Well have had my first midwife appointment, just the usual family history etc.
She has changed my due date to 1st May, i have changed my ticker accordingly
She took blood, my god did it hurt, "you'll feel a little scratch!!" yeah right, im usually ok with giving blood but that one hurt!
I asked if they would give me any early scans due to the previous M/C but she said if they did it for everyone who asked cause they were worried they wouldnt have time for all the normal scans!!!! So am just going to get booked in for my 12 weeks as normal.
Oh well i'm sorry, i'm just terrified to know that my little bub is still there, how stupid of me to ask!!!
Hannah-I'm sorry you have been going through what you have. Did the Doctor say if you had to have anything done since your lining is thick again? I'm sorry your cramping and uncomfortable. Sometimes waiting to TTC can be a good thing because of less stress. But with me I couldn't wait any longer I had been waiting almost a year and with 2 losses this year alone, I just wanted to get pregnant and stay pregnant so I TTC right away. I wish you best this round. Wow, I cannot believe your friend said that OMG! Wow, I don't understand people sometimes expechally friends..
babyonBoard-Hello and welcome. SOrry to hear about your loss. I too lost a baby in July at 6week 1day & on cycle round 2 after loss and its been 1 year of TTC total. I hope the best that you get a BFP soon and that your little one will be nice and strong for you.
Treelo-Glad to see you back in the TTC world. I hope that you get your BFP this cycle darling.
Jade-Sorry for your loss. I'm glad AF came for you so you can start TTC.
Jen-How are you doing darling?
ATM-I'm 6DPO, I called my OBs today to see if I could get an HCG quanitative pregnancy test done tomarrow since I have to come in for a CD 21 progesterone check. The nurse was like the shot wont be out of your system bla bla bla, I was like trust me I have a sensitive test mroe sensitive than your tests and its gooten to the point of being negitive & I lied to get my way saying I had gotten a dark positive again.. Hopefully it works. I was like eyha And I would have to come back in in 48 hours to make sure Im truly pregnnat and its not the shot still. So shes going to ask the DR and should be calling me back about saying yay or nay about the test.. Sometimes you gotta lie to Nurses cuz sometimes theyre just plan Um DUH. Its like she first wanted to do a urine test I was like UM your gonna have to do it by blood lol..
fificlaire - you should be able to get a referral for a scan from your doctor if you want one. I'll certainly be getting one as early as possible. But you do what's best for you.
Babyfever - hope they do the test for you
Chappas - Thakns!!
Smilanatu - That sounds like you have learnt a great lesson. I am so proud of you for having such a positive out look.
Ruthie - Thanks!!
You don't sound selfish at all - well if you do, then i was too, cause that's all i wanted!
Jen - I was going to ask you the same. You've been pretty quiet too lately. AFM I'm ok. Just plodding along, not sure where to next. Still not on tamoxifen, just hoping a miracle will happen. Should go back to gyno but not really sure what else he can do for us. I know he wants us to do IVF but we've always said we won't, DH refuses to do any more tests so where to now.??????? I'm sitting here nursing a 12mo and gee it feels lovely, shame I have to give him back. but not for another 8 hours.
Smi - you sound so positive. I really hope the best for you is just around the corner. Next time remember to make YOU happy first.
Ruthie - you're definately not selfish (or else we all are). I just found out a work colleague is 12weeks pg with twins. I think it's wonderful as she also has PCOS, (I just wish I could be too - even with one)
Ruthie- Big . I really hope things look up to you darling. And very soon you sure do deserve it. Yeah, That whole thing about friends that Hannah was talking about was what happend to me this weekend with my friend and what she said to me and I asked if anyone had someone do that to them before & she replied saying she had. I cannot believe how rude friends/Family could be and I coudln't believe she said what she said! I wanted to go running out the door and yell at her and cuzz I really hope she heard what I said to her behind the door. I almost never want to talk to her again for it... She comes and gets something of hers from me and noticed my husband was home from work and goes oh did steph tell you were pregnant? Shes like I'm so excited hes like yep she told me. And then I go to tell her about my miscarriage and stuff and what my due date would have been and shes like Sorry, She shuts the door and opens it again and goes well atleast we know you can get pregnant and slams the door!!!...
