Thanks to all for the kind words, last night i slept a little better.
I feel like i am moving through so many levels of grief in a very quick time. ATM i am currently blank. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow, not sure what happens from here. The hospital gave me very little information, and as you all know the internet is so contridicting with every different site.

My mum and sis gave me a little angel statue last night with the words "a new star in heaven" on the bottom, for me to keep.
Its good to know that i have family here with me that care so much, and lovely people like you on here that understand what im feeling and going through.


Possum Magic - I know i will have the same problem as you, my bestfriend is 8 weeks pg with her 2nd, so only two weeks ahead. I know its going to be hard for me, but i have to find a way to be supportive of her.

Forshelby - Thank you for understanding. Its still hard no matter how many times i hear that its not my fault, its my body. its still feels like i should have done something different. Good luck with your upcoming scan!!!

Clairesmummy - Last night i thought i had no tears left then DH had flowers delivered to the door with a beautiful card and proved me wrong. Im glad to see ppl who have had the same experience excited about ttc again. I hope i am the same!!

Kellbell - I feel a little uneasy dumping all my feelings on everyone in here, but am so glad you have opened your arms, it really is good to talk to ppl who have experienced the same thing. good luck this month

Reet - Being that i only found out at 5 weeks, i went from having the best day in my life, to the worst day by far. I am off work again today, but think i will have to head in tomorrow. Life goes on i guess.