TTC after Miscarriage or Loss ~ January 08

[Baby Angels]

Well I did what I said I wasnt going to do, I went and brought some pregnancy tests..... 6 to be exact..... just to be conclusive. Then I tested myself yesterday with a BFN. I woke up this morning took my temp, Drop from 36.7 to 36.0 in one day...... thought hmmmm thats a big drop... maybe... just maybe..... Did another pg test anyway.... another BFN!

This afternoon...... knock knock on the door. AF here for a visit.

Well I must say that I m alright with it all. I know that I could be in a more frustrating position as some of you are. I know that to have AF 1 month to the day after loosing my second angel is my system putting itself back on track pretty quickly.

So I m not going to get myself upset, I m quite fine with it all. The signs were all there that it would have been a BFP but it wasnt to be. It was the first cycle after loosing my babies and my body is now sorted itself out.

On a further positive note. All my herbs turned up last night as well. So now I have 6 weeks worth of this ummmm "lovely" drink. Once in the morning and once in the evening. So lets just look at the last few weeks as being practice. I know how to chart now, I know what various things mean, I have my little programe thing that makes it easier and I m starting a new cycle with my herbs and my little bits and pieces.

Heres to a BFP this time next month!

[AJC]

Bettyboop: :hugs:

Angel Babies: Good luck for your first official month TTC. I fell pg on the second full month temping so hoping you get a BFP real soon (first full month temping would be brilliant!!!). Is our first month back on the TTC roller coaster again this month. Love the poem, so true. I have a little list of what I call my 'positive tunes' and they're just songs that make me feel really positive about the future. I have them playing softly into my ears each morning when I walk and I found it really helps me with the emotional side of things. I also have a song which I play to remind me of my angel babies, I played it over and over at first but now not so much, it's a Celine Dion song called 'Goodbye's {The Saddest Word}' - not ashamed to admit I'm a fan, I think she's gorgeous. The words are very strong. It's a sad song but it also makes me look forward to the bond I will share when I do have a healthy baby in my arms one day....
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'Goodbye's {The Saddest Word}'
Mamma
You gave life to me
Turned a baby into a lady

Mamma
All you had to offer
Was the promise of a lifetime of love

Now I know
There is no other
Love like a mother's love for her child

And I know
A love so complete
Someday must leave
Must say goodbye

Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear
Goodbye's the last time I will hold you near
Someday you'll say that word and I will cry
It'll break my heart to hear you say goodbye

Mamma
You gave love to me
Turned a young one into a woman

Mamma
All I ever needed
Was a guarantee of you loving me

'Cause I know
There is no other
Love like a mother's love for her child

And it hurts so
That something so strong
Someday will be gone, must say goodbye

Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear
Goodbye's the last time I will hold you near
Someday you'll say that word and I will cry
It'll break my heart to hear you say goodbye

But the love you gave me will always live
You'll always be there every time I fall
You are to me the greatest love of all
You take my weakness and you make me strong
And I will always love you 'til forever comes

And when you need me
I'll be there for you always
I'll be there your whole life through
I'll be there this I promise you, Mamma

Mamma, I'll be
I'll be your beacon through the darkest nights
I'll be the wings that guide your broken flight
I'll be your shelter through the raging storm
And I will love you 'till forever comes

Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear
Goodbye's the last time I will hold you near
Someday you'll say that word and I will cry
It'll break my heart to hear you say goodbye

'Till we meet again...
Until then...
Goodbye
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Does anyone else have any songs that they have used to cope or they use for inspiration?

Goodnight everyone - have a good weekend.