Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss ~ June/July 2010

Morning All,
Forshelby - Im feeling for you hun, so sorry to hear about your Gran.....it is going to be an incredibly draining week for you, so please take some time to look after yourself and rest xxx
Mathewsmum - 3 days til the evil blood collections start again! dont you wish they could just put a cannula in and leave it there for a bit....what do you think of when you are having them? xxx
Kellbell - So Sorry to hear about your FIL, hugs hun xxx
IonaMacca - I do love my new present, maybe i will tell him that it is a christmas in July present hehe so then i can get some lenses for christmas in december....Glad you got to BD every 2nd day, FX for you xxxx
Alice - Lovely to have you pop in :) SO glad your body is behaving itself! Bring on the IVF! I have been thinking about you up in the mtns with the cold weather and snow.....I used to love going to the Hydro majestic for coffee/cake and watching the snow out the window xxxx
Murraycod - If you are lurking around, Belly rubs for you and bubba cod, I hope you are doing well! xx
Loops - Is your IVF getting closer?
Reet - How is everything up there?
Minniemouse - Hope everything is getting better for you! xxx
Dory - How did you go at the obs yesterday??? I hope it is nothing serious and you are resting up. xxx
AFM - well I gave in and tested BFN, Im trying to keep up a little hope that i tested too early, had a cry with Dh last night, mostly I feel angry that my body keeps failing me....I just dont know what to think....Slowly learning about my camera, so much to remember!
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Kellbell- hope ur feeling better this morning. I feel like that at times.. just so bloody frustrated and sad. Its way too early to be getting symptoms.. so dont rely just on that yet. The 2ww wait does do ur head in.. but right now im feeling quite relaxed.. cos i have done all i can to fall pg and theres not as much stress as when im in the week long bd bonanza or waiting for af to disappear. It also helps that i dont really have any idea as to when i Oed so i dont know when i can test or when af is due.. haha im clueless!! not knowing helps me to relax tho.
Hope its a lovely sunny day today where u are.. always helps to brighten up ur mood xxx

Another quickie..
Bons- sorry to hear about bfn.. lets hope it was just too early.. FX. xx

Morning everyone

Thanks Reet that means alot to me you are so sweet. We did everything we could as well just want to know one way or the other. Feeling better today i had a killer headache and felt a bit nauseous but prob nothing to do with anything. Can you send me some of your calmness im sending myself crazy

Bons - your new camera sounds great.I tried to get an ipad out of DP for chrissy but alas it didn't work. i really want one!!!
Hope it was just too early for your BFP fingers crossed

Matthews mum - hope you get your date soon so you can get your little bubba in.

Dampyre - sorry about your friend its not fair the world is so cruel sometimes i just don't get it :-(

Minniemouse- so glad to hear your DD is okay. you always worry about them don't you hope it dosen't scar

forshelby - travel safe hope you got off that train by now and those evil smells

Iona - how are you going in your tww? going crazy like me :lol:

Sorry if i have missed anyone this thread moves so fast girls!!!

I think we need a list of us all in the TWW?

morning all ,bons-sorry it was a bfn,hope it is just too early.I think about the big picture & those 2 lines we all are wanting to see,I'm grateful that i'm able to do ivf,i often think of women years ago (before ivf was around)who after being told 'you wont fall pregnant again naturally'or something similiar ,they had so fewer choices than what i have...reet-glad your finding the tww bearable..forshelby-.hope the plane trip is more pleasent for you...ionamacca-keeping busy in the tww??.

kellbell-thanks for your thoughts ,thinking of you too,i hope this tww brings you your bfp ,glad your feeling brighter this morning,how long before you test?

I dont know when im going to?? my FF says i ovulated day 13 but i think it could have been later like the weekend like day 15 or 16. So have to hang out till next week at least. im going mad lol. really trying to hold off as late as possible as id rather not see a chemical pregnancy as it breaks my heart.
and those single lines are evil i hate em so would rather AF come then see it.
You starting your blood tests soon?
it must have been so hard in the past when ladies couldn't get pregnant they would have had limited choices.
i really hope this is your month how are you felling about it all?

Woohoo my comp seems to be going fast again.. thank goodness!

