I just wanted to tell everyone Merry Christmas. I know the holidays are a very difficult time of the year for everyone in here. I am trying very hard to think positive for the future. The year to come is going to be bring great things for all of us .
Tomorrow is my 27th birthday. I am having a little trouble getting into the celebrating mood. It is only 2 weeks until my next scan. That is the ultrasound that has always told us that our babies are not growing well. I have been having a very emotional few days and I know that it is only going to get worse before it gets better. It has helped a little to have our little man kicking away in there. I wish the kicks were more constant but I know it is still really early. I am lucky to be feeling anything at all. It always makes me smile when I get a huge unexpected kick.
Sue, congratulations on a positive scan and a little girl, such wonderful news, you must be very excited!
Congrat's to you Tildy for keeping your job (it's very tough globally now isn't it) & for Kebab being 25 wks, that little car on your ticker is racing away.
Happy Birthday for tomorrow Laney! I can completely understand how nervous you must be about the upcoming scan. Kicks must be a really good sign, 15 wks is so early so that's great! As hard as it is do celebrate your birthday and your little one growing inside of you. I'll be thinking of you.
Dee, I can't remember welcoming you here? So welcome! glad your 6-wk check-up went well. Good-luck for your TTC journey, I hope it's a quick one for you.
Diana, no jumping bones this month lol - not for baby reasons anyway! Jan is the starting month. Have decided to relax this month and enjoy a couple of wines over Christmas, so it's action stations in Jan. So that means it will be Paula, Dee?, TM, Lan, Tocarra, yourself and me all trying in Jan. Hope I haven't missed anyone. Add your name if I have, will be good to keep track of all the TTC'ers.
Katie, thank you for your words of encouragement. Great to have you in this thread. Enjoy your little girl over Christmas, such a special time for you and your DH.
All those with little ones growing, give your tummy's a nice rub for those of us who are hoping to be in the same situation next year! I am so happy for you all and hope for safe deliveries in 2009!
For all the TTC'ers like me, be expectant of a great 2009, a babe in arms or a belly to rub! It is a difficult time at Christmas when you either expected a little one in your arms or a big belly.
Wishing you all a happy and peaceful Christmas.
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I lost my little boy at 35wks 5days. We have been TTC since Sept but no BFP yet. Maybe Jan will bring us a new start and a wish come true?!?! Just wanted to join in with all of you as we had such a late loss and I know you can all relate.
Zachary's Mum, I am so sorry for the loss of your precious little boy, my heart goes out to you, life can be so cruel. Glad that you have come into this thread, we will all encourage you and hope for a BFP soon! Praying that you get your miracle in 2009. Take care of yourself.
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Zachary's mom: Welcome to our TTC thread. I'm so sorry to hear about Zachary -- you're right, we can definitely relate, but we also know that everyone's experience is very different. I was devastated by my late loss but cannot fully imagine what it must have been like for you, or for the ladies who have had multiple early losses. I'm sorry you have to be here, but I'm glad we can get to know you.
Laney: Happy 27th birthday! I hope you and DH have a good time celebrating, and that you get one or two little kicks or big flutters to bring some smiles and hope into your special day.
Helen: Have some chocolate or sugary treats over Christmas and then lie down on your left side and see if you get some flutters. It's still early and you might not feel any, but you can say Tildy said you had to eat chocolate.
Lan: Have a good time at the coast, but don't let DH off the hook! I expect activity at least every other day! *sings 'I saw mommy kissing Santa Claus'*
Sue: Hope you have a great Christmas with all the new experiences that Lily is bringing! I can see her clumsily trying to open her first pressies next year!
Katie: I wish you the merriest of Christmases for Anna's first, and I know that Lan is right -- Nathaniel will be in your heart as well.
Rozzie: Still feel like you're my partner in crime, so here's a Christmas for you!
Jo: We haven't heard from you for a while, but I hope you're just out celebrating the holidays already with friends and family. Take care of yourself, and give our love to Jack and Madison when you think of them. I wish with all my heart for 2009 to be a better year for you.
Diane, Paula, Dee -- to you and our other TTCers, I hope you can smile to yourselves during the holiday and imagine and hope that next year your families will be +1 for the holidays. One of my best friends told me after my loss that she knew I was going to make it, and that when I was 80 years old, the extra few months or years that I struggled to have a baby in my arms would seem to small. I know we're going to make it, girls.
We're headed up to Karlstad tomorrow to spend a week or so with DH's fabulous family. MIL will surely be all fussy over my belly, despite already having 8 grandkids between the ages of 3 and almost 20. The cats will make the 3 hour car ride hell (and imagine if it snows again, eek -- there are at least some advantages for you guys having Christmas in the summer ), the 8 nieces and nephews will make the week hectic and chaotic, MIL's well-meaning fussiness will make me roll my eyes -- and it will all be wonderful, because I just love, love, love my crazy Swedish family and can't wait to add Kebab to it in April.
