Hi Everyone - sorry that I haven't posted. I thought I was keeping up with the reading but have realised that I missed a couple of posts.
Laney - wonderful news on the scan! I found the 6 week scan the scariest, but also the most beauitful. To see that little jellybean with a flickering heart was just amazing. I can imagine you were very nervous, but so glad that you received good news. I know the coming weeks will be tough, but know we are all here for you. I found I set milestones and would tick them off as I went, it seemed to keep me moving forward. I also had weekly Ob appointments (and he would do a scan) from 12-21 weeks just to get me past the period when Nathaniel passed. I hope your high risk appointment goes well and you feel confident and comfortable with the care providers. Great news on the gagging whilst brushing your teeth!
Paula - you have a busy couple of months ahead with your study. It will be a relief to get that out of the way, and you can then relax a bit to start TTC. I understand what you mean about needing the confidence to TTC again. My sister who lost 2 babies in the 2nd tri, gave me good advice - she told me not to put it off for too long as the fear would build and it would become much harder if not impossible. She told me not to let fear stop us. I understood what she said, but I have to admit once I found out I was pregnant...I freaked! I can't say what was worse, the overwhelming desire to be pregnant again or the fear when I was pregnant. I was quite a psycho lady for the first 20 plus weeks...still am actually!
Sue - glad to see your ticker moving forward.
Tildy - hope you are well. How does it feel to have moved past the time that Beiron passed? Has it given you any confidence that this baby will be ok? I was very glad to get past 20 weeks, it highlighted that this was a different pregnancy and that this baby deserved my confidence in their strength to survive.
Lan and Jo - so you are both going to start TTC in November. It will be a big month, and I wish you both the very easiest and happiest TTC period. Well done to you both to make the big decision to try again, it is never an easy one.
Hi to everyone else - Cindee, Roz and everyone else....
Okay so news from my world. I finally have our apartment sorted and the piles of junk have been thrown out. We even have spare room in our cupboards! I love it. It is something that we have been meaning to do for 2 years, so why not do it in my last weeks of preg. I have been lucky to and am still fairly mobile. I did go into the city yesterday and did some shopping and oh my how my feet hurt. I had to soak them in cold water when I got home, and then my hips started to play up and made walking hard. Mind you, I am not complaining. I find that so many people ask me if I am sick of being pregnant, uncomfortable etc, and I make a point of saying that I am still doing well and feeling good. I refuse to complain about being this pregnant, especially as this is what I have been wishing for. So now complaints coming from this corner! I have almost finished packing my hospital bag, and hopefully that will all be done by tomorrow. We picked up the pram on Saturday and DH has played with it almost nonstop and is now an expert. I had one painful Braxton Hicks yesterday, but nothing after that. So I have a feeling I still have a bit of a wait ahead of me. Poor DH has to study for an exam which is scheduled the day before I am due. He is finding it hard to concentrate. Also my mum started chemo yesterday, we will know today how she is going to cope with it in terms of side effects. She is in good spirits though which is very important.
Thank you all for the general excitement, and I promise to return the favour to you all as you move forward in all your pregnancies.
Alright will be off, I have written enough already!
Well I had a little scare again this morning with bowel movement, a little and I mean a little bit of pink discharge. Of course I have been freaking and googling, but it has stopped, think again that it is just when I push a little, it causes a little bleed. Can't wait until the scan on Monday and then hopefully (I hope!!!) I will relax more.
Laney - on a good scan, isn't it exciting seeing your little bean on the u/s, I had my first one at just over 8 weeks and it was moving a little and the 2nd scan at just over 10 weeks and the movement the little bubs had was amazing.
Paula - well done in making the decision to do some more study and that you will be getting your admissions qualification. I am also glad you have set a date to start TTC, it is such a big decision.
Lan & Jo - will be thinking of you guys next month with TTC. I hope you both have early success and event free pregnancies.
