so if I've missed more happy news, sorry, I will be back!

Dory, so close now!!

congratulations kel..........

I wont be able to hold out im completely hopeless....i will test wednesday i think whixh will be 8dpo.....i have tested early before........im so anxious its not funny..im consumed....

congratulations kel..........

I wont be able to hold out im completely hopeless....i will test wednesday i think which will be 8dpo.....i have tested early before and got positive so hopefully it will happen this time.......im so anxious its not funny..im consumed....

Hi lovely ladies

Mum22 ~ Sorry you got a BFN but arent the Crystal clear ones supposed to be better than the others. So in other words it may be too early to show up on the others but you do in fact have a BFP. I hope so anyway hun and still have FX for you and :bluedust::stickyvibesgirl:

Clairesmummy ~ Sounds like we've had very similar cycles this month. Im at CD20 today and havent been able to tell if ive O'd yet or not. Usually I know pretty well but this cycle seems to be all over the shop. Im trying to not worry about it and just DTD as much as poss. I hope you got plenty in and have caught the egg hun, FX!

Reet ~ I havent done any OPK's no. Perhaps I should - might be too late now though. Think i'll just forget it all this month and look forward to IVF cycle coming up. Those pics are FANTASTIC! Hope you are starting to relax a bit more now - this is your time hun!!

Forshelby ~ thanks heaps hun xo. Either way im still happy and excited at the moment for upcoming IVF. Hope you're also starting to relax into it all more now. As each day passes you'll be great! Sending you stickyvibes that all continues well.

Damprye ~ Glad things are going well with your life. As for the TTC, I know what ya mean, sometimes its good to just not think about it and enjoy normal activity / everyday life for a while. Its frustrating and teadiess (cant spell lol) having to think am I or arent I pg all the time.

Lil'J ~ I know some people dont get much CM - everyones different so for you it might be best to use OPK's or saliva test (which I use). My cycles arent the ave. 28-30days, mine are more like 32-34 so I tend to ovulate around CD17 or 18 but this can also vary, hence this month I really have no idea what's happening :wall: Those sort of cramps are most likely ovulating or perhaps and hopefully pg cramps, FX.

Melster ~ GL and FX! :bluedust::stickyvibesgirl: Sounding positive!

AFM ~ CD20 and still dont know if Ive O'd. Oh well - not gunna stress over it. Antagonist cycle here we come and baby in our arms July/Aug next yr!!!

Hi everyone and anyone I may have missed. Stickyvibes for all! :grouphug:

afternoon everyone, melstar-good luck for wednesday...mum22-sorry for the bfn...lilj-i find ovulation kits pretty accurate for me to track 'o'...reet- congratulations...kellbell-congratulations...loops12-hope you 'o' soon,i 'o'd cd25 last cycle,it's frustrating...afm-my hormone tablets dose has been put up to 5 a day so i shouldn't have a long cycle this time around,embie transfer is due on the 27th,if it all goes according to plan

Matthewsmum ~ thanks for that, I think im actually starting to O now - soon after doing the last post I went to loo and there was quite a lot of CM (sorry if TMI).
FX and hoping for you everything goes to plan this time round. With the extra dosage im sure it will, GL and babydust.

Im feeling a bit light headed this arvo too - maybe we already caught the egg. Not gunna hold my breath though. Go to bed early tonight I think to give more of a chance ;)

I had an early miscarriage at 5 weeks in late June. We had been trying for 6 months and were so excited.

I was really shocked by my reaction to the MC then, and even now i just can't seem to bounce back from it. I still cry every day. My husband has been great so far but this week is really losing patience with me... i think he thinks i'm over-reacting and should just get over it. he talks a lot about other people's sad stories (ie. late miscarriages, terminations, sick babies etc) and although i know he's right that other people have it worse, it doesn't really make me feel any better.

My sadness/disappointment at this early MC makes me realise exactly how high the stakes are in the whole baby making process - which freaks me out! i don't know how i'd cope with a late MC or a still birth or a sick baby or all the other awful things that can happen.

Two of my girlfriends are pregnant at the moment and i look at their excitement and worry that i won't be like that if/when i fall pregant again - as i will know that it can all just disappear instantly and how horrible it all is.

I'm hoping to ovulate in 13 days and this whole crazy obsessing is just taking over my life!!

