Erybery -
Easy to type about, not so easy to actaully talk about...

Body Stalk Abnormalities is when in the intial stage of implantation the split of placent (2/3) and body (1/3) doesn't happen properly.
The Placenta took to much of the egg and meant the lower body of the baby doesn't have sufficient blood supply (and oxygen) so there is nothing holding the organs in the baby and they form on the outside. SOmetimes it may just be one small opening with one organ or the worse causes is when all the organs other then the brain are on the outside.

My case was the worst the fetal abnormalities specialist had seen, with the placenta being so stumpy and short some organs seperated from the baby and implanted in my womb's wall. The placenta was also pumping the contaminated blood back into my blood stream.

The baby would of died before the end of the 2nd trimester and the blood flow and organs becoming toxic inside of me were life threatening for me.
I think that is the guilt I can't get over.
My hubby keeps saying how lucky we are - 40 years ago I would of died as well, but seeing the baby and how it formed and how much pain it must of been in never leaves my head.
I feel like it was me who failed.
39 documented cases in the last 5 years in Australia (so I have been told) and I had to be one of them...

Got to love that luck!