Kellbell- I know exactly what u mean about hating seeing those single lines.. i said last month that i wld rather get af then see them.. i ended up testing tho and was absolutely devastated.. its just not worth it hey! I think i wlda o'ed around the time u did.. really not sure tho.. im pretty sure i got the +opk on thurs nite so a day or 2 after that.. i really have no idea tho! I dont know if ill use opks next month (hopefully i never have to think about them again!) they seem like a bit of a waste of money. I shld maybe start temping, altho that seems pretty confusing too.. maybe i might try and go with the flow! thats a better idea! haha dont think it'll happen tho. Im not sure why im so calm this month.. i think im just starting to lose faith.. im getting over the whole ttc thing.. ive been obsessed for too long and it hasnt got me anywhere! Im just glad my body is doing what it shld be now. Just start thinking to urself if its going to happen it will.. and if it doesnt then theres a reason why.. who knows what but obviously the universe isnt ready to give u ur bub just yet. But with all that said I think by next week i will be a crazy lady!! Have u got any hpts stocked up?? Sorry for the long ramble Ill leave u alone now! :)
Oh! one last thing, im so sorry to hear about ur fil.. its awful :( i guess its good that ur dd had the chance to meet such a wonderful man. I hope a miracle happens and he survives. Hows ur mil coping? Thinking of u xx

Matthews mum- Hello :) do ur kids keep ur mind off things a bit?? do u let on about what ur going thru..?? or is it easier if they dont know all details..? I hope u dont need too many blood tests this time.. it seemed like u were getting blood tests all the time last cycle! poor thing! Is the place where u have to go for them close to ur house??

Bons- Im glad ur dh was home with u last nite.. its always good to have a shoulder to cry on. When does he have to go back to work?? So are u testing again or just going to wait to see if af comes? Do u have any af symptoms yet?? I know of a few ppl that have only gotten positives on day af is due, i so hope ur one of them xx

Damprye- So sorry to hear about ur friend.. its awful. How far along was she?? Is she holding up ok??

Minnie- Glad ur dds eye healed up well. When can u start ttc again?? Oh and im glad ur brother is starting to hopefully see ur side of things a bit better.

Forshelby- Have a good little break with ur family. And give that tummy a few rubs for me! :)

Dory- How did ur appointment go yesterday??

AFM- Well like i have said I have no idea when I O'ed so not too sure when af is due.. I think ill wait til probably day 35 and then start getting excited. I am defintely not buying any hpts until then tho!! DH left today for 5 days.. No cooking or cleaning for me! Its just me and my 3 furbabies :)

Oh and i wanted to say Kellbell- like i said earlier its way too early to be getting any promising symptoms.. u only normally get them once baby has implanted itself.. thats when ur hormones start changing.. and that can happen anywhere from like 5 to 11 days after O'ing. So dont worry! :) (just become crazy like me and check everytime u go to the toilet for those implantation specks of blood!)

And i knew I forgot to write to someone before.. Iona!! How cld i miss u!! Theres just so many ppl in here I can barely keep up! :
How are u going?? Are u feeling calm in this 2ww or are u a crazy lady??! And yes i have heard that every 2nd night bding is best.. I only did it every nite cos i didnt want to let a chance pass me by!! By the end of our bonanza i dont think there wld have been many little swimmers left!

Hello to Loops too.. glad ur still around!! :)

And Alice- My edd is approaching too.. 19th sept. I am starting to get a bit nervous about it. I cant believe so much time has passed.. it sends me into a bit of a panic thinking about it. I hope u cope ok xx

xxx

kellbell-bt's start on thursday.Hope you can find something to distract you for a bit (movie,book,craft,shopping,cooking)...reet-yes, my other kids are a distraction,also a reminder of how much i want to give them another sibling,lots of people don't understand why i'm going through the ivf process when i already have 3 living children,but i do feel it will help them as well as me in living our lives without Matthew's physical prescense.They all know i'm trying to have another bub,i try to be open & honest with them according to their individual age & ability,the 2 older girls understand more of the medical stuff especially my 18 y.o.,ds1(4) knows mummy is going to see lots of dr's & nurses to help get another baby.I needed extra bt's last cycle as i 'o'd late which has become the norm for me,clinic still wants bme to start the tests early just in cause my body decides to 'o' earlier.Depends on the day whether i can have the tests close to home,if pathology close to home is closed,then i need to go to clinic,there opened every day,it is only a bit over an hour away.Enjoy your time with your furbabies

Was just reading back on the other page has anyone heard from Dory wasn't she seeing her OB yest arvo for leaking fluid. Hope she is okay

Kellie - No I haven't heard from Dory, will check up on her tomorrow when I get a minute though. I hope all is well. Sorry to hear about your FIL :( I hope things aren't as bad as they look, and he comes through alright. And I did manage to make it through the travel without vomiting. But woah, people and things are stinky!