How do you stay sane ladies??? How do you "not think too much about it" ?? How do you "bounce back" and get excited/happy/hopeful about the process again?

Mum22 - A line is a line, hun... no such thing as a false positive. It either detects the hormone or doesn't. If the line has colour, then it's not an evap. (evaps are greyish) So as long as you looked at it within the right timeframe, and the line had colour (no matter how faint) it's a BFP. Don't despair that others have been BFN. Is AF late yet? Try not to lose hope just yet.... I had a good feeling about you this month.

Reet - Yay for a darker line! Great news. Thanks for sharing the pics, they look beautiful, and just like my early ones. CONGRATULATIONS again! It's hard waiting for that first scan, but I think 7 weeks is a good time to go. I got to see a hb then, so you will too! Hope you have fun camping with your DH, sounds fun :) And don't worry about jinxing anything, there's nothing you can do to affect the outcome. That can be good and bad. Make a ticker! I can't believe I'm into double digits today.... craziness.

Clairesmummy - So glad your stallion made it! And LOL@ your chooks on strike comment, that gave me a funny mental image. I think your plan of DTD until AF (or no af :D) is a good idea. And great news about the O pains! When will you accept that I am the future-forseeing oracle and believe me when I say you will O, just a few days late. I'm getting good at this lol.... Seems like last night's BD might have done the trick if you're Oing today! One more round can't hurt though hehe

Damprye - wow that's a great improvement, hun! That sure can't hurt your TTC plans :) Let me know how you go with the liver.

Lil'J - Sounds like O cramps to me. AF should be due about 14 days after O. Your luteal phase is every day after O to AF. Easily enough counted if you can pinpoint your O day. I reccomend OPKs to determine this. I also used the cm method, but was lucky enough to get clear signals from my body. Cramping, sex drive, and obvious ewcm. Hope that answered some of your questions, hun. It's a lot of information to take in at first, but you'll be a pro in no time... hehe.

Possum - Hi, hun! How are you doing? Yes, these ladies are a rather fertile bunch... hehe. It's so wonderful to see everyone getting their BFPs. It won't be long before you get another one, too. Hang in there, sweetie, you're doing amazingly.

Melster - It's possible you're pg.... I guess you know your body better than anyone else. Only about another week and you can test. FX for you!

Alice - Hi, how are you? Long time no see. You're right, this thread does move very quickly. If I don't log in every day I get left behind! G/L for your IVF, hun!

Loops - I love your positive attitude. I really do reccomend the OPKs though.... they worked great for me. You WILL have a baby in your arms next year. And that's FINAL! Hehehe... Like my authoritive tone? I've been practising. I am starting to relax a little, but I still have my slight doubts. They come and go, much like my symptoms. I'm just looking forward to my scan in 2 weeks time where I will hopefully see a beautiful little bubby kicking around in there.

Matthews Mum - Oh I have my FX for your next embie xfer to go ahead as planned. Best of luck to you, hun.

AFM, Can't believe this is my last week of work for the next say... 18 months. :o It's a scary thought! Identity crisis, here I come. Only 4 days to go. I'm so lucky to have a DP who's so supportive of me and willing to take care of me while I grow our bubby.

Hi to anyone I may have missed.

Hi glenglen and welcome. Sorry to have to see u in here tho :(
Time is the greatest healer.. u cant rush things. I found having all the girls in here has helped me hugely too! I think if i didnt have this place to open up and talk about my emotions etc. i wld have gone crazy. I reckon if u stick around in here u will agree too :)
And trust me we are all far from sane! Once ur serious about ttc and especially after a m/c i think its hard to go back to ur 'old life' where ttc wasnt number 1 on ur priority list. I am so very obsessed with it its not funny! U will find we will all be here to cheer u on during O time and also help u thru the 2ww.. it really does help having ppl who understand and have been thru the same thing... this helps to get some of the excitment back into it. I was so afraid that when i got my next bfp i wld be too terrified to even be excited about it.. but i have found its not as hard as i first thought.. (got my bfp a few days ago :) ) ofcourse that fear is there but right now i am one step closer to having a baby so im happy.. and u will feel exactly the same way.
Hang in there.. talk to us whenever u like about whatever u like. xxx

Glenglen - Welcome to the thread, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. Your husband doesn't seem to know what to say to comfort you...... and honestly, what could he say that would ever make it better? For me, the sadness and disappointment never went away, it just eased over time. I still think about our first bubby, but it's just not as painful anymore. Don't push yourself to 'bounce back' before you're ready. There is no right timeline for grief. I did find that planting a little garden helped me feel like I had closed the book, so to speak, and done something to honour our baby. It was comforting to have something tangible.

