Hi All,

Michelle, i am so glad that you are feeling a bit better now that AF has left the building, here's hoping you wont see her for another 10 months! Thanks for your kind words, i really thought that things would be easier for me with pregnancy after i managed to get Lucy out without any complications but it just doesnt appear that this is so. I would email you but i dont know your address mine is kab2803@hotmail.com I also totally understand what you are saying about being pregnant again taking away a little bit of your link with Caitlyn, i felt the same way before i get pregnant with Lucy and i also felt a little bit guilty about being pregnant again (it didnt help me that i was pregnant again quickly before Katelyn was even due but thats another story). I can tell you with my whole heart that being pregnant again will not change your bond with Caitlyn in any way. Caitlyn will always be your first born child/daughter and she knows this. I used to tell my Katelyn that i wanted to get pregnant again not to replace her but to have a little bit of the joy that we felt with her in our lives back again and it was because of the happiness that she brought us while she was alive that i wanted another child. i dont know if this helps you at all but i am sure 100% in my heart that you having another child will not change the bond that you have with Caitlyn. In fact out of all the scans that i have had (i had 1 a fortnight with Lucy) my favorite and the one that i remember the most is the 12w one with Katelyn (it was at her 18w scan we found out things were wrong). So even though you will create new memories with a new baby your memories will remain strong with Caitlyn in your heart. Anyway i wont go on here email me if you want to chat.

Lisa, My heart goes out to you mate, it is such a hard time leading up to your EDD. I too found the lead up worse than the actual day because on the day you can do something nice to remember your baby. Its great that you and your DH are going to have some time together, i too have a star for my Katelyn that is always clearly visable around her birth date but there are lots of other things that you can do, email me if you want to chat about things i know its a hard time and you need all the understanding supportive friends that you can get.

Naomi, I was so shocked to read your message and really upset for you, you have had so much to deal with already let alone having to put off TTC for at least a few months. You might not think it but you are incredibly strong and you will make a fantastic mother when you are blessed with a BFP again. Keep coming around darl as you know i just float around hoping for that BFP (lol at myself).

Amy, glad to hear that you are feeling better.

Hi to everyone else although bugger i cant remember what everyone said...my darling Lucy turned off the computer (i had a full box of copy paper in front of the switch) and i lost my whole post and cant remember what you guys said lol. Hope that you are all well and hanging in there on this tough journey.

As for me my dad told me today that they might not be going away next year after all now (so where does that leave me with the waiting to TTC then lol) but they dont know whether they will or whether they wont.....hmmmm maybe i will just start trying for real and make up their minds for them lol.

Catch you guys next week i am off to perth for a few days tomorrow arvo and i dont think i have time to make it on here in the morning. Big hugs all round.

Love Sarah xx