Reet - Thanks for the congrats, lol. I already had 3 separate cries today, so embarrassment, lol. Hopefully you're like me and somehow psychicly don't buy any more opks, and then wind up not needing them too. hehe... :)

Iona - I will give my belly a rub for you tonight, hehehehe. And yep, the smells are REALLY bothering me. I'm taking that as a good sign though.

Bons - Sorry about the BFN, let's hope you tested too early and you're utd right now..... hugs, hun

AFM, I want meat. Heh, I don't know why. I hope you guys don't mind me hanging around for a little bit longer, I don't want to leave all you lovely ladies just yet! Sorry if I missed anyone too, I'm knackered after all the travelling and a bit slow in the head. LOL. I tried twice to hang a towel on a rack but forgot twice. ahha.... craziness.

Time to go to sleep now before I pass out. :) take care ladies

Thanks to everyone who said hi and asked after me, you're a lovely lot in here :) but boy it's hard keeping up!!

Sorry for a quickie, just checking in for an update from Dory...Dory, hope your appointment went Ok this afternoon and all is well with you and bub xx

Not like Dory to not be around. Hope she and bubs are okay and shes just busy

Kellbell, I'm worried too. Dory, if you do get to read this, you are in my thoughts - I'm sending you lots of love and hugs and hoping with all my might that things are OK for you and bub. Looking forward to hearing from you xx

Same here Alice hope bubs is still safe and she is just busy away from the computer.
She hasn't posted anywhere i can see since her OB appointment. Sorry to be stalking you Dory:redface: you are just so kind and caring with your words so was worried about you
Wherever you are sending lots of love too for you and bubs and hope you are both safe and well xoxox

Hiya - I wanted to say thankyou for thinking of me and asking about me. Sorry to leave you hanging. All is good and my Obs was so understanding and reassuring. I had some internet probs since Monday arvo, hence the delay, but all good now.

When I get the chance to read the posts I'll be back.

dory-thanks for the update,glad eveything is okay...thinking of everyone

Hi Ladies
Thanks for the hello's and wishes.

Kellbell ~ Sorry about your FIL :hug: - not good all this illness happening, stay strong.
Bons ~ We are booked in for Oct but may be able to do it earlier. Just playing it by ear and seeing how our finances go. Sorry about your BFN this cycle, keep trying. Big hugs

ForShelby ~ Sorry about your grandma passing hun, very sad :comfort: Feeling for you. Take care of yourselves

Hi everyone
Hoping you all get BFP's very soon :crossfingers:

Yah glad all is well!! Sorry for worrying Dory - damn internet!! x

Dory- I am so glad to hear you and bub are ok.

ForShelby- Mmmm meat.. I have the same craving atm haha weird hey although I'm not UTD :p perhaps you need the iron or protien?

Matthew's Mum- I hope this month goes better and you get your baby real soon.

Reet- You have more will power than me. I was not going to get any more OPKs but I folded lol I so can't wait till test day.

kellie- I'm not entirely sure which day I O'd either. It is sooooo frustrating.

Sorry to those I missed, I'm on my phone again.

AFM- Well first off my friend is doing ok under the circumstances and thankfully her DH is back to give her lots of well needed hugs.
Things are only getting better with my DP :) I am so happy with him and feeling really safe. I'm still not sure if I actually O'd this month especially cos my temp will climb one day, go down a lil the next then plummet, then repeat....even after FF says I O'd. I think I must have O'd at some point though cos I have been getting "symptoms" but they are probably all in my head lol.... Probably TMI but I had a weird sex dream last night so DP got an unexpected surprise this morning ;) My CM and cervix have also gone to my normal after O state so that is good . I guess only time will tell though. i will probably use the test in a few days... Depending on how long I can hold out lol.

Hi everyone, just another quickie.. I'm really on the go the last couple of days. Sorry in advance if I don't mention you by name. I am thinking of you all.

Dory - So glad everything is ok with you and bubs. We were all getting a little worried there.

Damprye - I had a crazy raunchy dream on 11dpo, the day before my BFP. How many DPO are you? Sorry, I'm struggling to remember and keep up these days.

