Honey sometimes just having a purely selfish vent... just type it all out... helps with the depression, the anger, the hurt. We all do it and that's why being in the thread is great. You don't feel like a freak anymore, or that something is wrong with you, or that you are alone. We all have different experiences yet we all share the same feelings of loss.
There is nothing wrong with feeling sad, or depressed, its all part of the grieving process and all part the journey we are on.
My Grandma once said, we are never given more than we can deal with, even if we don't think we can at the time.
I like to think that someone had to carry these little angels for the little time they had and not everyone is cut out for such an important job, we were chosen because we have it within us to survive this, it may not seem like it now, or tomorrow or next month but we will, all in time, come to an acceptance of our situations.
Thanks for your post. I just have to say that your DD is absolutely stunning! She is just gorgeous.
I think maybe I need a purely selfish vent, rather than just crying everyday on my own. I just don't want to offend anyone who has been through so much more than me by carrying on about how crap things are for me at the moment when I haven't gone through the pain of losing a baby in the second tri or later, and I have only had 2 m/cs, yet still I feel so very depressed and alone. I do read the threads all the time and think about you guys a lot, and wish so very much for a happy healthy pg for you all.
I feel like I am just not handling things and sometimes think we should just give up, even though all I have ever really wanted was a family. Even when I was a child, I knew how very much I wanted my own children to love. If it isn't to be, I am happy to adopt - I just want to love and care for a child, as I (and my Dh) have so much love to give (and our cat and dog get way too much attention!). I just don't feel like we can give up yet, but this road is so hard and scarey - I don't feel like I have actually been happy or 'myself' for so long now, and there is nothing I can do to get the 'old' me back. Your grandmother is right - we are not given things we cannot handle, no matter how bad things seem, we do go on, even when we think we can't do it any longer. I just wish things could be easy. I know no one said life would be easy, but for some of us, I just think it is time we were given a break.
Sorry, I am going on... Thank you for posting here, I am thinking of you and wishing for you to have another beautiful child to keep your lovely DD company
hi..
i am new to this forum, but obviously experiencing the same situation with some of you. I have 2 beautiful children now, but took me 4 years to have them. First couple years had problem conceiving, the last two i did fall pregnant naturally and assisted, but M/Cs 3 times at early stage (no specific reasons, just bad lucks....). However, now i am blessed with a DS (3) and DD (1,5).
I thought my battle with M/Cs is over after 2 lives healthy children, but now when i mhoping that i could get just 1 extra bundle, i have to face it again. Just had D&C for my 4th(?) M/C 2 days ago.Very dissapointed, upset, frustated,, and still cant believe it!
I had tears down my cheek when i read the posts for the loss in late pregnancies, i dont think i could face it myself. But i could see all of you are very strong and has given me some comfort that apparently i am not alone..
Those who are TTC #1, never given up hope. It will happen! and you will have the beautiful little family soon... All the best..
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