I tried to post last night and I'd written quite a lot too... shame it didn't work.
Sorry to keep you all wondering how I am... well the answer in short isn't very positive sorry.
I am fine in myself generally, although very spotty and hormonal which is irratating the bjeez out of me. I took myself riding yesterday to try and take my mind off of things, I cantered up and down the beach and blew away some cobwebs. I think its the only thing which actually takes my mind off things at this time.
Last night I had this horrid dream though, I had a baby and it was TINY... I mean tiny and I knew it wouldn't survive, I woke up feeling quite depressed and ill. I am about to go and get a bath, even though its mid afternoon and try to 'boost myself up a bit'.
I am convinced I have had yet another chem preg and quite frankly I'm ready to throw the towel in.
KL- Thanx really looking forward to seeing it esp Heath Ledger who is the real reason want to see it.
Van- Sorry to hear you have been feeling so down and are taking a break. They say it is easier to fall pregnant when you're not stressing. Heres hoping you are back soon to tell us about BFP take care
Rachel- Sorry you're having such bad time, have you thought about maybe speaking to doctor about chem preg?
Good Morning gurlies! Back after a 4 day weekend...
Easha...thanks Friday was tough...actually I was doing fine until I went to the mailbox and received the billing for my D & C (that was a definite downer)
mollycat...I appreciate being in your thoughts...it's amazing what a boost you gurlies give...the support here is beautiful
jen...*wavin* 1st day back and my desk is pretty clear...the ladies here kept my pile to a minimum!I am so sorry AB showed...
Wow...I am sure I've missed some personals ya'll don'r play with the posting! LOL
Krystie...*wavin* I think I am somewhere in the neighborhood of 7 DPO
mollycat--Thanks for the cyber drinks! Had to go out and get some real ones, as the cyber ones just weren't doing the trick! Bought a six pack of Mike's hard lemonade...only drank one, but at least I've still got 5 left to get me through the next couple days! Yay for O pains! Hope you're still getting your jig on! Good luck... I'm that you'll be taking a break from the meds due to a BFP!!!
Krystie--Hope you're enjoying the new book! I looked online, and they've got some great prices on used hardbacks by Sydney Sheldon--some even have 3 books in one!
at DH reading Jackie Collins! Her books really are as close to porn as you can get! But I guess her books can be pretty educational... no need for sex ed. if you're reading her books! She was on the Today show a couple weeks ago and they were commenting that there's sex on every page--duh, don't they know it's every OTHER page? I mean, if you're going to say it on TV, at least get it right!
Yay for bad O pains! Isn't it funny how we welcome pain and discomfort? lol....
Toccara--Aww, hon...I agree with Krystie, you can't keep your feelings all bottled up inside! You've got to learn to vent to us more! I promise you won't be putting us out.... that's why we're here! Please, feel free to cry, scream, vent...whatever makes you feel better! I think a getaway is a great idea--especially if you can work it out to coincide with O! Look how well that worked for tina!
AJC--I'm you get to see your little one at your appt. on Monday! Can't wait to hear all about it!
smilanatu! Glad to hear you had some helpers keeping your desk clear! Sorry to hear about the bill you received...I swear, I think they send it out at just the wrong time on purpose! Big
Ruthie--We ALL had problems logging in! It happens from time to time--seems like at least once a month. Must be when AF is visiting BB that we all have these problems! How's that sticky little bean doing?
larz-- I'm so very sorry that not only did you have to deal with the loss of your angel, but the loss of your tube, as well I pray your TTC journey is short and sweet, and you're blessed with a BFP very soon! I also hope you find support with us here...the women are amazing! I couldn't ask for a better bunch of supportive friends! Please feel free to ask as many questions as you need--there's nothing to hold back from here...no such thing as TMI here! Any time you need to vent, scream, cry, throw a tantrum...we've all been there, and we'll help you through this time in any way we can! Sending big your way!!
Congrats to all those who got their much wanted BFPS.
In response- I am going to speak to doc re: chem preg but until I have lap/ dye op next week there isnt much point as I may as well just get it all sorted then.
WTH-- I truly hope you enjoy your time away with your family--the Blue Mountains sound lovely! Good luck with the Clomid, and the second opinion! As always, you're in my thoughts and Hope you get lots of cuddles in front of the fire!
plc--Isn't it terrible when you can't log in? I'm feeling your pain! Try that combined with PMS--not a pretty picture!
joey--Hope you enjoy your school camping trip! You'll be missed!