AFM, Today was the day af was supposed to be due. I was feeling nervous, but she hasn't shown, and has shown no signs of showing. I told DP today was the day I could officially feel excited. So yay. I do have some strange pinchy crampy feelings VERY low down. Not sure what that's about. It's almost like a tingling sensation. Mum said from what she remembers that's pretty normal.

ForShelby- I hope AF stays away so bubby can stay stuck :D

I think I am on 8DPO but not entirely certain, my chart this month has been reasonably erratic, if I O'd on CD 13 then I am 8 but if CD10 then I am 11DPO but then that is if I did 0 at all.

My syptoms so far are;
Backache
Erotic dreams
Bloated
Cramps
Increased Appetite (this one as of this morning)
Increased Sex Drive (this one as of this morning)
Irritability
Nausea
Fatigue- I already had a nap today lol
Skin Break Out
Gassy
Headaches
and Tender Breasts (this one as of this morning)

Yep sorry Dory for worrying silly computers not working properly. Come back soon!

Dampyre sounds really promising - what day are you testing?

Forshelby hope you stay around for awhile before you head to the other thread.
Are you going for blood tests when you get back?

Loops thanks for the support. its not fair IVF should cost so much. hope its soon for you

Reet and Iona how are you going in your TWW any promising symptoms yet?

Sorry to everyone i have missed

thanks for all your support i really like being in here all you girls are so nice. my FIL doesn't know if he wants the operation as he is quite scared at the moment. if he doesn't have it then he has no hope. but its a huge operation to get through.

still no symptoms here my breasts do feel a bit different today but it could just be my imagination
i am tired and hungry though. I'm trying to relax and not analyze everything but its so so hard !!

got some more snuggles of my friends baby today for about a hour it was so beautiful he is gorgeous :heartbeat:

Kellie- Your FIL has a very hard decision ahead of him and it will affect everyone either way, all anyone can do in these situations is hope that he can get through this with as little pain as possible no matter the outcome :( We will be here for you :)

I'm not sure which day to test yet, I'm thinking to go by my ticker but I might test early incase I did O CD10 because there is still hope for a BFP then hehe. I have some internet cheapies left so I might use them to test on the 10th and then my FRER on the 13th and if still nothing and no AF then I will test again on the 18th like FF suggest lol. I'm hoping by then that I will get some sort of answer, if not then back off to the the docs with me.

Matthews mum- Oh my goodness i cant believe the clinic is an hr away from u! Thats ages! I guess im lucky that everything in cairns is pretty close to me. Atleast it wld only be 1 or 2 days a week u have to do that hey. I hope ur body is nice to u and u O sooner rather then later.

Damprye- U sound like me.. i have no idea when i shld be testing since Im not sure when I Oed. Im kinda glad im not temping..dont think i cld handle the confusion it adds to ttc! Great list of symptoms u have too.. FX it leads to a BFP!

Kellbell- Im sure ur FIL will do what he feels is right. When will he have the op if he chooses that option?? How is ur dh coping?? Oooooh i hope ur symptoms turn into a BFP!!! Yay that u have started getting some!

Forshelby- WOOHOO for being 4 weeks pg today!!!! :) if u choose too u can go for a scan in 2 weeks! i think someone else also asked but are u getting bloods done when u get back or just relax for a little while??

Dory- Glad everything is fine.. u had us all worried! :)

Hello to Alice, Loops, Bons- has af arrived?? i hope not!! And everyone else!!

AFM- I have got no symptoms whatsoever.. hopefully its cos i am just not looking into things with my body at the moment tho. Im just basically ignoring myself! Im not letting my mind think about anything.. Im not sure what day im on (i know i cld look at my ticker but im not going too!) I just keep thinking the longer i leave it til i start working out when af is due etc.. the less stress i have!!
Very weird tho girls I had a sex dream yesterday morning too.. whats with all of us!! Bunch of randy women arent we all in here!

Damprye - those symptoms sound promising, I second Kellie... when are you testing?

Kellie - yep I'm going to call my doctor before I get back to the coast, hoping to get in to see him saturday morning before we head to the hotel. (romantic anniversary getaway) :) I'm going to ask for bt's I think..... I assume they won't do another urine test since I've done 2... and will do another 2 when I get home. LOL. About your FIL, I know he's scared, but if he avoids the op, then he will have no chance. Sorry if that sounded harsh. I just think if going through the op means some small glimmer of hope, then he should go for it. Nobody wants to die.... :( I'm so sorry hun, sending you strength in this tough time.

