i need to join this thread!! i lurk sometimes (admittedly) but have never posted. lately im feeling as though i need some added support & the way you all care for and advise each other is wonderful to read..

i would have been 35 weeks pregnant today, but lost my baby at 7 weeks in January. i have learnt to deal with my greif however, lately it seems everyone around me is pregnant - a feeling i know many people can relate too! its not that i am not happy for these people, more jealous. most are "whoopsy" babies.. and the biggest heartbreaker is my DP's 18 year old sister, who is due early Aug. she smoked pot throught her whole pregnancy & had an abortion last year.

i wonder how after about 15 months of TTC i can be soo far away from my dream of a baby...
sometimes i feel i need a way to get my baby "fix".. i think of names & i look at the things i wanna buy in the stores.. it helps for a moment but doesnt compare to knowing there is someone growing inside you.