Chappas--Can you believe how much longer the feels when you can't log onto BB? One day feels like an eternity! Hope you enjoy Batman--I haven't seen it yet, but will probably wait until it comes out to rent. Good luck with your hospital appt--I'll be with you in thought!
tutmae--Looking at your chart, I tend to think FC is right that you O'ed on CD19. And that works better with your BD'ing, so for you! Hope you enjoy your dinner out!
just a quick hello girls, ive been reading, but i havent been posting...been really busy at work, and then ive been so tired that ive been going to bed really early...so im sorry, ive been thinking of you all...ill be away till monday, so i wont be around till then girls, so i hope you all have a great weekend xx
Jen - I agree with Rachelswirl - Try to get in and see a doctor or give your doctor a call and tell him/her what's happening. Seems a bit excessive for normal AB. Jen - (after you get AB sorted out) it's never too early to start - just ask by DH that one. I've seen him start before breakfast at times. (Usually after a party).
Ruthie - want to send some of that heat over here. Woke up this morning at 5degrees celcius (don't know what that is in farenheit), I think it's only supposed to get to about 15-17 today. At least at the moment the sun is out, it just feels really cold. I've just turned the heater off.
Rachel - I hope your lap/dye goes well and gives you some much needed answers.
Van - Honey I'm sorry that you have been so stressed. DH sounds like he's being very sweet and looking out for your best interests. As much as I'll miss you here, maybe it'll be the best thing for you to take a break. You have to promise to come back and tell us about you BFP when you get it though!!!
Angel (aka Snitch) - Don't leave us hanging hun! Mwahhh!!!
Jen - My AF was the worst I'd ever had last month, but yours sounds even worse. I had one overflow, and some clots, but nothing even close to 50cent sized. Hmmm, actually I'm just now realising that I don't know how big your 50cent pieces are in relation to ours, LOL! Ours are pretty big... I'll assume yours are too. If you had had a faint line on your test I would have been convinced that you might be having an early miscarriage. But maybe your body knows how much we all want to join the same belly buddy group this month and it's giving you a mega clean out!
Mollycat - Is summer here yet?! Why oh why does winter have to be so cold?!
Chappas / Jen / Joey - thanks your for the well wished and warm welcome
Easha / Kriestielove - I'm not cufrrently using ff, seeing a herbalist and she gave me a chart to use.My temp is up a little and feel as if I'm pregnant. Not even sure if it is possible to feel a preganacy so early on.
I guess I'm being paranoid but I called my doctor today and he wants me to do a blood test, I think it is way to early to tell but I will do it anyway.
Just so scared of another ectopic, want nothing more than a healthy happy baby
Vanaithi - Don't give up...everyone always says 'don't think about it' but not thinking about it is the hardest thing....we will all get our dreams one day, we have to believe that!
Oh girlies.. so much to catch up on.. my computer had a hard time logging in to Bellybelly??.. did anyone had a problem??.. the wholeeeeeeeeeee day!!!
So now I have to go back and catch up.. so for now I'm stopping by to say hello.. and leave some love for my friends here!!!
As soon as I finish reading everything where I left off.. heheeh I will reply .....
Love you all my sweet friends!!!
I'm sorry for not posting before now, but AF arrived on the weekend not that she was unexpected. So I am on CD4 today.
Things are not going so well since we saw the FS yesterday though. He has recommended that we do one more Clomid/IUI cycle then go to IVF. We're both still a bit in shock I guess, although after this last cycle I have finally admitted to myself that IVF is probably what we need to do. Unfortunately though, DH and I (mostly DH) still have a few issues we need to resolve about doing IVF, which I won't go into now.
But anyway, we are doing a few things different this cycle - we're waiting for my LH to surge and then giving me a trigger shot (normally if my LH surged we just wouldn't bother with the trigger) and also changing the LP support from progesterone pessaries to Pregnyl injections. So hopefully we will have some luck - although I'm not feeling overly confident ATM to be honest
Sorry for the lack of persies, I promise I will try to do some soon. It's just a bit hard to get motivated to talk about TTC when you are feeling like you are not going to have any success anytime soon
Heres hoping you are back soon to tell us about BFP take care 
Good luck... I'm 
that you'll be taking a break from the meds due to a BFP!!!
Isn't it funny how we welcome pain and discomfort? lol....
smilanatu! Glad to hear you had some helpers keeping your desk clear! Sorry to hear about the bill you received...I swear, I think they send it out at just the wrong time on purpose! Big 
It happens from time to time--seems like at least once a month. Must be when AF is visiting BB that we all have these problems! 
I'm so very sorry that not only did you have to deal with the loss of your angel, but the loss of your tube, as well 
I pray your TTC journey is short and sweet, and you're blessed with a BFP very soon! I also hope you find support with us here...the women are amazing! I couldn't ask for a better bunch of supportive friends! Please feel free to ask as many questions as you need--there's nothing to hold back from here...no such thing as TMI here! Any time you need to vent, scream, cry, throw a tantrum...we've all been there, and we'll help you through this time in any way we can! Sending big 
feels when you can't log onto BB? One day feels like an eternity! Hope you enjoy Batman--I haven't seen it yet, but will probably wait until it comes out to rent. Good luck with your hospital appt--I'll be with you in thought! 
for you! Hope you enjoy your dinner out!
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