Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss ~ May 2006

Michelle I am doing ok most days. Some are still shockers & that is why DH & I took the time to go away by ourselves last weekend ~ missed James like mad but it did DH & I the world of good just to focus on ourselves & try to regain some of the good times that seem to have been forgotten a little of late.

But besides that I am madly waiting for the test results to come back ~ but it will be at least until the last week of June until I know all the results from those. Plus I only had the blood drawn yesterday morning (all 14 vials of it!!) & most of them have to be frozen & sent off to the labs ~ some in Perth & some in Ballarat & Melbourne. So it is a bit of a waiting game until they all come back to my OB. Then we go & see her for those results & she'll most likely write me a referral to the Fetal Medical Unit at the Royal Women's in Melbourne for an appt with their high risk pg unit. That is to get a game plan of monitoring etc for another pg. So pretty scary in my eyes but I'll do whatever it takes to try & have another little baby in my arms again fairly soon.

Emotionally I am glad we know now that we had a little boy, it allows me to put a name to my baby & to put some closure on it. It was absolute hell for me waiting to find out the sex of speckle, plus it was very hard to say to people "we don't know" when they asked if we had a boy or a girl.

I'm also feeling a little out of the loop here atm, finding it hard because we're not actually TTCing so haven't been in here as much as I should be, but I'll get there. I always keep an eye on things but don't always post.

But beside that I am madly trying to organise my house as settlement for our new property is the 26th of this month & I can't wait.

Sorry to turn it into a bit of a novel, but basically I am ok. How are things going with you?

Kirsty ~ That is good you and DH got away for the weekend it must have helped you both alot.

I really pray the next 6 weeks go quickly for you. That was a lot of blood they took from you. How did you feel at the time with them taking so much blood ?? I hate it when they take 3 lots not sure how i would feel if they took 14.

It must have helped an awful lot knowing speckle was a boy. The names that you have given him a lovely.

Moving house should help the weeks go quicker for you.

It must be hard coming into here when you are not TTC at the moment but you know we are always here for you no matter want and PLEASE don't feel out of the loop as we all love you so much.

I'm doing okay not sure what i am going to do if we are not pg this month. I guess if not another month of trying. I've told DH if I'm not pg by July i will go and talk to the doctor. It always seems that i fall pg the first month of coming off the pill m/c and then it takes months to fall pg again. I think that is what hurts the most is that i know i can fall pg without even really trying.
I've done 15 opk's this month so i hope i am in with a chance the last one i did today has no faint line on it at all so i pray we havn't missed it this month.
We should have DTD last night to cover CD days that we havn't done it on before but i was so tired and am starting to hate trying.
What also didn't help was having my family here while i should have been Oing.

I bet you wish you never asked now how i was doing.

Not at all Michelle, after all that is why we are all here to support one another on this frustrating journey.

I was a bit wonky after they finished taking the blood as I had to fast as well (I made sure I had a choccie bar in my handbag for when I got back to the car!!) the nurse taking the blood wasn't even going to count them as she was getting the vials out of the trays!!

I have everything crossed for you that you get your BFP really soon & you don't have to wait too much longer for it.

Kirsty - you poor love. I empathise with the number of blood vials. I had that *lovely* blood work up after suffering a few miscarriages prior to Caitlyn. DH had 1 blood vial taken for the chromosome stuff but I had 12 :eek: You look at the number of vials and just hope they only have to stab you the once.

Shellstar - AF's arrival was easier this month cause I knew it was coming. No tears - I did them last week :rolleyes: No tantys (much to DH relief - but the poor love got to deal with it last week anyway). Just in the preparatory phase for this months round of TTC. Pick yourself up and move on again. I have no idea how we do it but we do.

I did get some lovely news tonight. I have a friend currently O/S who developed choriocarcinoma after her first pregnancy (treated with chemotherapy) and has had failed attempts at IVF, peri-menopause, HRT etc etc since. She was reluctant to tell me after Caitlyn's birth and our loss but she is now 21 weeks pregnant :happyforyou: and it is a boy. Her son (almost 6 now) is not impressed - he wanted a girl, but it is things like this that gives me hope that it can happen to me too (although I would prefer it to be in less than 6 years :p )

Well I should go and check on the 4 month old I am babysitting (non-parent paranoia). Have a lovely evening and (((hugs))) to all.

Hey Girls..
Just popping in to wish everyone the best in their current journey..AF is due today but so far no show..I have had pains and am bloated and was sure for once she would be here on time,after 6 months of being all over the place since m/c..but maybe not. I never thought in amillion years that it could take 6 months or more because after the others I went back to 28 days straight away...

