Ruthie and Toccara - just a quick post to check in on you lovelies .... I haven't been able to stop thinking about your situations and how much it just sucks. If I lived a bit closer I'd come and see you both - just arrive on your doorstep with some coffees and a couple of massive pieces of cake and lots of hugs and tears...
One of these will have to do instead ......
Ruthie - those pics are going to be painful to look at but as babyfever said ... will definitely be something to cherish later on...
AFM - had a lovely weekend away, but just so many preggie bellies EVERYWHERE! Man! The beach is worse than a shopping centre!! I seemed to stare/glare without realising it at the ones who had a child already and were sporting a bump too... so thought of my poor little angels a lot and just trying so hard to come to terms with it... feels like such a long road to feeling ok. DH and I had a couple of serious chats about trying again - even though I've decided to just wanted to make sure he did as much as me. .. and yep he is totally "on board" so to speak. He said the only thing that will make us better is another baby and the only way to get one os to try again. Won't hurt any less if we wait a year or if we wait 2 months and lose the pg. Sometimes he is just such a bloke, other times he is scary with wisdom and sageness
And .........my........ticker........is............mov ing..........sooooooooo.....slowly................ ..
and love to all
xx
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I just wanted to come in and bestow so love, hugs, stickyvibes and babydust on to you all. It seems like it's all much needed at the moment.
Huge hugs to my partners in crime. Thanks for the foursome chat the other night. You are all amazing and I love you all. I feel like I can truly share with you without feeling guilty or embarrassed(when I am a silly little monkey)
To everyone else; Be strong, stay strong, heal yourselves, love yourselves, and above all, believe in yourselves and your future babies!
Ruthie--Hope you manage to have yourself a I know just how rough it is on you right now, especially today--when you were hoping to not only celebrate your b-day, but celebrate seeing your little one on the u/s. I'm so very grateful you have your DS to cuddle and hold in your arms today--things must have been so confusing for him lately! I wish you continued strength to get thru these dark days, hun, I think your determination and courage are amazing! Don't expect too much out of yourself right now... just give yourself the time you need to heal physically and emotionally--we're here for you every step of the way!
Toccara--I wish I could heal your broken heart, hon, or at least say the right thing that would make it all go away... I know that's impossible, but I can't help but wish it! I hope you're able to surround yourself with supportive family, friends, or loved ones right now--is DH already gone for his training? Please remember that I'm here for you, whenever you need me! You can always PM me or e-mail me if you aren't quite comfortable posting yet. You're always in my thoughts, hon!
mollycat--You must get your guts, determination, and strength from your dear ol' dad!
joey--:goodluck2: with today's BT results! Praying you get your BFP!!
jenushka--Glad to hear you enjoyed your weekend away... I still find myself staring/glaring unknowingly at pg women--it's just so hard not to wonder why they get to hold their little ones and bring them home, and we weren't! It's hard to find any logic in a m/c, I guess... So glad your DH is "on board" and ready for another try at TTC! I find myself believing that the only thing that will make me "better" is another baby, as well--I don't think I can be truly happy again until I get that BFP--and even then there's no guarantee! All we can do is and have faith that God is in control and that he's got a plan for us!
Krystie--Big right back! I'm so happy that you feel comfortable with us--there's no need to ever feel guilty or embarrased--don't ever forget it! We're all here for you to support you and you on! Love you bunches! *kiss* for little Chyan!!
Angel, Queen of the Nuff's--Hope you aren't experiencing any nasty side effects from your meds! Sending lot's of hugs and Miss you everyday that I don't get to chat with you! *kiss*
Krystie--Are my eyes deceiving me, or did you POAS again??? You are a silly little monkey!
Tutmae--Hey you, lady in red, you've been a stranger for WAAAAAAAY too long!! Is the that bad again? Hope things are going well--sure do miss chatting with you! Keep us posted on how you and your little jelly bean are doing!
Joey, Babyfever, Jenushka and Jen: THANK YOU!! I'm trying my best to stay positive I just want these 2-3 months I have to wait to FLY.. I was referred to a doctor that guarantees me that he can help me achieve my dream ( maybe times 2 or 3) I only ask for one.. I won't give up! It hurts.. HELL it hurts!!! no matter if it was 3 weeks, 5 weeks, 40 weeks.. IT HURTS!!! Toccara I feel this with you and pray you too don't lose hope.... I am here for you and with you in all this.
Jen: Thank you for the birthday wishes.. I felt like I just want to stay home and just do nothing. I have so much to do anyways we are moving and despite all that has happened here I have to start packing.. "carefully" of course as I am cramping so terribly still from the D&C. SUCKS!
But many friends have managed to make me smile today and you and all my girls here are just amazing. I feel comfort in all of your messages.
THANK YOU♥
Ruthie- Happy birthday darling. I know its hard to do anything right now because of all that happened. But try to enjoy it a little bit. Is DH got anything planned for you?