I was talking to the girls in chat and they managed to convince me to test lol... I think there is a second line :o
It is the faintest of faint lines but the other girls think they can see it too.
Oh I don't know if I should get excited yet or not.
Can anyone else see it? My test. Does it look like a :bfp: or a :bfn:? I am so not sure.
If I tip the screen back I think I can see it and if I invert it and tip it forwards I think I can see it even better but then again I just might be wanting it so badly that I am seeing what is not really there, OMG so much more confused and so excited... when should I test again ???? Arg what should I think???
Bloomin' peer pressure LOL

Damprye - I'm pretty sure I see a line! About 1.5cm or so left of the control. Test again at 10 or 11dpo. I hope this is it, hun, I really do. Keep us all posted!!!!!

Damprye- Maybe i can?? not really sure tho.. its hard to tell in photos.. its also hard to tell in real life sometimes too!! have u got any first response tests?? if not get 1 tomoro morning and test with that. Yay!! Good luck! Be sure to keep us posted!!

oh my god.its a line alright and im looking from my phone not on computer.test in morning if u can.waiting to hear result.

Looks like a line to me!
are you testing again the morning:D
How exciting!!!!

looks like forshelby you have started the trend :dance:

Reet - I'm hoping to get in for some bloods asap, and I'm taking my dates from Monday when I got my BFP. So that makes me 4+3 today. Still no sign of af, just that low down slight crampiness. I'm just about to try to book an appointment with my doctor for Saturday morning after I get back home. Oh and LOL@ the sex dream. I hope that's a good sign for you like it was for me!

Kellie - I'm so pleased to set the BFP trend. Who else is with me? :D

AFM, can't WAIT to get back home to my spunky DP. I forgot how stressful it is being here. Mum is so............. melodramatic. Everything is so hard. Everything is 'the end of the world'. I can't open a window, I'm wrong about everything... i remember now why I ran for the hills as soon as I was 18. I love her, but sometimes I think she's just so disrespectful of our rights as adults! She's spent most of the time telling my sister and I our views and way of life is wrong, or crazy. Also, she is totally unconcerned with the level of dust in the house, which I'm having a hard time with, and my sister has an allergy to dust. She seems to think it's totally normal to leave 10 years worth of dust in your old bedroom, and to make you sleep in it without opening a window. I don't even know how to describe the insanity! It's almost as if her laziness, and self absorbtion has taken over to a level where our HEALTH isn't even important anymore. We dared move out, so we deserve to come back to a dust filled house. I can actually see it floating in the air.

Thank goodness I'm flying out tomorrow and can get away from the stupidity. Don't worry though, I'm keeping as calm as I can. I just won't be coming back in a hurry.

Sorry for the long ranting vent.... stuff is just really getting to me. Anyone else have a mum like this? :o

damprye-how did testing go this morning?big hello to everyone

ForShelby- Sorry that it wasn't what you were expecting, sometimes we forget just how bad things really were.
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Hi everyone, sorry for the quicky, my modem got covered in water this morning so my internet is out for a while, borrowing a mates.
I tested again this morning, it is still about as light as last night but I decided to do an OKP while I was at it and it came back a STRONG positive, the test line is lots darker than the control line and that was at 3mins instead of 5mins. My temp also had a masive jump today, it is the highest it has ever been, 36.77. Normally after O it sits at 36.4-36.6. I have no idea what to think now, my chart has been kinda climbing after O but nothing like this. I'm not sure if I really did O when FF said and when I got my last +OPK. I got my + on cd12 and now I have this one.... ARG.
I don't know when I can check the net again but any opinions would be appreciated. My chart i attached to my sig and I added this mornings temp. I also probably wont be able to update it till I can ue the net again either but yeah, any thought would be aweome... so much for a quicky lol.

GL to everyone else and I hope we all get our BFPs soon and H&H 9 months to follow :)

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Haha my modem is working again already woohoo, I had no idea how I was going to handle the next few days with out you girls lol. I can't believe I don't need a new one after all :D

Anyways I have my pic of my OKP with the HPT next to it. I know that it is definately a +OPK but as I said above, I am even more confused lol. I wish I had of taken pics of the one I took back then grr.

