Hello ladies,

thank you so much for the warm welcome!! It made me really happy when I logged on this morning.

It feels so good to be around women who have gone through the same; I feel like I don't have to explain anything. I think some of my friends don't understand why I still feel sad on certain days - they cheer me up to look forward and be positive, and that m/c happen all the time etc. I know that of course, and they mean well, no doubt about it, but it's a different thing alltogether when it happens to you. There are some days I believe I will never ever get pregnant (today might be such a day...:-( but on others, I'm really positive. These ups and downs are very exhausting...

Last week was especially hard, as I found out that my miscarried baby (the August one at 9 weeks) was a girl, and that there was no chromosomal abnormality. There must have been a problem with the implantation or a random complication, the doctors couldn't tell me. I am seeing a m/c specialist now, and it appears that I have the MTHFR mutation (but only heterozygotous). My doctor wants to put me on heparin as soon as I am pregnant again. During my last pregnancy, I also got heparin shots, but at a later stage, and I think it was too late already.

I try to take good care of myself and have started Yoga and Pilates to calm down my nerves

We'll see what the next days will bring. I must be 9dpo by now...

I am really looking forward to getting to know all of you! One newbie question: where do I get the little angel baby symbols for the signature?

Thank you