Katie - glad you have your house all sorted out. It is good that you are still all mobile, but still try and get some rest.... because when bubs comes around, not rest for you!!! he he he. I will be thinking of your mum and hoping all is OK.
Big hello's to Tildy, Roz & Cindee - hoping all is well.
Well Christmas is coming up so fast, we have made some decision on what we will be doing and we are going down to see my mum, sister and brother (and families) for Christmas in Loxton, which is a country town about 3 hours from Adelaide.
I am looking forward to it, as spending time with DH family is a lot more stressful, as there is normally a lot of friction and fighting. Though we are trying to organise a quick catch up on Christmas Eve with DH Family.
My father passed away on Nov 30th last year, so we had a really quiet Christmas last year and mum wasnt really up for it (which is understandable).
So hopefully we can do a lot of celebrating, especially with bubs on the way..... though no ham, prawns, alcohol..... though it is all worth it.....
Wow, what a time of milestones... Katie is officially full term, Sue is past 12 weeks, Tildy past 17 weeks, lots of new BFPs. I've been feeling lots of kicks which is lovely, but now I know that inevitably I'll worry if bub doesn't kick for a while, as that's how I found out the baby had passed last time. And as much as I love my bump, I now cannot wear my uniform anymore. Catch 22s!!! I was going to start wearing maternity uniform on Monday, but chickened out. Tomorrow is the day now, because on Thursday we have a farewell lunch and we're wearing civvies that day, and I look pregnant in all my normal clothes (which are all maternity clothes now anyway) so I figure it's better to announce it tomorrow than have everyone looking at me strangely on Thursday, wondering if I'm preggers or just getting fat. Anyway, I had my performance debrief with my boss today so I took the opportunity to warn him that if I appear shaky or upset it's because someone has probably asked me something like 'didn't you just have a baby?' or 'is this your first?' (still no idea how to answer that one). He was really supportive, which is nice considering he's a single divorcee with no kids, but has been really understanding so far.
Anyway, I wanted to do all the personals but am now really tired (for a change!). Tomorrow we have our first appointment with the midwives to book in for the birth, then next week is our morphology scan!! Time has just flown by!!!
Love Rozzie
p.s. my second most annoying ad after the Fernwood one is now the one where Maccas advertises 'seasoned avocado' on its burgers. When Macdonalds is describing avocado as 'seasoned' it makes me physically ill to imagine what's in it. Bluurggh.
Just a quick post as I'm stuffed and still getting used to being back at work. I can't believe I've been going to bed at 8pm and consider it late!!!
Rozzie, you made me laugh about the seasoned avocado. I had just finished saying that exact thing to DH!! Next time I need something to distract me from work I may see if Mr Google can help me find out what the 'seasoning' actually is!!
Laney, double congrats to you... a good scan and a new ticker. How exciting. I know its early days but every little milestone counts here with us.
Sue, bummer about the bleed. Doesn't your body know not to freak you out like that! Thank goodness your scan is next week and you can hopefully get some reassurance. You are doing so well and we are all willing you along your way to that magical full term mark!
Lan and Jo, part of me is jealous I am not ttc next month but I know it is better for me to wait. DH and I have put a deadline of Feb at the latest but will most likely start ttc in Jan. I think AF is due late Dec so will most likely start ttc after that. Not that far away really. I can only imagine how you girls are feeling, I am already freaking out. Part excitement and part sheer terror! I'm glad I'll have you girls just ahead of me to give inspiration.
Hi to everyone else. Take good care of yourselves.
Hi everybody, have been so busy lately it's hard to get on here! I hope everyone is doing OK, we are good, although Corey has had another chest infection, I swear since starting daycare he has got one thing after another! It is so horrible to watch them when they are sick, it just rips my heart apart. I was cleaning today and pulled out Cooper's box to wipe over, well I didn't finish the cleaning for awhile! My God I miss him so much.