Thank you all so much for helping me survive 2008. Your concern and support have meant a great deal to me through some very dark days.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY LANEY! I hope you have a wonderful day. I can only imagine how nervous you are. Hang in there and here's to baby making lots of little waves in there.
Theresa, I am so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful boy Zachary. How cruel to get that far and not take him home. I am sending you a very big hug and a truck load of support. Welcome to our thread. I am and hoping we all get our BFPs and the new year brings our much wanted earth babies.
Tildy, thanks for the words of encouragement, nice story. Enjoy your time away and wishing you and your family a wonderful Xmas and hope Kebab gets loads of attention.
Apologies in advance for the rant but I had such a flat weekend and was in tears for most of the time Dropped off loads of Xmas presents to the kids in our family and had a house full of guests last night including kids (one a newborn). I worked myself into such a state after they left I was throwing up like mad. I love them dearly but it just hurts so much and makes me miss my little boy desperately. I guess I am a little nervous about my pg test tomorrow too. I really feel like AF is coming though but obviously praying it doesn't.
The eeriest thing is my little boy was due on the anniversary of my mum's death and if I fall pg this cycle, the baby would be due on her birthday. Of all the dates in the year. Is this a sign girls?
Again, sorry for the rant. I know you are all feeling emotional and missing your angel babies.
Last edited by dd0207; December 22nd, 2008 at 07:53 AM.
I made it ! Thanks for the advice on how to get onto this thread...
I'm sorry you're feeling so down ATM, I know it can be very hard to be around small children and little babies, because it reminds us what could have been. I miss my litle boy too, I have lots of little talks with him which makes me feel a little bit better .
Sending you lots of big hugs and good luck for your test tomorrow
Girls, I'm so sorry for your losses, my heart goes out to you all .
Hi Beata! Welcome, glad you found us. Looking forward to getting to know you. It is definitely a tough time of year for us but you will find amazing support here. So when is your operation scheduled for?
Yey ! I think I was going around in circles before you pointed me in the right direction..thanks heaps !
My operation is on 16/01, I'm on holidays now until 12/01 than back to work for 4 days and then 6 weeks off recovering from the operation. They told me the recovery is similar to a c section ( I said that's nice, but I haven't had one before !).
Hi everyone and very warm welcome to Beata & Theresa, I hope you find our little corner of the world a safe place to be! Beata what sort of operation do you have to have?
Jo if your out there, just sent you a message on facebook, I hope all is OK, how is your Grandma going?
Diana fingers crossed for tomorrow, maybe the throwing up wasn't all that stress related???? You did very well to have all those children around you.
Laney I hope you had a great Bday, speaking of bday's, DH and I are shockers just realised we both missed my nieces 2 days ago and his father's yesterday! Oops...
Well on my front, I have some flutters, YAY!! On the down side I have also felt some BH's, they seem to come earlier for me each time, has anyone had them this early? I guess what makes me nervous is that that's what my early labour tends to be like, I can't wait to have my scan in 2 wks time, it can't come quick enough, every ache, twinge etc makes me wonder if my cervix is shortening....
Good luck to all out there TTC, may Xmas bring us all hope and joy for the New Year.
Thanks for your warm welcome. I thought I'd read your posts to get to know all the lovely girls in this thread, and you all sound so nice ! Can't wait to get to know you all better, you've got a terrific support network here.
I've got a myectomy (sp?) operation where they'll remove a very big fibroid from my uterus wall where it's sleeping nicely ATM ( my fibroid died around the same time I lost Joshua ). It needs removing as my OB won't take another risk at IVF with me while I've got that fibroid there. I have one beautiful frosty bub waiting....
Sending you big hugs and good luck with your next scan. I can imagine how nerve wrecking it all is for you ATM, I reckon I'll feel the same if I get pregnant again....just think good thoughts, your bub will feel them too.... Good luck and I'm sending you relaxing vibes !
Thanks Beata, I'm trying to be calm about things, but it's just the waiting, if somehow we could just skip this part that would be great! I am so sorry to hear about little Joshua passing, did the fibriod have anything to do with it? Good job your OB is taking it out, it may set you back a little with recovery, but when you DO get pregnant again, you will have given your bub a nice cosy uterus to snuggle in!
Welcome Theresa and Beata. So sad that you have to join us but glad that you have found us. We are all hoping that 2009 brings us our earth angels. I'm sending an extra sprinkling of baby dust to you both for the New Year!
Laney: happy birthday I hope you got exactly what you wanted on your special day.
Helen: yay for the flutters and bugger about the BH. If its any consolation I remember reading about them starting really early in pregnancy and it being completely normal. Lets hope the next 2 weeks fly by and you will soon have the reassurance you need. Is there any other option for you in terms of having a check up between now and then so you can put your mind at ease?
DD: sounds like you've been having such a rough time of it. Lets hope the emotion and nausea are from a BFP and not what you think. I know that is usually my first sign of being pregnant (after the sore boobies) I just start crying at the drop of a hat. Not saying you didn't have good reason to be upset but I'm just trying to be optimistic about a good PGT result!!
