Thanks all for your support. It has helped to read some of your stories although I wish none of us was going thru these experiences. After I wrote a couple days ago, I just kind of went numb and yesterday I was very, very sad. Today is a bit better but I know I am still in for good and bad days for a bit. I much dread the rest of this year as a friend told me she just finished her 12 wks and all was well w/ her preg. about the time I was unknowingly losing mine. Of course I wish her well (I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy) but I wish things would go as well for me too. She had her 1st child shortly after my 2nd m/c. It's going to be hard. But I resolve to try again.
Sharon19270: The reason I was thinking 3mos was that the anesthesiologist for my D&C said something about waiting 3mos and trying again - after he regaled me w/ the story of how his wife had 2 m/cs but now they have 4 kids. I know he was trying to be helpful but not what I wanted to hear at the time! I have since read that it is suggested to wait for one AF (4-6 wks) and then TTC. I should get it about the time that the results from the analysis of my D&C come back so I will start TTC then (if I can wait that long!). On a side note, so sorry to hear about the spotting.
Flowerchild: Thanks so much for your concern. Sometimes I feel so angry (and like such a failure) towards myself for the m/cs, I don't know what to do w/ the feelings. But it is important that I show my daughter (even at this young age) that disappointment should be met with strength and resolve. That is what I intend to do - even if on the inside I am distraught. Curious though -- do people going thru this go to counselors or find support groups? You also asked about why I chose to go w/ IUI after my 2nd m/c. After the 2nd, I was having trouble TTC. B/c of my age, the fert spec thought it would be more likely I would be successful sooner w/ some help. I'm glad I did it b/c it did work and now I have my DD. Plus I learned that I have 2 different clotting factors and was put on fragmin (heparin) and aspirin. Important info for the next time. Unfortunately he also told me my ovaries are 2 yrs older than my biological age which is why I'm concerned about turning 40. But I got preg right away last time and that was just 2 mos ago so I am hoping it will happen again (if I can manage to not get too stressed).
CrossingMyFingers: So, so sorry to hear about your loss. I lost mine around 6wks and didn't find out until 10wks. I feel really stupid for not knowing and for continuing to plan and get excited. I will be crossing my fingers for you as you TTC now.
Thx again all of you for your support. I have read some good info on this site that will help me ask intelligent questions of my OB when my results come back. Best wishes for all of you in your quest for that sticky bfp! Is there a dictionary for all these abbrevs somewhere??!!
Had a really busy weekend so haven't had a chance to get on til now.
Sharon - your symptoms are sounding positive. Spotting can happen when pregnant so don't get sad yet - it could be implantation.
Sweetpetite - You've had a rough trot of it. A couple of things you mentioned concerned me greatly. The first thing was thoughts of hurting yourself. You really should seek professional help as should anyone who is having those thoughts. The other concern was that you said you are not eating or drinking properly. When preparing for pregnancy you must eat well and drink lots of water so that you have the essential nutrients for a successful pregnancy. Seeking help would probably also assist with that as well. I'd suggest not trying again until you get your mind and your body back to an even keel.
Britkane8 - good luck with your results today.
crossmyfingers - Sorry for your loss. Both my losses were early at about 5 & 6 weeks and were natural ones. I can't imagine what it's like to be merrily going along not knowing that anything's wrong only to find out it's been over for a couple of months. There are a number of ladies here who've been through the same thing so I'm sure they will be able to offer you some support, knowing exactly what it's like to go through. BB has been my saviour on my bad days, I just come in here and type away and it always makes me feel better.
Megsmum - ttcing really can get you down when it goes on for a while and the clomid probably isn't making things any easier for you.
I managed to get through the very difficult situation of seeing my SIL for the first time after her pg announcement. As expected she went on and on about it and every subject kept getting turned back to pg. I had to walk out of the room a few times as I just couldn't take it. Even when she knew it was upsetting me she kept doing it. Lots of alcohol got me through it. I just hope she doesn't have the misfortune of having a m/c and then have to sit there and listen to someone else who's equally insensitive about their pg.
CD 10 for me today. My high temp was a stray one so I am indeed still waiting to O somewhere between CD13-16. Madly taking my evening primrose oil now.
Sounds like you are a cracker of a poker player, Britkane!!! Hope your luck with the cards is matched with equally good news with the BT results today. Everything's crossed for you!!
Crossingmyfingers, welcome to this thread. Sorry for your loss. Was there any reason given by your doctor to have to wait 6 months? I had a missed miscarriage too this year. It's hard not to feel that your body has in some way tricked you, isn't it. But I guess it also means that our bodies are good at providing a home for our bubs. Congrats on getting your AF a month to the day of your D&C. Hope your TTC journey is a sweet one!
Sharon, I was thinking that spotting might be implantation too after looking at your charts. I wonder if you're implanting late? Hope AF stays away for you and that you're announcing a BFP to us within the next few days.
Hello Megsmum, sorry the Clomid is running amok with your emotions. It sure is one hormonal rollercoaster. Hope you get the high of a really sticky BFP this cycle. IKWYM about hearing the clock ticking. I do too.
Sweetpetite, I'm glad to hear you're feeling a bit better. It does take time and lots of support. Don't feel you can't ever ask for help. That's what it's there for. My ex committed an act of self harm not long after we broke up and six years on I miss him as keenly as the day it happened. Counselling will help with getting through this time. I also asked my GP to prescribe antidepressants for me and they helped too. As for a dictionary of the popular abbreviations used on BB, if you go to the welcome forum, there is a thread there with all the acronyms and what they mean.
Satya, you did well to cope as well as you did with your SIL's performance. It would take me a hangover worth of alcohol to get through that one! Hope the evening primrose oil does the trick for you. Good luck with catching the eggie!
Back to work for me today, argghh. I have to do a presentation and I've not slept well. At least I won't be thinking about whether I'm pg or not all day today! Hope everyone has a great start to the week.
I've been away for a few days with DH, out last romantic weekend before we take the IVF plunge. Firstly, Sharon, I hope your spotting has gone away, if not from my experience it can be OK if u don't have cramps or bright blood. I understand how u feel though and my thoughts are with u.
I've collected my bag of IVF 'goodies', I'm sure it'll take me the next week to sort it out although I have to start Provera tablets shortly. Now I'm just keen to get it over with.
Hope your luck with the cards is matched with equally good news with the BT results today. Everything's crossed for you!! 
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