Trying to Conceive after Late Loss, Still Birth or Recurrent Miscarriage April '08

[Inanna]

Welcome to Cindee, Syran and Snowie - my heart breaks for your goodbyes and the grief and loss you are feeling. Please believe in time that pain gets easier - you can put it into a box... Sometimes you open up that box because you want or need to. Other times someone will open it for you - and it hurts all over again... Sending you strength and love... You have come to a wonderful place full of wonderful women who will support you on the next part of your journey...

Hammi: What a beautiful way to say goodbye to Hamish. I practise Buddhisim too and I am glad you could feel comfort in your parents spiritual beliefs. Hamish was blessed to spend time at a Gompa - I am so so sorry my love I can understand how confronting and difficult it was to see Hamish's bones - and how hard it was to release him and say goodbye. Sending you all my love and prayers you wonderful strong Mama...

Jo and Katie congrats on your u/s...

[Katiegirl]

Hi everyone - the scan went well yesterday. The baby was making some lovely kicks and even waved to us. It has been amazing having these weekly scans as it is like watching our baby grow. So now I just have to get through the big morph scan next week. It is difficult to not get worked up and think about all the 'what ifs' but DH seems positive about it. We are looking forward to finding out the sex. I really think it is a boy but DH has said girl but has finally admitted he now thinks boy. So I think we will get a surprise if it is a girl - but a lovely one.

Flowerchild - thank you for the congrats. Your messages are always so lovely.

[sryan]

Good morning all,

Hope everyone is well.

Well did I have a bad night on Wed (very negative). I was crying, crying, crying. Something small set me off and a lot of emotions came out. My poor DH in having to cope with me, but he was absolutely wonderful. But back on track now. Unfortunately you have days like that!!!!

But on a positive note, went to Natural Therapist yesterday and things are improving. She said that my infection in my pancreas is a lot better and my sugar levels have dropped.

As I am on day 6 of my cycle, we are now working on the oestrogen side of things and then I see her again in about 10 days and we work on the progesterone side of the cycle.

The other interesting factor is that she said for me to cut down on my water intake (I drink about 2 litres a day). As it is winter and my body does not require that much and I am washing away all the good nutrients. I can now only drink 1 litre of water a day.

I must admit, I have feeling a lot better, so fingers crossed for a good month.

Hammi I wanted to say what a beautiful way to say goodbye to Hamish. I hope you are looking after yourself and treating yourself kindly. I wish you all the best.

Katiegirl, I am so happy your scan went well. After what all of us have been through, going to have a scan is a nerve wracking experience and I am so glad everything went well for you.... I wish you all the best for the rest of your pregnancy.

Jo also wishing you all the best for the rest of your pregnancy.

Jen805 thanks for the cyber chicken - very much appreciated .

Well wishing everybody a fabulous day.

xxx Sue xx

[sryan]

*** OOps back now - I am confused about ****

Hi all,

I just lost my message!!!! It says I was the last one to write, but it is not there....

Anyway I will send it again shortly.

xxx Sue xxx

[hgirs]

Hi everyone
I am very new to all this, I have posted only one time and have been lurking in the shadows for nearly 2 months! Sadly we lost our little boy Cooper on the 22nd of April, he was 24w+5days, we still don't know what happened and maybe never will. Hopefully we will get our test results back in the next couple of weeks, it will help for our closure. We have a gorgeous 18mth old boy Corey who was born full term, with no real problems except for being breech, so it was a bit of a shock that we lost Cooper so early. But in saying that I think I believe a whole lot more in a mother's instinct, as I had said to my DH, sister & friend that this baby would be born early.....I just didn't think it would be THAT EARLY! I am still on the rollercoaster of emotions, but am generally travelling fairly well, I don't know what else to say, but I have a million and one things to say, if you know what I mean. I am looking forward to getting to know you all so that I can say just some of those things and share my journey as we look forward to happier times. Thanks for listening to my ramblings and good luck to all.

HAMMI: I am so glad you & your DH found your magical place for Hamish, you are courageous parents.

