Hi Everyone,

I hope all is well - it took me a little while to catch up. I had a pretty crazy week at work so couldn't post but am pleased to say that I'm now on holidays!!! I'm not going back to work until Wendesday, September 20 - a whole week and a half. And my god do I need it right now!!!!

Sorry for the lack of personals but I've just had the WORST night of my entire life (well maybe not quite as bad as the night after I found out I'd lost my little angel and had the D&C but VERY close to that). I haven't slept a wink and managed to pick up the worst gastro bug I've ever had (and unfortunately, I've had a few). I'm soo sorry if this is tmi but the diarrhoea and stomach cramps were just the worst I could ever imagine! Worst of all, I fainted and scared DH to death. Got the sweats really, really bad and then started seeing blood in the loo. I just burst into tears thinking that I was loosing the baby but when I wiped, there wasn't anything there - turns out, it's coming from my bum!! (again so sorry - tmi) Now I'm freaking out and feel like crap (literally - he he). God, I can't believe I'm telling you all this - sorry - how embarrassing if I even end up meeting any of you! I hope no-one I know is reading this!!!

Anyway if I wasn't already worried enough, this has tipped me over the edge. I was pretty bad last night and I just don't know how my little baby will get through it all. The thing that worries me the most is the high temperatures and sweats that I was getting - and the blood!!! I was completely 'out of it' for a while there.

I don't know if anyone knows anything about all of this????? I just can't cope with it all and desperately want to go and hide under a big rock. Luckily I have the greatest Mum in the world and she's on her way over here as DH had to go off to uni (he's doing his MBA). I think she's going to take me back to her place for the day and I'm going to try and call my GP to put my mind at ease.

Sorry guys, just had to get all that out.

Sez honey - it's sounding so great for you!!! If you're ready then I say 'GO FOR IT', I'm sure all will be fine!! They do say the best time to fall is when you're not really trying, so I say just enjoy the bd'ing and let nature do it's thing!!!

Michelle - I'm soo sorry af arrive. Big hugs for you . Take care!

Kelly xx