I'm so frustrated today, sitting at work, eating my lunch in my office so I don't have to be around people. Crying for the first time since we got our BFP and officially broken through to consuming worry.

I posted about it in the Pregnancy after late loss thread and don't want to go through all the detailsa gain, but I called the GYN clinic today to ask to have an early ultrasound and just am upset at the resistance that I got. Given that I've been offered no investigation as to the cause of my late miscarriage, plus the horrendous way that I was treated after the miscarriage, I felt that asking for ONE ultrasound was not asking for a whole lot, especially since the doctor told me I could "come in any time I wanted" next time I was pregnant, as she thought "easing your worries" is a valid reason to have a scan. But I was made to feel like an idiot and had to give the name of the doctor who had promised me this "special" treatment.

Now the worry and feeling like a victim has broken through from wherever it was hiding, and I'm "convinced" that my miscarriage was caused by something they could prevent if they bothered looking but I'm just supposed to accept my 12-week scan and my 20-week scan just like everyone else and otherwise keep my mouth shut. So sick of these people, and the only private GYN clinic in Link?ping only takes women who can't get pregnant!