Jenushka- Glad you had a good time. Yeah its hard to find that everyone around you is pregnant and have bellies. I thought the malls & stores were bad, But I guess the beach could be just as bad or worse too. .
Well, My friend that I was talking about came over this morning to get her little miniture bed she loaned us when we had our second child, That you can stick you baby in and put them on your bed in it so they dont suffocate when you sleep with them. She noticed my DH was home and shes like OH did steph tell you were expecting? Hes like ya. Shes like were so excited. When I mentioned that we would be due around that time as well if we were still pregnant shes like OH I'm sorry! Then GET THIS. She said Well atleast you can get pregnnat we know that!! AND WALKED OUT THE DOOR@! WTF?@?!?!? Has anyone ever had someone say that? My husband was like WHOA so insensitive. It was horrible I wanted to cuzz at her..
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Jenushka - I know what you mean about the preg bellies everywhere! And the markets were full of them, and babies, and baby clothes!! Ahhhhhhhh
Babyfever - I'm sure that is a common problem. Some people just don't understand
AFM - Back from my blood test. Feeling positive. I think the results will be in by about 9 or 10, but cause I'm in class, I don't know when I'll be able to post the results. Perhaps I'll just put in a BFP post without the details and come back later and fill in the gaps.
I woke up in a sweat last night, YAY, this happened a bit when I was preg first time. And last night my boobs were quite sore. This morning they are a little bit, but they get worse of a night. Also woke up TWICE to go to the toilet, normally it's only once in the night. And woke up in the middle of the night feeling a bit queezy. YAY!!
Babyfever: Thank you hun.. just didn't do much today... stayed home and did nothing but cry. But it's all ok... a lot of fam called all happy but then remembered what I have just gone through and it turned sour.
Just not a happy day. All is so "recent" still. I know I cannot grieve all my life.. but hopefully as the days pass by I will come more to terms..maybe as the 3 months that I have to wait go by..maybe my hopes will get up as the day get closer to seeing that "special" doctor.
Just want these 3 months to fly.. I want to TTC again with medical help. I can finally have full term live healthy baby!
Joey: Good luck hun.. for what you describe you sound preggo to me!!:goodluck2:
Am at work but couldn't help but log on and check the posts today ( I should be working!!!yuk!) anyway I just wanted to check on you and see how you went on Friday. I've read all your posts and can only grieve along with you, you poor darling, I know it will happen for you, you just have to keep believing it, be strong and God will deliver a healthy happy baby to you soon. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. I read your story and I thought have you tried seeing a natropath? my sister was diagonosed with endometriosis when she was 20 and had to have surgery and all that and thought she would find it difficult to fall pregnant, she was referred to a natropath who deals with woment with fertility issues, my sister was on nasty tasting herbs and a better diet and it took her probably around 4 months after seeing this natropath that she fell pregnant with her first. I also really do recommend acupunture it has helped so many women and Im a true believer in natural therapies. They cured me of Chronic Fatigue and irratible bowel syndrome so there must be something in them that does truly work.
I also wanted to say Happy Birthday, I know it was a sad day for you, but just think of everyone who is thinking of you and sending you lots of happy dust!! to help cheer you up, you were your mum's little miracle so try and stay positive and lets all pray that next birthday we all have big full term baby bumps! hey!!
Toccara - hope you are also staying strong, Im thinking of you too, I hope this time for both of you passes quickly.
Babyfever - no one can know what its like to lose our little angels and I must admit before I lost mine I was positive it wouldn't happen to me, how naive was I. I also look at Pg women's bumps and wish it were me. It will happen we just have to keep positive...
Goodluck Joey!!!!!
as for me, we tried this weekend but as I only finished bleeding last monday and Im sure my hcg levels are still high but dropping I doubt I've even ovulated, I keep wiping and looking for stringy eggwhite but there is either nothing or tiny little bits, Im also maybe babying every morning, temp still fairly high but dropping everyday, we just thought hey practice makes perfect!!!
(hmmm best I get some work done!!)
Hope to see lots more BFP's here later on in the day!!
hi to all the other ladies I've missed Jen, Jenushka, Tam, Krystie, Angelbabies everyone have a great day....
and love to all
I know just how rough it is on you right now, especially today--when you were hoping to not only celebrate your b-day, but celebrate seeing your little one on the u/s. 
I wish you continued strength to get thru these dark days, hun, I think your determination and courage are amazing! Don't expect too much out of yourself right now... just give yourself the time you need to heal physically and emotionally--we're here for you every step of the way! 
Tam!
and have faith that God is in control and that he's got a plan for us! 
you on! Love you bunches! *kiss* 
for little Chyan!!
You are a silly little monkey! 
that bad again? Hope things are going well--sure do miss chatting with you! Keep us posted on how you and your little jelly bean are doing! 
this happened a bit when I was preg first time. And last night my boobs were quite sore. This morning they are a little bit, but they get worse of a night. Also woke up TWICE to go to the toilet, normally it's only once in the night. And woke up in the middle of the night feeling a bit queezy. 
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