I think I will just take it as a +OPK and -HPTs at least that way I can't get disappointed.

Dampyre- that looks like a second line to me!!!! Yay test again, test again!
Dory - Glad everything is ok, i was going crazy checking :) !
forshelby - There is nothing like home is there! Hope you get an appt quick ! xxx
Reet - Looked at your ticker yet? or still going with the head in the sand approach? hehe wish i had your strength!
Loops - the sooner the better i say, i cant wait for the crazy loops haha!
Kellie - Hope you FIL is coming to terms with whats happening, I cant imagine what is going through his and your MIL's minds at the moment....xxxx
Matthewsmum - Glad your kids understand what is happening, it would be too hard to hide, specially on emotional days, I hope you O earlier in your cycle this time.... xxx
How are you Iona?
Good luck to those coming up to O time, get your best BDing sheets on ;) and everyone in the crazy tww....be strong xxx
AFM - Well Af arrived after a day of spotting, feeling headachey and moody....i just want to sit down and eat every piece of chocolate in the house :lol:, DH and i have come up with a new game plan though, we are going to try and bd minimum every 2 days if not more as soon as af leaves, i think it is going to take some work on my part, but DH is unsurprisingly looking forward to it:rolleyes: more chaffing and knob burn :lol:
xxx

Forshelby - My condolences for your grandma... grieving is hard work and on top of that you're dealing with your mum. Mine used to be like that, but she's been a lot better the past few years, after I spoke to her about being negative and critical. But now is not the time for you to do that. Some parents just don't adjust to their kids being adults. I am sorry that it's such a tough time. Sweetie, my life is grief and happiness all combined and mixed up together. I am not sure how to do either independently anymore. You will find a way through.

Minnie - glad the eye is ok. Must be a relief.

Dampyre - I can't tell... sorry. I just kept buying tests and taking them twice a day until I got the two lines.... not sure if that's the best way to go about it!

Kell - I am so sad to hear the news about your FIL. As someone said, everyone is grieiving. It is very shocking news to get. The journey ahead for your Family in Law, is a hard one. If you can,get them to link into cancer services, they are a lot of help and offer amazing support to everyone. In a way I can understand your FIL preliminary decision not to have the op. It doesn't seem to make sense to everyone else, but he's got a lot to think about, including his dignity and for a lot of men of his generation that's a big thing. Being in hospital and having an op exposes them to a feeling of vulernability and a perceived loss of control and dignity Even my cousin who at 28/29 in hossy for cancer last year didn't want visitors this year when he went, because he hated lying in bed and having people coming and gawking at him. In fact he refused visitors when he was in hossy this year. Stubborn bugger. Anyway, I hope what ever decision he makes, your family in law can make peace with it. Take care in this tough time.

Hiya to everyone else, and again thankyou for much for thinking of me. It really does mean a lot to me. Good luck to those in the tww and to those hoping for their bfp in the next few days and for those enjoying the BD fest... lucky buggers. No rauchy dreams here - had a yucky dream that I clubbed someone almost to death last night. But then I saw some vision on the telly of someone doing that.... bit of a coincidence, but I would prefer a raunchy dream.

Thank you everyone for your well wishes. I'm sorry but my head is still so scatty i'm not going to do a good job of personals. I don't know where i belong at the moment. i feel like i need support but i'm still miscarrying not TTC, not PAML. I'm sort of in limbo land:(

Congratulations to ForShelby, that's awesome news!
Damprye: I've got my fingers crossed for you that that second line's a goodie!
Alice: So glad to see you're still around. I saw in the other thread that your current chart's a beauty. Excited for you to start your next cycle. THinking of you approaching your EDD (when is the exact date?) This is always a hard time.

To anyone i've missed i'm sorry, like i said, my brain's not in top form right now. I'm still bleeding and to top it all off my best friend has just told me she's 12wks pg. I'm very happy for her but so sad because it makes my loss so real. We should be having babies a month apart (or i should have a 3mth old baby by now if my little one from last year had made it).

possum - you are welcome to post wherever you feel you'll get support. We all are thinking of you and want your healing to go as well as it can. So sweetie, even if you are scatty, post here anytime. Hope that extra dose of miso gets the job done. You're in my thoughts.

THanks Dory. By the way forgot to say how relieved i was that your 'scare' checked out ok. Even through my fog i was stalking all over the forums to see how you were!