Gonna be a long post because I haven't been on in a long while (yesterday I had trouble logging in).
We buried FIL last Saturday and as you can imagine, it was a painful and exhausting day. We had MIL over on Sunday so she wouldn't have to rattle around the house all by herself. We're all adjusting to the new normal.
Yesterday I had an appointment with the fertility specialist. He did a history and physical and ultrasound and he thinks I might have O already, and I think so, too. To my surprise, I had a good cm pattern this month and yesterday my temp went up and today, too (in spite of all the stress--go figure). I just have to wait for one more day of temp to see if I actually O. FS thinks my problem is immune related (that's his working dx) and I also have to get a hysteroscopy if AF comes to check for adhesions and do a clomid challenge test to assess the general health of my eggs because I'm an ancient, decrepit old lady of 40.
Although I'm happy to start getting some answers (even if he only rules out various problems), I'm a low-key, low-tech kind of gal and this intensive medical scrutiny is stress provoking to me. But it's preferable to doing nothing and risking another angelbub.
bettyboop: sending cyberhug because you sound so sad.
never heard of viagra for lining before. interesting...
Angel Babies: sending cyberhug and a thank you for the cyber- cake and -coffee. Crossed fingers during TWW.
AJC, plc1805, mollycat: sending cyberhug
pbstar: welcome to our thread, hope your stay is a short one.
Canary: usually, fertile-type CM is stretchy between your fingers. But sometimes, the water content of the mucus can be so high that you can't "pick it up" at all. I talked to a Natural Family Planning instructor on another forum once and she said if it feels slippery down there when you wipe with TP to collect the mucus, that counts as a mucus day. Do you do internal checks?
hopingsoon: congrats and I'll be praying hard for you. yes, the temps sound good. but cramping-wise? I cramped with all my seven pregnancies, even the ones that were successful.
Brockstar: I am so, so sorry for your loss. I'll keep you in my prayers. You and DH just try to be real good to each other right now as you work through this.
Banx: I'm sorry for your losses AND happy for your good news. I'll be praying!
berecca623: sorry for your cr@ppy week--AF and insensitive friend and back problems--sending cyberhug
nicksterUK: I'm pulling for you. IKWYM about not feeling as sexy sometimes. After mc, sex becomes a serious business, at least sometimes.
Katiegirl: temps are an excellent cross-check for mucus, so my advice is don't stop doing them. You might have progesterone issues making your temps hard to interpet. talk to your practitioner and good luck.
tina k: I'm so sorry for your loss and you sound very alone right now. I'll keep you in my prayers. If you need to vent and rant, come here, because we know what you're going through. Sending cyberhug
Magda: sending cyberhug. and don't be silly--you aren't "bothering" us with your problems. it's better to vent when you can, and we understand. You might want to avoid your mom if possible for a while.
ll80: best of luck (btw, it's barely above freezing here in the States LOL! my kids went out to play today in snow flurries and wearing hat, scarf and gloves...)
Whew! Hope I didn't leave anybody out. Didn't intend to write the Great American Novel as a post, but I've really missed you ladies.
Have a good one.
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hmm does that convey the emotional tummult???
"oh must be something dodgy I ate, " 
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