BONS - congratulations on that BFP girl..... you are now betwixt and between.... the fear is paralysing huh? Sweetie just take it one moment at a time and if you can each day put your hands on your tum and be grateful for that moment. Even if all you can eek out is one moment a day.... after a while ( a long while) those moments add up and the fear is not quite as overwhelming. I am just so happy for you.

Loops - Ahh, bills always consume our money... just glad you had some left over. I am getting excited for you. I am resting..... still. I think despite how hard it has been for me, giving up work so early was the best thing I could have done. I realised the other day I have not been at work or had my old life for almost 6 months. This is my new life now and with luck it will shortly change to something different but entirely welcome.

Reet - oh blossom. I do know what you mean about in laws... except mine is a step mother. I wouldn't have gotten them on the phone either.... it's almost like dobbing and all you wanted to do was vent.

Forshelby - LOL re the ****roach induced vomiting. When you're UTD things are much more sensitive than they are normally. LOL. I get the whole germ thing but I have decided it's something that I need to get over or at least relax a little on. But in my defense it's not all germs that I am hypersensitive about... mostly just gastro ( but then again after one bout of gastro I ended up with what the specialists called "post viral complications..... I had relatively intense nausea 24/7 for about 3 years...all the investigations under the sun were done.. at least I had nothing nasty....no wonder I became hypersensitive about gastro). I am with you on the spiders too. I am so pathetic, it drives me insane. Usually before I can stop myself, if a spider is near me I squeal and run away. Very brave, especially when I weight about 1000 times more than it does.

Mathew's Mum - thinking of you and hope that this cycle is the one that brings the next bfp and sticky bub. I didn't know cycles got longer with age...

Welcome to the newbies - Ajello and Melstar and Lil J - hopefully your stay in here is short, and I am so sorry that you had to experience the anguish of losing your angels to find your way here. I still lurk in here but don't always post.

AFM - well 34 weeks now. I am completely and utterly amazed that that number can apply to me... I adore my new shape, even if it's inconvenient at times. Time for me to start changing my head space to labour being something that is ok & good rather than the harbinger of heartache. I am still not converted to the idea that this little one will be ok, but I don't think I could expect anything else of myself really. What's cute is DH is actually really excited. Thanks for the girls in here who really helped support me in the early days ( as you know it took me a long time to find the courage to move to another thread) - you really helped me through some very dark & lonely days earlier this year. I appreciate it and am ever hopeful you'll need that same help soonl