Hi ladies - looks like I'm another newbie. I'm so glad I found you guys but sorry that it has to be for this circumstance. I have read all your stories - don't think I could manage personals yet but will in time - and I feel like you'll all understand where I'm at because I get where ur all at in general.

Just a bit about me - I met DH almost 4 years ago and were married 18 mths later. We TTC from 2 mths prior to marrying and DS was born 10 mths after we married. That was an amazing ride for 2 and half years. Since then, it all changed and we have been facing one of life's challenges. We started TTC #2 2 mths after DS was born and did so after 2 mths - we thought we were incredibly clever and incredibly fertile and blitzing thru!! We had an early u/s cos my AFs were not back to norm and found no heart beat. Our sadness was quickly outweighed by the fact that there were 2 sacks - one with nothing in it and the other with 2 foetal poles - we could have potentially had triplets naturally!!! So we thought maybe it was for the best because 3 within 13 mths might have been crazy and these things happen for a reason, blah blah and once we could, we just got back BDing. We conceived again after 2 mths and thought "right! this is the one that was meant to be" and had an early u/s again cos of our previous experience. Nothing prepared me for a repeat no heartbeat & empty sack. This 2nd m/c really hit me hard - it wasn't meant to happen again the OBGYN had said (we found out later that 1st m/c due to chromosomes and 2nd due to major structural probs so no continuity b/w the 2 m/c's). So again once we could we started BDing and have been ever since. Month after month goes by - I'm trying to relax, relllaaaxxxxxx, but by December I decided I wanted to take matters into my own hands. What if there now was something wrong with me? So since then I have had BTs from GP (just normal thyroid, liver, etc kinda stuff - all fine except borderline low thyroid that needs to be retested), doing OPKs, started taking Blackmore's conceive well tablets, started charting BBTs, CM, (the stuff that I never thought I would have to do),started seeing a naturopath who gave me potions, now waiting for progesterone BT and booked into seeing an acupuncturist next week - hello "angelbabies", was interested in what you said earlier. If I didn't have my DS I would have truly gone over the edge and not just teetering like I am now so I really feel for the ladies who are TTC #1. My girlfriend had 14 attempts at IVF before she finally delivered her healthy baby daughter last November. I think she is amazing to have that much courage. Thinking about it, I think I have put so much pressure on myself cos I am part of a mother's group and I was the first one who was ready to TTC #2 and now each one is getting pg again - 6 of them to date - and I think it should have been me. It's hard not to think about it cos I see the mothers all the time - they are my friends - and it means I am reminded all the time.

Anyway, I think I have vented enough. Just wanted you to know who I was and I would like to offer my support in any way I can. I will equally be reading with interest to learn from you all.
Welcome BFPs all around - my shout!! lol