Lou-- I'm sorry you're feeling down! The hormones alone are enough to cope with without adding all the stress, disappointment, etc of TTC. You are certainly not unusual in your feelings with regard to your friend. I only just saw a good friend of mine for the first time since my m/c on the weekend past. She was two weeks behind what I was and although I am thrilled for her thinking about it and seeing her merely serves as a reminder of what is NOT happening to me, how I DON'T look, etc. You are not a bad/selfish friend-- you're just HUMAN!! Hope you are feeling better soon. You'll be suffering through the dreaded TWW again before you know it-- hopefully with a different outcome!