Lisa..I am glad you found us all..we are what you need right now. Never get upset for sharing with us. I Know how hard this must be for you...((((HUGS)))) to you, sweets..

Nola..How are you chicken?? BB's still sore and heavy? Any m/s to speak of??

Kirsty...I am glad you anf DH took time for just yourselves. You both need to lean on each other and come together through this tough time..I hope by spending time together it will enable you to remeber the good times together and why you fell in love, and be able to help each other heal..Know in your hearts there will be answers and as Nola has proved..Miracles do happen..

Kazz...Oh it seems like ages since you were here..miss your cheery posts... Glad Declan is good for you. What's he think of his big brother?? Bet he just loves him...

Shellstar...glad we sorted that out..lmao...imagine that!!I would be super mum...

Huge Huge hello to everyone else..Jan xx

Hi Ladies,

Well, here I am over in sunny Sydney and it's our first day and Jess is still asleep!!! typical. I'm busting to get out and go walking and explore abbotsford but she has other plans. she was an absolute angel on the flight over. Truly amazing. She actually fell asleep while we were taking off. she went to bed all by herself in her cot last night and has sleep quite well, She woke up once but I just told her Mummy's here and she went back to sleep.

Smelly - Congratulations on your BFP and don't feel bad about telling us. We're all here to support and help each other and I'm sure everybody is with me in saying that we're all thrilled for you! Honestly.

Michelle - I really hope you have O'd and all that por star work hasn't been in vain! LOL.

Nola - How are you my little calculator?

To everybody else - huge waves, I am thinking of you. I'll catch up with you all soon. It's quite hard to type when I have my gf's cat following the text and I'm typing 'blind' atm!!! LOL.

Jayne xox

Eeeep! I forgot about our chat - it's on TONIGHT.

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Hi Everyone :hello:
Just checking in on you all!

Sorry to hear of all the AF's that seem to be coming at once this month....just think, you'll all board the ark together next month!!! lol.

Jayne ~ glad that Jessica was an angel on the flight for you! Have a great holiday and keep us up-to-date with your shopping and fun!!!

Jan ~ How are you honey? Ohhh, you never know...it's right on AF time for you and nothing yet! All my fingers & toes are crossed for you!

Well, that's all...just poking my head in to say Hi!

Luv Beccy

OH Jan, Hun, I have absolutely everything crossed for you.
Good Luck.

Jayne: the calculator is still ticking. Thanks.

Still have the sore Boobies and still feeling a little nausea around 3ish which is around now.

I so hope you guys dont mind me popping my head in hear. If I become a pain just kick me out.

NIC: I havent heard much of you, I hope that you are doing ok. Pop in and let us know.

Nola - I can't speak for the others but please keep popping in. You are a sign of hope that dreams can come true and the inspiration to continue on this difficult journey.

I agree with you Michelle71, Nola should keep popping in here.

OOH bumma, just lost all my post. damn blast.
Smelly congrats to you, way to go
Nola, dont you dare go anywhere just yet thankyou very much... it wont be the same if you go, your our inspiration at the moment..
Me no new, no hubby, cant wait for his return, I miss him so, and yes im hoping a break is a good thing too.
anyway im having loads of trouble with finding this site all the time, how do you girls get on??? We used to have the watch this topic, and then emails wd tell us when there were replys, now there isnt this option!! what do you guys do...help..
anyway bed time. goodluck to all out there who are in the dreaded 2ww..love to all

you can subscribe to threads still chelle.....click on user profile and got to edit options....in there is a bit about notifcation on posts you can have several diff settings like instant email, once a day etc......HTH
cheers

Hi there
Hoping I can join in and hopefully offer as well as receive support. I have had two miscarriages in the past 8 months or so. The most recent was 2 months ago... We are back to ttc and I would love to share the rollercoaster of it with some gals who understand... :-).
I am struggling as many of you are with having so many pregnant friends (or with new babies) and relatives around at the minute :boohoo: However I also know that there are people in much worse situations than me so trying to keep positive.
Anyhoo, hope I am doing this right! Let me know if I'm not! I'm loving all the little icons but have no idea how to insert them.
PS I was on the babycentre.co.uk board for a while but found it so busy that it was hard to keep up (and i hardly every received responses).

Candi :hello:
CD 13 (i think - cycle still unsettled after last mc)
Aged 34, DP 31, beautiful DD nearly 5 (14/08/01)
m/c Sept 05 (6wks) and Mar 06 (10wks)

OH Candi, I am so very sorry to hear of your losses. Please feel comforted that there are so many wonderful women in here that for sure can offer you love and support.

Make your self at home, but remember the stay here is not perminant and you will move on to the PAML (Pregnacy after Miscarriage/Loss) very soon.