Helen

[jen805]

hgirs-- My heart breaks for you for the loss of your angel baby Cooper. I pray you get some answers from the test results. It's definitely a bumpy, emotional ride--but we've all been through it, and are always willing to listen to anything you need to get out, whether you need to cry, scream, or vent. You've come to the right place for understanding and support, we're all here to cheer you up, and help cheer you on! Sending big


sryan--Sorry to hear about your bad night on Wed. Glad to hear the naturalist sees improvements with you, and you're feeling better. Maybe that's a good sign of what's to come for the rest of your cycle! Good luck!


Hi to jo, Simba, and Katiegirl! Hope things are well with you all, and you're all enjoying your pregnancies! Big


hammi--Hi, hun, I hope things are ok with you!


Hi's to cindee and snowie, as well! I hope things are progressing and getting a little better each day!


Hope all you lovely ladies have a great weekend!

[Hammi]

Hello mamas

I'm in a much better state. In fact, I feel quite happy and light.You're all right, Hamish is in heaven now because I can feel that he has moved on to another place but the fact that I feel good makes me believe that he is happy too. I think I've had closure.

Now that we've gone through all the things to do with his death (service, scattering of ashes etc.), we can just focus on his life and remember him that way. I love him SO much!

Thank you for kind words every time I have hard time. You ladies save me time and time again.

Helen, I'm glad you've popped into this thread. Have you contacted a naturopath yet? I saw a homeopath at the same clinic this week. Homeo's focus on getting the body to heal itself. I haven't started on her remedy yet but she was really lovely to talk. Maybe you try one of those too?!

Katie - big scan next week! Are you hoping for a boy or girl? I know, you just want a healthy baby, right? Me too. For you and for all of us.

How are you going Jo? Has that belly button popped yet ;-)

Hi Cindee and Snowie!

SRyan. Your AF must be on its way out now... countdown to BD time!

[jen805]

Hammi--I can tell just from reading your post that you're in a much better place emotionally! I'm so happy for you and proud of you! Hope things continue to get better for you with each passing day!



Just wanted to come brag that I finally got a coverline! This is my first month temping, so it's the first month I've ever had a coverline to tell me that I've actually O'ed!!! :woot: Seems silly that it would make me so happy, but I'm truly excited to know what's going on with my cycle! Even if I don't get a BFP this month, I'm at least happy I got my coverline!

Sorry for the "me" post, but I had to have a good vent for a change! Will check back in with you all later! Have a great weekend!

[Inanna]

Helen, I am so sorry for the loss of your baby Cooper... It is such a shock when you have had a "normal" birth experience. Was baby Cooper born sleeping?

Welcome to Belly belly and this little corner - you will find many women in here to support you, and listen to you...

Sending you love and strength .

[hgirs]

Hi and thank you to everyone for welcoming me, I will endeavour to get to know everyone! Flowerchild, no, Cooper was not born sleeping, he died about 15 min after birth. That is what makes me sometimes feel so angry at myself, because he was perfect, happily growing in there and whatever else happened let him down, we are not sure if it may have been an infection or incompetent cervix. Congratulations to Jen805 for your coverline! I temp, as my cycles can be extremely long...... I am just chaffing at the bit to get some normality to my temps at the moment, they are still all over the place and have only had a few days spotting so waiting for AF, waiting, waiting...
Thanks Hammi, no I haven't seen anyone yet, still not sure if I will or not, there is a lady just down the road from us that has a really good reputation though.
Thank you to all & good luck.

[hgirs]

Hi and thank you to everyone for welcoming me, I will endeavour to get to know everyone! Flowerchild, no, Cooper was not born sleeping, he died about 15 min after birth. That is what makes me sometimes feel so angry at myself, because he was perfect, happily growing in there and whatever else happened let him down, we are not sure if it may have been an infection or incompetent cervix. Congratulations to Jen805 for your coverline! I temp, as my cycles can be extremely long...... I am just chaffing at the bit to get some normality to my temps at the moment, they are still all over the place and have only had a few days spotting so waiting for AF, waiting, waiting...
Thanks Hammi, no I haven't seen anyone yet, still not sure if I will or not, there is a lady just down the road from us that has a really good reputation though.
Thank you to all & good luck.