Tildy: sounds like you have a crazy and delightful few days ahead with your in-laws. How lovely that you will have everyone there to make a fuss over Kebab and your big belly. I remember with Ethan just being so excited that he was loved by so many people even before he was born. Its lovely to think of Kebab being a part of all that craziness this time next year!
Megan: Im glad you are trying to focus on being grateful for what you have in your life rather than what you don't. Supposedly gratitude is the first step to abundance so its a good way to go. I am looking forward to us both having some exciting BFP news early in the New Year.
Lan: sounds like DH better watch out!! I know mine can't wait. AF is due between xmas and New Years and then all bets are off! I think I will pee my pants with excitement when you get your BfP!!
Hi to everyone else. I will hopefully have time for a proper xmas post tomorrow or Wednesday.
Beata, I am sending positive thoughts from now for a successful op, speedy recovery and a BFP next cycle. As you probably read, we are starting a tsunami of BFPs in the new year so you better be on that wave with us!
Helen WOO HOO for the flutters! How very exciting. Sorry not sure what BH means? I am sure the next few weeks will fly by with all the festivities then you can be reassured that everything is ok. I have every faith in your strong, long cervix!
Oh thank you Helen and Paula for being so optimistic but I think my vomiting fit was from stress, and I am an emotional wreck at the best of times anyway! I had a bit of spotting tonight so I think the big fat ugly witch is on her way. I am CD27 so its a few days early. DH, God love him, was googling "spotting" and is convinced it is implantation spotting. I really hate letting him down, it upsets me so much. I was so hoping I would fall this month so bubs would be due on my mum's birthday. Nurse said I still have to go for the pg bt tomorrow to be sure, but I am not hopeful.
I have decided to take the day off tomorrow (anticipating a sh*t day) so won't be able to check up on you all until tomorrow night when DH comes home with laptop.
Hey hgirs, I can imagine the waiting period is hell, but you can do it ! Christmas will be a good distraction for you. Sending lots of positive vibes your way and big belly rubs for your bubba.
My fibroid was already big before I got pregnant, but it got really agro when the uterus started expanding. Blood supply got cut off, and the firboid started degenerating ( dying ) and it all went downhill from there. My OB was really shocked that this was the outcome as he didn't think the firboid was going to be a problem that early in my pregnancy. He doesn't want to leave anything to chance so he's gonna remove it.
MrsRobbo, thanks for your extra sprinkling of baby dust ! Let's hope 2009 is our year.
dd0207, thanks so much for your lovely thoughts and wishes. You'll probably be hearing lots from me when I'm sore and feeling sorry for myself when I'm off for 6 weeks post opp. ( sorry in advance !! ). I'd love to ride the tsunami of BFP wave with you all !
hgirs, dd0207, Tildy, Berry1 and MrsRobbo - your words and kind thoughts bring me comfort so thank you for taking the time to respond to me.
I am really struggling at the moment as Zachary would have been 5 months old on Christmas Eve. Also, after not conceiving again - it is all so disappointing. I thought we might at least have some good news to end 2008 with but it is not to be.
hgirs - all the best of wishes for your scan
beata70 - I am sorry for your loss. Good luck for your operation and all the best of success for a speedy recovery.
dd0207 - for your test tomorrow. I will be praying for you for a BFP!!! Thank you for your kind words and I hyope I can offer as much to you and all the other girls.
Tildy - yes it has been difficult especially since we only had 1 week and 2 days to go as they were going to induce me at 38 weeks.We had so many plans and this result was certainly not what we expected at all. We had just got Zachary's room finished on the Sunday and we were all set to go. I still have days when I feel like I am trying to wake up from a nightmare.
I am in tears just thinking about my little boy and the Christmas we were meant to share and now can't.
I hope you all get the results you want (and deserve) in 2009.
Reading your post, I feel your pain and it brings tears to my eyes. I am so very sorry for the loss of your little Zachary. I think back to my own loss, and I wish we didn't have to go through that pain. My heart aches for you, I am thinking of you at this difficult time. This time should be filled with joy but instead it's a reflection of what could have been, and we can't help but think someone so loved is missing in our lives.
I'm sorry 2008 didn't end on a more positive note for you, but I hope 2009 brings you the joy you so deserve and much peace.
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my heart goes out to you, life can be so cruel. Glad that you have come into this thread, we will all encourage you and hope for a BFP soon! Praying 
), the 8 nieces and nephews will make the week hectic and chaotic, MIL's well-meaning fussiness will make me roll my eyes -- and it will all be wonderful, because I just love, love, love my crazy Swedish family and can't wait to add Kebab to it in April. 
Dropped off loads of Xmas presents to the kids in our family and had a house full of guests last night including kids (one a newborn). I worked myself into such a state after they left I was throwing up like mad. I love them dearly but it just hurts so much and makes me miss my little boy desperately. I guess I am a little nervous about my pg test tomorrow too. I really feel like AF is coming though but obviously praying it doesn't. 
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