I don't know if any of this has helped, but I just want you to know it's totally ok to feel the way you do. And Reet is right. There's no going back to your old life. You will find your 'new normal' though. Allow your lost baby to touch your life and change it for the better. You'll be stronger and softer for it all at the same time. My own loss has taught me a lot of things, mostly patience and sensitivity. I've also had the opportunity to reach out to several people in their time of loss and sadness, and having my own experience gave me the courage I needed to talk to them, and offer what comfort I could.

Take it one day at a time, and don't try to push memories of your pg out of your mind. It's like trying not to think of pink elephants. You're thinking of pink elephants now, aren't you? :) Seriously though, we're all here for you.

Loops- Woohoo for finally O'ing!! I really hope u catch that eggy! but if not yay that oct is just around the corner!! Pls remind me of that tho cos right now it feels like ages til im 12 weeks ;) xx

Forshelby- Congratulations to u for being 10 weeks!! Ur almost out of the scary 12 week stage! yay!! 2 weeks til ur scan.. woohoo! 3 weeks til mine! Lets make time fly!! :) xxx

Reet - thanks so much. I think i do need to speak to other fellow OBSESSORS :)

this whole process is crazy, even though i said i'd never be like this.... but here i am with a spreadsheet detailing everything to do with my cycle. Nuts.

i'm magically hoping that all this sadness/disappointment will just disappear when i get pregnant next.

it's really great to hear some happy stories from some of you on here - it gives me hope !!

all i seem to hear from friends/family is how they "fell pregnant first time" or "we weren't even trying"... it also sucks that my hubby has had 4 unplanned pregnancies with ex-girfriends (all terminated) so there is some subconscious guilt on my part that is 'must be me'.

so thanks - i feel better already :)
at least i've had AF last week and am back counting days again (read "obsessing") and looking forward to my next O - bring it on!

Reet - Hehee, you make me giggle. Yep, I can't believe I'm almost up to the second trimester. The fear isn't as all consuming as I thought it would be. I still worry now and then, but then the calm just washes over me again. I can't explain where it's coming from! Somebody is definitely looking out for me, and helping me to stay relaxed. Maybe it's my Gran? I'll help you make the weeks fly, too. When I'm home all day, I'm making it my personal mission to entertain you... LOL

And thanks for the reputation points :) I love the psychic comment... lol. I'm probably not psychic, I just 'read' people I'm connected to (if that makes sense and doesn't sound crazy). I always felt a strong connection to you right from the first time I posted in here.

Glenglen- First of all I am so sorry for your loss darl, it is a tragic thing to go through, and instead of making a long post I will just say ditto to all that everybody else has said. This is a great place to vent and everybody in here is so supportive and understanding, if it wasn't for BB I to would still be struck down with greif of losing our bub in April this year. I wish you all the best and hope you get your BFP soon.
Loops- We are very close with our cycles today is CD22 for me and I'm pretty sure I O'd yesterday just waiting for the temp. rises now to confirm it for me. FX we might get our BFPs together then. :pray: Good luck with cathcing you egg.
Forshelby- Wow 10 weeks now that is fabulous so can't wait to read about your scan in 2 weeks time, I can't believe how fast time flies by. I'm glad my chook comment made you laugh, obviously my little chooky must be still laying its eggs cause I'm sure I O'd yesterday, had cramps most of the evening yesterday and they started yesterday morning eased off then hit again in the p.m. Did'nt DTD last night though we both crashed as soon as our heads hit the pillow. Ah well if this aint our month there's always next. Lol.
AFM- Went into town today to do some shopping town in 1 and a half hours away from home though and I am so worn out tonight so I doubt we will get any bding in tonight. Just have to wait and see when the wicked AF arrives and count down till next O if my chookys and DFs scuba divers have let us down this month....lol.
Here's to the TWW...:wall: