Thank you KrystieLove. I was wondering about that window and how long I had to be part of this forum before I get a key to the door. ha ha ha. Only kidding Jen. I would happily climb through a dozen window to get to you girls.
Congratulations on your little bubba. Only 240 days until you get to hold your little one's hand. I'm so excited for you. I'm giving your little jelly bean a very soft
I totally understand what you said, I could never stop loving my first angel. Friends that haven't been through this type of loss can't really understand that I am in love my angel and that I fell in love instantly the moment I knew I was pregnant. Before I was pregnant, I never knew that I could be in love like that.
You're so blessed that you have that love right now. I just had a nice warm feeling in my chest when i thought how you must be feeling at this very moment. When you take a big breath in and you can feel the love just expanding your chest bigger and bigger. That's the feeling I'm searching for again .... what we're all searching for. My mama says it's the feeling of being content.
My wish today is that we can all have this feeling of being content again very very very soon.
anneebee3- Just wanted to say BB is a wonderful place for friends and support. This place is a wonderful place to be at & have others to talk to & most def is a life saver. I'm sorry you lost your angel, I really hope you can find some comfort here with us ladies & you get your BFP soon & have a wonderful healthy pregnancy. I too have a friend that told me she was pregnant & due the same that my baby would have been due. And, All she said was I'm sorry & well atleast you know you can get pregnnat!!WTFH??? I was crying so bad because of it. Shes never had a loss or anything and its like how even though you not been through it before can you say that. She walked out the door after saying the whole"atleast we know you can get pregnant" thing, I started to cuzz behind the door I hope she heard me. I was like you hanis BISSSH.. lol. But I did say I was happy for her and congrated her.. Its never fun to see others pregnant sometimes expechally when they taunt it... I love when my friends are when there respectful with everything.But sometimes people arnt that way... I wish you luck sweets if you need anything your more than welcome to ask or vent if needed..
Krystie-OMG!.. Wow, Morning sickness?? I only had that once and only lasted 3 days. When that happend I knew something was wrong with my bubs I said to myself um dont I supposed to have this till my like 12th week??. I'm glad things are doing well. I'm suprised your family hasn't asked you yet with all the M/S. Mine usally knows before I say anything!..lol. I hope you have wonderful weekend darling..
anneebee - to answer ur question, i found it does get easier but it may be different in my circumstance. My 1st pg ended in the happy delivery of my DS. The subsequent pg's didn;t end happily so at those times I consoled myself by hugging my DS very close. It allowed me to mourn and heal very quickly. So the biggest hurdle for me was looking to the future but each month not getting pg. I still think of my angels and wonder what they would have been like. I guess when you do get pg and then have ur little one in ur arms, ur focus will be on the life of the child u hold and ur energies will be channelled more in that forward direction rather than the empty feelings of the past. Life is brighter with a child but I don;t think one can ever forget one's angels.
mollycat--Thanks so much for the e-mails! Keep 'em coming, they're great! That restaurant in China is probably where my DF would want to take me to eat! I've saved it to show him, but I can already hear him saying "Now that's what I'm talking about!"
Thinking of you and your family...
anneebee--Ok, ok, I see you're already ganging up on me with Krysite (that's usually Angel's job!). Ok, let me clarify....I only said open window because you said you had been lurking.... laughing and crying with us... so I thought metaphorically speaking that it was like you were looking thru a window into our little thread.... so lol... The door was always open, you came in when you made your first post! Apparently Krystie's been sharing her smart arse pills with you already... Pill Girl, how many times do I need to tell you that it's not ok to share your pills with the newbies!! Two smart arses are hard enough for me to deal with without having to worry about you corrupting the newbies!
I do have to admit that you paid me a veeeerrryy nice compliment before you took those pills! I appreciate it.... the girls here are what got me thru, and continue to get me thru, so it's the least I can do! It's very cathartic feeling like I'm helping someone else thru their grief after all the support I've gotten thru my grief. In answer to your question regarding mourning, and how long it takes... it's different for everyone. I found that the only way I could deal with it was to just completely shut my mind off to it... I just can't think about it. There's times thru the day where if I let myself think about it at all, I would just break down--so I don't. I can talk about it with other people. There's a girl that's been working in the book fair with me that also had 4 m/c's, so we've been talking... and I just found out yesterday that one of the teachers is pg--and I'm ok with it... she deserves it and I'm happy for her. So I think in some ways I'm dealing pretty well. My first 3 m/c's were with my DS1's dad, who unfortunately passed away, but not while we were together. I was already with DF and had DS2.... but I know what you mean about mourning the earlier angels.... while of course I'm still sad about then, it was a lifetime ago that was when I was with another person.... so my last m/c was a big shock since I had already had a full-term pg'cy with no complications, it was just completely unexpected and has had a much bigger impact on me than the first 3. Now that I know laughing attracts angels, I'll have to make it a point to laugh more so that my angels want to hang around me, as well!
Krystie--I see you took your smart arse pills yesterday! Are you sure you're allowed to take those things when you're pg???? You're supposed to break stash and share with ME not the newbies!
Ooh, how exciting to be telling your parents!
Now, under normal circumstances it wouldn't be a difficult feat to have more brain cells than Paris Hilton.... but to have more brain cells at less than 6 weeks old!?!? That's quite an accomplishment! Little Chyan, smart girls rock!!
Well hello there tut! I'm not going to POAS, my temps aren't behaving! They're too low to be BFP temps.... Not going to bother wasting the money and having to see that BFN--I'll just wait it out 'till AF shows.
OMG, I just can't believe you're 11 weeks already!! How's that m/s treating you?
Oh, see, I was chart stalking and just getting over excited. Darn it. I really should just calm on down. But can I secretly quietly keep my fingers crossed for you? Pleeeeease? I will anyways. Hehe.
M/S is ok. The steroids seem to be doing the trick so far, am still cutting them down because you can't stay on them for long (I think you can get roid rage.... hehe), so the test will be how I am off them. I am eating my weight in food, though. Plus a little extra. But our fridge is broken so it's been my mothers food I've been eating. Hehe. Yay having mum live nest door.
Just wanted to say BB is a wonderful place for friends and support. This place is a wonderful place to be at & have others to talk to & most def is a life saver. I'm sorry you lost your angel, I really hope you can find some comfort here with us ladies & you get your BFP soon & have a wonderful healthy pregnancy. I too have a friend that told me she was pregnant & due the same that my baby would have been due. And, All she said was I'm sorry & well atleast you know you can get pregnnat!!WTFH??? I was crying so bad because of it. Shes never had a loss or anything and its like how even though you not been through it before can you say that. She walked out the door after saying the whole"atleast we know you can get pregnant" thing, I started to cuzz behind the door I hope she heard me. I was like you hanis BISSSH.. lol. But I did say I was happy for her and congrated her.. 
lol... The door was always open, you came in when you made your first post! 
Apparently Krystie's been sharing her smart arse pills with you already... Pill Girl, how many times do I need to tell you that it's not ok to share your pills with the newbies!! Two smart arses are hard enough for me to deal with without having to worry about you corrupting the newbies! 
Not going to bother wasting the money and having to see that BFN--I'll just wait it out 'till AF shows.
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