I was told to wait 1 cycle after my miscarrage so once my AF started back up after my loss I could TTC again. I did indeed start TTC before my AF even showed... Once again bug hug.
Fifi-I'm sorry they didn't do an U/s thats kinda odd since you have had prior losses. I would see if you can get one here soon.
Joey-I'm happy for you and the girls that got there BFPS these last few months. Its wonderful feeling . I would be bouncing off the walls as well. The problem I have wiht BFP is I stare at my PEE sticks all day going WOW! Is this it haha... Seriously my husband goes wow how can you stare at that for 4 hours!! He releizsed that after my loss its almost wonderful to stare at them he stares at the ones from my injection and goes I HOPE they get dark like this again soon..Congrats again darling.
As for me my OB said he ordered the HCG test and when I go in tomarrow I will have an script in to have that done along with my progesterone check! I asked the nurse well do I need to make an APT to come in, in 48 hours? Shes like well if your numbers are 0 no you dont have to. I was like there not going to be at 0 there going to be like still up there cuz the shot. Shes like I dunno youll have to wait and see what the Ob wants.. I WAS LIKE UGH wat a dumb nut.. I'm hoping and praying to have a nice big Birthday BFP...My bday is on friday....My BBS are germungus never been so big except when I was pregnant.
Ruthie - I know you may not think so, but I can't believe how strong you are. I think you are doing incredibly well and a miracle comes your way very soon, you deserve it
Jen - Thanks Jen
me - appointment was ok, all the doc could do was feel my belly and weigh me. All good so far but guess you never feel safe untill the 12 week scan. I haven't really let myself get too excited because I know what dissapointment feels like, guess all I can do is hang in there and just wait out the next 3 weeks.
Joey: to you.. Thank you for your sweet words... I am wishing you the very best sweet momma... I can't wait till you get that u/s done!! I'm sure your bub will be swimming happily an his/her heartbeat will be EXCELLENT!!
Mollycat: Oh I can't wait.. WOW twins!!!! That would be so cool!! God will bless us.. I can feel it in my bones.
Even if my baby was with me for such a short time.. I FEEL HONORED he/she chose me to be his/her mommy!! OH I LOVE YOU GIRL!!!!!
Babyfever: Oh YAH!! People can say the stupidest things and that males me furious ( even if I'm so good at hiding it) When I was TTC ( which will be soon again) when I got a BFN I HATED when some dais.. oh you can try next time.. I am like SHUT UP!! I've been saying that to myself for 3 years!!! Ya know??.. people
Even my parents said something so stupid to me yesterday I just changed the subject... They said "oh you know how many women miscarry every day??..its "natural".." I'm like Mom please STFU!!!! ( of course I didn't say that) just because "many m/c on a daily basis) it doesn't mean it won't hurt! Parents can say the stupidest things too.
I am praying you get GREAT news! 1You sure know I will do the happy dance for you!!!
Good luck sweets!! C'mon BFP!!!!
Larz: thank you so much momma.... Good luck on your next apptmnt.. hope they do an u/s ASAP.... Demand it.. I did.. they were not going to do one till I was 12 weeks imagine that?.. I would have been 3 weeks with a dead baby inside!! Demand it if you have to.. I did and unfortunately you know what happened but in a way it would have been worse ya know?.. I could have gotten serious infection from the dead baby.
You and your baby are going to be just fine!! Yo will see your lil swimmer doing somersaults inside you and his/her heartbeat will be PERFECT!!! Wishing you a H&H pregnancy and healthy baby!!!!!
Ruthie - thanks for the kind words. I booked my nuchal scan for the 7/10/08 which is 12 weeks. Don't think you can do a nuchal any earlier, but if I need to I will in insists on going for an earlier scan to make sure everything is still ok. Don't want to get myself all worked up and stressed out but it's hard not to as you know. I also had some questionable comments from my husbands mate when I had my ectopic, people like that will never know what your going through untill it happens to them. I know it's hard and a pain in the a_ _ but we just have to ignore people like that and get on with TTC
jenushka - you def need to keep a log and raise this with your HR department, that is just not on! he cannot do that by law, Im more than positive
Babyfever - Goodluck with the levels and testing Im sure you will be BFP for your Birthday am for you!!
