clairesmummy: so pleased to hear your appointment went well and you sound so happy, it must be such a relief that he took you seriously and has you on a plan to get you that bfp !

thanks for all the support here girls, i was so upset sunday because after 4 months of nothing my dad had contacted me and we had been negotiating to try and meet up and talk about things, i said i would under the conditions that it was only dad, not my mum or my brother and i wouldn't be taking my kids, they have been devastated by all this which is so upsetting for me, anyway we met sun and it turned into a discussion on how upset mum is, how she misses the kids, no acknowledgement of how wrong she (and the others) were and has been in the nearly 6 months since, felt like i was banging my head against the wall, no one seems to get how devastating it has been for me to lose my entire family when i did absolutely nothing wrong. anyway sorry for the drama here, i have lost a lot in the past 12 months and it makes me really sad

on another note, i started clomid last night so im on my way into a new cycle