Honey sometimes just having a purely selfish vent... just type it all out... helps with the depression, the anger, the hurt. We all do it and that's why being in the thread is great. You don't feel like a freak anymore, or that something is wrong with you, or that you are alone. We all have different experiences yet we all share the same feelings of loss.

There is nothing wrong with feeling sad, or depressed, its all part of the grieving process and all part the journey we are on.

My Grandma once said, we are never given more than we can deal with, even if we don't think we can at the time.

I like to think that someone had to carry these little angels for the little time they had and not everyone is cut out for such an important job, we were chosen because we have it within us to survive this, it may not seem like it now, or tomorrow or next month but we will, all in time, come to an acceptance of our situations.