Sue - I had some pink mucous 2 days ago too, I hope you haven't had any more. I can't seem to get through a pregnancy without it, I almost expect to see it at some stage but when I do it still takes me back.
rozzie - I don't know how to answer the question of 'How many children do you have?' I still struggle very much with that one. The lady that took my bloods asked me if this was my first, and I immediately said 'No my third' then the questions came 'How old are the other 2?' .....
Katie - Full term!!!! How are you feeling?
I have to go, Hi to everyone else sending those about to TTC baby dust, us who are preggars sticky Vibes, Katie - Labour vibes! And those getting ready hope.
Rozzie - how did you go wearing your maternity clothes and about people finding out???? I hope it wasnt too emotional for you and that all your work colleagues behaved themselves....
Paula - I am the same as you, heading to bed really early. But I do the naughty thing of watching TV in bed.....
Helen - It is so scary having the pink bleed, how are you going??? I am so terrified of having to go to the toilets to do number 2's, that I wait (tmi) until it basically bursts out of me.....
Katie - How are you??? How is your mum????
Jo - thinking of you
Lan - Positive vibes for TTC
and big hello's for Cindee & Laney.
Well with me, just waiting until the NT Scan on Monday. Fingers crossed that all is OK and that I walk out of there so happy. Do you actually find out your results on the day???? I had my bloods taken last weekend.
Well hoping everyone is well and is having a good day.
It has been quiet hasn't it?? My spotting has stopped, I can't wait until I get to see this little bubba. I am jealous of you having a scan on Monday! They should be able to tell you your results if you've already had bloods. Goodluck.
I had a shocker today. Out of the blue (I was at my desk at work) I got a text message from a close friend that I don't see very often. Saying that she had a dream about me bringing home a baby girl from the hospital and taking her round to visit my friend. She knew I was pregnant but had no idea about losing Charlie. I was totally floored. I had been meaning to call her and tell her but it is such a hard conversation to have that I just kept putting it off. Anyway, I managed to keep it together until I left the office for lunch and I started crying. I just had to call her and tell her so that I could stop stressing about it. When she answered the phone she was so bubbly and asked if I had exciting baby news. I just burst into tears and well you can imagine how the rest of the conversation went. We were both in tears and I looked a treat by the time I had to go back into the office.
Anyway, I have been really emotional and grumpy. I have PMS and am pretty much identical to any PMS cartoon character you've ever seen only worse!!
I went to the Dr to get my hormone tests back (2nd lot because she booked the first lot on the wrong day) and then found out she forgot to ask for estrogen and only got progesterone. Aaaargh! Luckily she could ring the lab and get them to retest the sample they already had which was a relief as otherwise I would have had to wait until same time next cycle and I really want to get all this sorted so that we can start ttcing late Dec, early Jan.
My progesterone is in the low end of the normal range but without estrogen results I can't get a true indication. She seems to have no idea so i am going to ask the specialist in Brisbane who suggested I get my hormones tested to have a look at the results. At least then I have the same person managing my thyroid and my hormones.
Anyway, sorry to be all about me. I hope you are all doing well. I guess no news is good news for all you PG chickees!Just nice uneventful pregnancies and beautiful bouncing babies at the end. I'm with you Helen and having one of those 'god I miss her' days! Hugs to you.
Paula, I feel for you today. There seems to be a never ending stream of people to tell after the loss of a baby, no matter how much time passes. That's why I've not told anyone this time, I'd rather give them unexpected good news at a time of my choosing. I hope you can get some better answers from your other doctor too.
Helen, glad to hear things have settled down.
I started wearing maternity wear on Wednesday. I didn't actually run into many people (even avoided drinking water to limit toilet trips, so silly!), so there's still plenty of people to deal with still yet to come. Only one person asked me about it, and I actually told her about Edward without breaking down and she didn't act awkward just said she's sure everything will work out this time so that was nice. I think everyone else is just too afraid to ask/say anything, which is kind of funny!