Jade - go to the fertilityfriend.com.au website it will help you work out how to use that termo!! and yes its very addictive
fifi - I'd be insisiting on an u/s! can't you pay for one???? Im sure you if you pay for one they can do it??
[COLOR="DarkOrange"]larz - [COLOR="Black"]stay strong, we will see you through these last 3 weeks, bub will be ok and you'll wonder what all the worrying was about when you reach that 12 week mark, however I don't think you'll ever stop worrying even when they are old and grey and your a great grandma
Ruthie and Toccara -thinking of you both and hoping you are staying strong and getting through this ok...
babyonboard and treelo - sorry for your losses hope your time here is quick, Im hoping mine is!!! : sending you heaps of
Hi to all the other girls Tam,Jen,Krystie , mollycat,simand anyone I've missed....
AFM - still checking the dam discharge every time I go to the toilet and wipe looking and looking very intensly for eggwhite. Maybe baby was crappy this morning all little pebbles!!! damn I want that ferning!! temp was still high but hey hcg levels probably still high...I feel like Im repeating myself?? sorry if I am can't help it....will be TTCing again this weekend....unless I get copious amounts of eggwhite sometime during the week!
Hi girls.. i've only been gone for a couple of days (1 or 2) and there is so much to catch up on...
Joey: congrats girl!!!! woohoo
Babylove: i know what you mean with insensitive comments.. My good friend and fellow doctor sent me an EMAIL.. hello? and f**king EMAIL.... saying "sorry for your loss... at least you know you can conceive.. best of luck next time". WTF?!? i went into a tirade of abuse after that, followed by tears... grrrrr
Welcome to everyone who i haven't met before..
AFM: I'm having a lousy day today. Feeling cruddy. Had baby nightmares last night that have really upset me. thought i was making good progress but seems i have taken two steps backwards. Hubby is away for work this week which makes things worse. I had convinced myself that my nausea/acne was possibly because i was already pg again (because my hCG had gone down after my m/c and everything settled for a few weeks) but i did POAS x 3 over the last week and all were BFN! Damn that idea. I dunno what to look out for to know if i am ovulating and i havent got a thermometer! Spose i should just wait and see when AF arrives.. if it does...
I think i am just so over it all. I want to whinge and moan and groan and ***** about all my friends' and their bellies.. it seems so unfair.
Jen: I just finished all my training on the central coast of NSW and am starting my internship as a general medical doctor in June 2009 (i deferred my position cos of bub.. and now cant reverse it... so i am stuck looking for some temp roles in the meantime - but i'm not allowed to work as a doctor til i start my internship in June which means i have to do some menial job in the meantime grrr). I plan to do community health/general practice/women's medicine.
I just wanted to pop in and say a huge hello to all you wonderful ladies in here. I can't possibly catch up on everything that has been going on, so this will have to be a general msg for everyone....
To all those who have recently suffered a m/c, I am so very sorry for you losses, and my heart goes out to you and your partners. I am thinking about you and for you all
To those who have got their long awaited and very much deserved BFP's, congratulations and I wish you all a wonderful happy and healthy 9 months.
To those who are continuing to travel along the bumpy ttc road, I that the end of your journey is near and you can begin a new journey to finally meet your beautiful babies that are just waiting to meet you!
And a very special hello to Jen and krystie love (congratulations by the way hun ) for always thinking of me and the other women here who have decided to have a break from ttc, by sending 'hello's' and adding us to your cycle lists. You are both wonderful and thoughtful women!
AFM - Still plodding along, not ttc (well, trying anyway ). I am due for AF anyday now, and whilst I have no AF symptoms yet, I dont have pg'cy ones either, so have no idea when the nasty witch will show....although, I hope she does, cause in 9 months time, i will be doing my huge teaching prac, and I certainly wont be able to do that with a new bubba. I have to keep reminding myself that waiting is the best option, even though I so desperately want another baby. My time will come, I just have to be patient (easier said than done right girls?)