You will always have your up days and your down days and yes we all understand, Vent away that is what this forum is for and believe me, No-one will say get over it or just move on it will happen.

Sweet, You will get so much support here. Welcome, even under the circumstances.

NOLA :hug:

Good morning to all, will pop back later and so some personals.

Have a great day xx

Candi so sorry to hear of yuur losses.

This is a wonderful site to find support and other girls that have been through the same as you.

We are here to support each other through the good days and the really BAD days.

I hope your TTC journey is a short one and you joins the girls in PAML really soon.

Firstly cograts to smelly, fantastic news for you, heres to a h&h pregnancy. Nice to meet you Candi, sorry its in these circumstances (IFYKWIM). You cant find a better place to come and chat and meet some lovely people here to listen and give advise. Hope everyone else is well and looking after yourselves. It makes such a difference i have noticed to take sometime for myself in all of this mess we call TTC.

Have taken some time off, went to Rye had a great time so have missed so much. In between times have gone to the naturopath, looks like i have naturally high levels of progesterone and low ones of estrogen (sorry about spelling), so therefore MC. Am on some foul tasting stuff called false unicorn root and some other spray. Hopefully it will balance out my system and we can get on with it!! Suprisingly i o'd a week after MC, weird huh. I think i must have O'd twice inbetween 1st and 2nd MC to actually fall prg. Better be off, got a job interview today, very excited. First time back in the work force as such for 17 months....... have a great day, :) to you all

Bel i hope the stuff you are taking works well for you and you have a BFP soon and a H&H pregnacy as well.

Not feeling to good today have a lot of feelings that i need to get out but i can't. I need to scream and shout.
I'm sure i am going to get AF next week i just have this feeling in my heart this is not going to happen to us this month again.

I guess everyone is busy today :(

*Michelle* you poor love.

:throw_computer: While I wouldn't suggest throwing the computer have you considered hitting something??? (Not DH or someone else near and dear though). I hate that angry, tense, pent up feeling and punching something usually makes me feel a lot better. I lived in the gym the first few months after Caitlyn was born (and now I am just slack and lazy). Don't rule out a good result this month yet either.

I hope your day improved :hug:

Firstly thanks everyone for the warm welcome!:hello:

Michelle, so sorry you have had a bad day! I know by the time you get this it will be tomorrow (iykwim!) but I hope you have started to feel a bit better. :hug:

I agree with the other Michelle (i think? - i am still getting the hang of this board!). I had an old gym membership gathering dust - and I actually used my two m/c's as an excuse not to go.... but after getting the OK from my GP, I have started going again. Just twice a week, but I find it is really helping with my frame of mind.

I am on CD14 now but I think I ovulated early..? I had a pap smear on CD12 and the doc said she could detect ovulatory cervical mucous (sorry if TMI !!). So I am kind of sort of in my 2ww.... I think...!

Anyone else doing the 2ww countdown? Also does anyone know how I make a signature block appear after my name so that I don't have to type out my details every time??
Candi

Aged 34 DP 31 DD nearly 5
M/C Sept 05 (6wks) and Mar 06 (10wks)

ooo rrrr, Michelle: Mood swings, feeling angry and frustrated. I am sure they are early signs of a pending BFP just around the corner. Hun, honestly i do hope that your day got better and that you have woken up this morning with a smile on your face. I am praying that you do get that long awaited BFP in then next few days. Have a fantastic weekend and I am sure to chat with you over it.

Hi girls... sorry you had no-one to talk to yesterday Michelle :( Esp when you are feeling so down. I had major mood swings early in pregnancy with my last 3, that is my first big sign!! I have everything crossed for you!

Welcome Candi. You can add info to your sig by going up to 'User profile' up on the top left of the screen.

I had a dream last night i was having an u/s and we could see quite clearly i was having a boy. I was so excited, but the baby was UGLY!! His eyes were clse together and he had pointed teeth and a skinny head! Hmmmm??
The night before I had really weird dreams... I dreamp I was walking to find someone in a forest of frozen vegetables!!! LOL

Tanya

Thanks everyone i still feel the same things morning. I really wish i could take it all as a good sign but i can't as i felt like this last month as well. I guess it's that horrible TWW that does it to me.
Well it's now a 1WW now all i have to do is hold off from POAS. I know for me it's not worth it until at least AF is late.
I feel a little sick this morning but again i won't take that as a sign.

Hope everyone has a nice day.

Oh Michelle - i want to throw you a huge trans- tasman hug!!!:hug: I hope that you aer doing ok sweets hang in there and try to keep smiling:) - thinking of you hun...

Awww Michelle!! The tww is tough huh? I hope the time flies from now. Did you decide when you were going to test?

