Ok well this is the post I didnt want to make. For those of you who have read my blog you will know that I was going to the ER this afternoon because I was concerned about ectopic. I have pretty much been in bed for the last 2 days because of the pain.

It turns out that not only was it not an ectopic pregnancy, it is not a pregnancy at all. I have to say the thought of it being ectopic was more than I could deal with this afternoon..... I just had going over and over and over again in my head..... not another one... not another one.

As it turns out I am not pg I do however have the pleasure of having cysts form which are now seeping toxins into my system. To add to that I was dehydrated and had to have fluids put through me and the odd injection to curb the pain.

As for where to go from here...... well i just dont know.... I will take a few days to deal with it all and try and sort it all out in my head but right now..... from where I am now...... I think I knew this was my last attempt.

Thank You to EVERYONE for there well wishes I really did appreciate it... and if all those prays behind me still didnt work... then maybe its just not meant to.