I also had my appointment with FS re: recurrent m/c, and he has ordered about 5 different tests for me, so I have to go and get my bloods done this week and hopefully start to find some answers. I am hoping everything can be sorted out by Jan, when I begin ttc again. I'll let you all know the results of the tests when I get them. FS suspects that I have a hormone deficiency which can be treated with meds in early pg'cy, so when I start ttc again, I have to begin POAS pretty much as soon as I can (before AF is due) so he can order blood tests for me and monitor my levels.
Well, thats all for now, I just wanted to touch base with you all and say HI! Stay strong and positive everyone and keep smiling
And just while i am moaning and carrying on (sorry all)...
i just checked facebook and a friend from high school who is 5 months pg has some recent photos on there... in every single one she either has a cigarette in hand, is swigging coca cola from the bottle, has a champagne in hand or is eating hot chips................ i am being an absolute cow.. but how is that fair!
Emmykate82 - what a pig! its just not fair hey!! everytime I see a pg woman with a cigarette in her hand I just want to run over and put a plastic bag over her head with the cigarette still in her mouth and say SEE HOW YOU LIKE IT!!!!!!!!
Im ttcing even though I only finished bleeding from my m/c 2 weeks ago I thought what the hell who knows they reckon your more fertile after a m/c hmmmm lets see ..probably for everyone else but me!
hi mannie, emmykate,
I'm new to all this as well and have had a similar experience. i too didnt have a lot of bleeding so lived in limbo for days with inbetween spotting and passing a bit of clotty blood (sorry tmi) and no other symptoms. I had the u/s I was 6.5 weeks yesterday to find that my uterus is empty - there's nothing there. i had m/c and looked as though all had naturally passed thru so no further procedures but blood tests to make sure its no ectopic which they dont think it is. we have been trying since march.
that feeling of empty inside and my body slowly returning to pre pregnancy normal feels really wierd.
good luck to you both and thank you for posting your stories as i feel so much better knowing there are others out there that understand and i'm not alone. albeit i hope no one has to go thru these things alone.
one question - how did you guys feel afterwards (m/c i mean)?
LOU
Lou,
It has only been 3 weeks for me now and i still feel weird. Like you i was fortunate to have had a complete m/c so i didnt need any further intervention. Immediately after my m/c was confirmed i felt empty.. i felt like all my signs and symptoms had disappeared and i was devastated. I didnt want hubby to touch me and i definitely didn't want people to be around me. i just wanted to cry and sleep. After about a week i started to be more accepting.. and i started being intimate with hubby again. Recently my nausea and bad skin etc are back and i first thought maybe i was preg again cos u can be really fertile after a m/c... but most ppl advise this is still just my hormones playing tricks.. and my body getting back into it's regular rhythm. I feel ready to TTC again but there are days when i am so depressed and devastated (like today). I still feel empty, useless, unfairly treated by God. I feel like my body has let me down and i am terrified that it will do so repeatedly. I am scared to death of being pregnant again. I had everything to offer, i did nothing wrong, we were healthy and ready for this baby. Only God knows why.. and i think the answer is to stop asking.
Everyone feels differently... and it is all normal. There is no right way to feel. There is no right time to move on. There is no right time to TTC again. It is completely individual.
I am so sorry you had to go through this too. Hopefully God will bring us less suffering and more joy in the future.
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. I would be bouncing off the walls as well. The problem I have wiht BFP is I stare at my PEE sticks all day going WOW! Is this it haha... Seriously my husband goes wow how can you stare at that for 4 hours!! He releizsed that after my loss its almost wonderful to stare at them he stares at the ones from my injection and goes I HOPE they get dark like this again soon..Congrats again darling.
a miracle comes your way very soon, you deserve it
Parents can say the stupidest things too.
) for always thinking of me and the other women here who have decided to have a break from ttc, by sending 'hello's' and adding us to your cycle lists. You are both wonderful and thoughtful women!
). I am due for AF anyday now, and whilst I have no AF symptoms yet, I dont have pg'cy ones either, so have no idea when the nasty witch will show....although, I hope she does, cause in 9 months time, i will be doing my huge teaching prac, and I certainly wont be able to do that with a new bubba. I have to keep reminding myself that waiting is the best option, even though I so desperately want another baby. My time will come, I just have to be patient (easier said than done right girls?)
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