Diana, yes I know where you're coming from, being past the 12 week mark is only one of many hurdles for mummies like us. I don't have any magic advice except to just try and take one day at a time and cherish your time pregnant, because as you know you can never predict what might happen. try and be positive and take time to relax as much as you can. try and have some faith your bub will be ok, even if it's between moments or periods of panic!
Henry slept 7 HOURS last night, what a good bub!!!
Teagz - congrats on the official BFP - that's fantastic news. Good luck with the b/t tomorrow - I hope your levels are amazing
Beata - good luck with the scan on Monday, you'll be in my thoughts. How are you feeling? Hope your not stressing out too much!
DD - thanks for the well wishes. Good luck with your NT scan on Monday - are you having a b/t as well or just the scan? What a milestone! Anyway, hope all is fine and it will be exciting to see your little bubba again! I hope this gives you some reassurance and you can relax a bit more.
NaeNae - thanks for popping in and checking up on us. It's nice to have a friend to experience the pg journey with, so it's good that you and DD are so close in EDDs.
to Hammi, Dee and Berry and everyone else!
AFM, I went into work yesterday for a few hours. Everyone was lovely, maybe a bit too nice IYKWIM? I felt like everyone was walking on egg shells around me! I shed a few tears in the big boss' office but he was fine with that - he didn't ask me any uncomfortable or personal questions, just left it all work stuff which I appreciated. I spent the whole morning fighting back my tears as there were so many reminders of my pg such as ginger tea in my drawer, and my dates I had planned to start maternity leave written in my diary, etc. I hated having to leave the safety of my little cubicle area to get a drink of water as I didn't want to run into too many people. When I finished at lunchtime, I barely made it down to my car without dissolving into a blubbering mess. I quickly drove out of the basement carpark and burst into huge sobs. I had to pull over onto the side of the road because I couldn't see to drive. I think it was a bit of relief that I had finally managed to begin returning to a normal routine but it was also recognition that things would never be 'normal' again. I felt like everyone was looking at me thinking, "her baby died - how sad". Anyway, sorry for rambling, but I got back on the horse and went into work again today for a few more hours. It was much better, thank goodness. I guess over time, everyone will begin to relax around me and so will I. While my work team had been given a brief idea of what happened and not to ask too many questions, unfortunately that doesn't extend to outside my team. I work in an open plan office and just as I was leaving I ran into a friend from another area, who didn't know I was pg, and he said "oh hi, you're back. what happened? are you alright?" I couldn't face his questions and I was running late for my psych session so I just cut him off with a "yes, I'm back part-time, sorry gotta run, bye". He probably thinks I was a bit rude, but I am going to have to learn to deal with this I guess as I know a few people in the building who will probably ask the same thing. I'm dreading Monday morning when I have to go in for a team meeting. Hopefully it's all work and then I'll be ok.
Anyway, I am feeling a lot calmer and I found myself at work really taking a very different view of things from what I would have done in the past. Losing a baby has really reset my priorities to the things that really matter and I have come the realisation that apart from keeping my job, and therefore being competent, I am not going to get sucked into the vortex of stress and crises that often happens with my job. I am going to be sitting in the sea of calmness while the storms go on around me, well that's my new mantra anyway!
Chez, I just want to give you a huge cuddle! The first few days back are aweful, mine were very similar to yours... I don't really have any comforting words, just that time helps. Aww, I just wish I could give you a big huge hug! You're such a strong little cookie xx
I'm glad you mentioned my BT tomorrow... I had actually forgotten about it.
Hi everyone, just popping in to say hi and congrats to Teagz!
Big hug to Chez, it is really hard to get back into 'the world', even yesterday someone asked me what number this one is....I find it so hard to answer that question.
Oh sue, I hate those questions. I had a blood test today and the lady asked me if this was my first pregnancy, and I said no. And she gasped and said "How many children do you want to have?!" (as though I'm much to young for 2 babies!) I just told her one would be nice, to which she didn't understand and gave an awkward chuckle
haha, I know. I only meant it coming from a you must be super busy sort of perspective.
Thankyou
Oh, while you're sort of out and about and online I was wondering... Would it be possible to start a fundraiser sort of thing to possibly put towards the new servers? I have read a few posts about people complaining (although I think you guys are going great guns keeping this place going, and it's high rep) and I have spoke to a few people who say they would put something towards it without a second thought. This place has offered so many people support, it would be nice to contribute back a little.
- that's fantastic news. Good luck with the b/t tomorrow - I hope your levels are amazing 
I hope this gives you some reassurance and you can relax a bit more.
to Hammi, Dee and Berry and everyone else!
... All my prayers are with you for a healthy LONG pregnancy... 
I feel a quite honoured to get a congrats from a mod 
haha
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