I did an OPK today with FMU (wanted to detect HCG not LH) and it was -- :)
My CM is getting more plentiful and I am thinking I am gearing up for O. But I am sad... not sure why.... must be just one of those day... *shrugs*

Tanya

Thanks for the tip Tanya i still have some OPK's left.

I wonder if i could use one now......

HI Guys,
Michelle and Tanya, sorry to hear you are feeling a bit down. Hope the sun starts to shine and the day picks up for you.

Tanya was your line a faint line on your OPK and would you class it as a start to getting a BFP ????

I've not used my FMU and have also had a cuppa tea but i am sure i can see a faint line on my OPK. Now i know all my lines went to nothing on my opk as i used one a few days ago. OMG i'm so scared that i am going to be let down again.

Just an FYI - I used an OPK as a HPT and everytime have gotten an accurate result! Ialways got a visible + on OPKs while the HPTs were still asuper faint + so Michelle its quite possible!!! Im super excited.

Hi Everyone,

Been MIA the last few days due to problems with the computer.

*Michelle*, So sorry that you were all alone yesterday on your day of need, What type of OPK's are you using? i don't want to burst your bubble but i had faint + last month right up till AF arrived, thats with the ovunow brand of ebay, but for no matter what time of the month i always seem to have a faint line there, I so hope that this is positive news for you, just don't want you to go through what i went through last month, thinking it was a + and wasn't. I have everything crossed for you that its a :bfp:

Candi, Welcome to our little (growing)group, i hope that you have caught the eggy this month and you wont have to hang around here too long, not that we don't want you here IYKWIM!!!

Tanya, I so hope you have much success with your BD fest that is coming up :goodluck:

Belinda, How are you going Petal? I hope that all the magic potions your are taking lead to a BFP in the near future!!!

Michelle71, Nola, Kazz, Tamara, Jayne, Smelly, Beccy, Meredith, Kirsty and anyone esle i may have forgotten, big HELLO's to you all and hope that all is well with your worlds!!

As for me today i finally had a temp rise this morning, im on CD 22, should be gearing up for AF in 6 days but instead i don't know where im headed, im not counting on anything this month as we gave it all we had this month, but i just did not O till really late this cycle, i don't know what the go with it is. so i think i will be haning around here for yet another month if you will have me!!! im just relieved to see a rise right now, i was worried something more sinnister was up, now i will look forward to a cover line!!!!:pray:

Hope you have a wonderful day!

Shell I'm going to keep my fingers crossed for you that you get a lovely BFP in the next week or so.
I won't trust the OPK's anyway i am using the ones from lullaby conceptions. When i fell pg in October and i didn't know and was tesing with OPK's in the November i was always getting + lines on my OPK but that was a different brand.

I've just testing with a HPT that says it should show up from 7 days after DTD which it has i think been that for us. I know sad i can't remember the last time we DTD.

Anna I am hoping your right but i won't get my hopes up too much.
I hopefully will be seeing you and bump tomorrow when we meet at Kings park.

Michelle... when testing for HCG with an OPK the test line needs to be as dark or darker than the control for it to be ++ (as with when testing for LH). But one thing you need to remember is that OPKs are not as sensitive as HPT's :) So for early pg testing you are better off using a HPT. I was just testing to see if the HCG has left or almost left my system. I think it is gone or pretty low now.

Tanya

Thanks Tanya. My OPK line was very faint and then i did a HPT and that came up BFN. It's still too early for me to test anyway.
I'm just a bit of a sad case at the moment. I really need something to take my mind of this last week.

Well I am sure we'll do all we can to keep your mind sane :)

I am pretty sure my body is gearing up for O, I checked my CM again a little while ago and there was a little bit of EW in it... Fingers crossed I'm not waiting forever!!

Tanya

I wish you the very best of luck this month Tanya and i hope you are gearing up to O soon.

Hi all
Thanks melbel, I should be able to keep up now!!! way too much for me to know where to start... but goodluck to one and all.
Nothing to report here. AF due next week and since there been no action it will be all go for JUNE!!!! thats gunna be the month... haha
chow dudes.bed time here...

Hello Everybody,
Just a VERY quick post to say that I'm thinking of you all. I'm off to Luna Park today and we've been down to Wollongong for the night. Very sad leaving my uncle. I still haven't dried up from crying. Everytime we say goodbye we assume it's the last time we see him.
Haven't done much shopping today. I have only bought myself one top. I've bought Jessica some maracas and a xylophone. She is being a very good girl, better than at home. Makes me think I should be on holidays 24/7!!!
Massive hugs to you all and I'm thinking of you. I miss you all heaps!! LOL.
Jayne

Jayne, Have a fab Day at Luna Park. It is just the MOST. Speak when you get back. Remember to take care.