Have had lots of nice big kicks the last few days, DH felt from the outside last night which was lovely. Can't wait to do it again tonight. It was a little bit deja vu, last time we used to sit in front of the tv with his hand on my belly feeling for kicks, it's the same this time. It's probably the strongest sense of deja vu I've had so far.
Anyway, looking forward to some more good news on this thread, I think Sue's scan on Monday is the next source! Sue, when you get your results depend on how they do it. Last time I got mine at the next appointment, this time I got it straight after. If the neck measurement is around 2mms or less then that's the main indicator I think, so just watch the measurement. Just don't painc if it's a bit higher, it's a risk indicator, not a diagnosis!!!!
Hi Ladies, I have been having a difficult time getting on bellybelly for the past couple of days. I don't know what the problem was. I have a bit of reading to catch up on. I was worried that I might have missed some news from Katie! Guess not, I will be stalking if my computer continues to play nice.
I have had a stressful day. Last night I had a bit of pink spotting after sex. It was a tiny bit and it didn't last long at all. I know what the problem is at least. I had a pap test on Monday ( I have no idea why they have to do that so early in pregnancy). I always spot and it freaks me out. I think my DH is worried that I am going to avoid him for 7 months now. He might be right to worry.
Laney - I hate the idea of spotting. I was terrified of it this time around. I had a small spot at 6 weeks but thankfully nothing since. I hope you are as lucky and have no more spotting to add to your anxiety. You are doing so well, keep up the positive thoughts.
Rozzie - hugs for moving into the maternity wear. I know it must be so hard having to wear it and also fear the questions that will arise. It sounds like you are doing a good job so far, and it is good that you can be honest and talk about Edward when people ask you. I think having to face people who may not know etc, is one of the hardest parts of the grieving. I always feel so vulnerable and that inevitably leads to feeling teary. Good luck over the coming weeks and I hope people are sensitive towards you. Also it is lovely that your DH can feel the kicks already. It took my DH until 25 weeks until he felt anything. I know it will bring back memories of Edward, but try to hold on to the fact that they are lovely memories even if bittersweet.
Paula - hugs with the text you received from your friend, but glad that she was sensitive when you called her. You must have felt exhausted by the end of the day. I hope your specialist can take over the management of your progesterone as well as hormones, that way you will know you have all bases covered. Don't worry about having an 'all about me' post - we all need to do those at different times.
Helen - so glad your spotting has stopped - fingers crossed it stays that way! Thanks for the labour vibes - keep sending them my way!
Sue - good luck for your scan on Monday. Can't help with the blood test results as I don't have them done - just the NT scan. I hope you have a lovely scan and see your little baby moving around for you and putting on a good show. Make sure you update us asap!
Hi to Tildy, Cindee and Jo and anyone else I have missed...I hope you are all well.
As for me, I am still sitting here counting the days. Saw my ob yesterday, he was running late as he had an emergency C/S and then a woman in labour. All is good, he said that the baby is a 'nice size' and reassured me that he doesn't mean big! I had to double check on that one. Blood pressure and baby hb is good, and still fully engaged, so the due date really is anyones' guess! My mum is doing well and had her first chemo treatment on Monday. She has been feeling pretty good and only had one instance of slight nausea, so fingers crossed that it continues through the whole treatment. She is currently staying with my sister, so is being looked after. She is getting excited about the baby and reminded me to call when I go into labour.
Well if have hit the 13 week mark.... just so waiting for the scan tomorrow and I think (after my history and if all is OK), I will relax a little after there.....
Katie - Your ticker says on 6 days to go..... yahoo.... how are you feeling and going??? I am so awaiting to hear your announcement....
Laney - spotting is so scary, I have had it twice so far during my pregnancy and I have freaked out. I hope you are feeling better.
Rozzie - Nice to feel those kicks, I can not wait until I get that feeling. I am so proud of you for wearing maternity and getting through the rest of the week. I hope it went smoothly for you.
Paula - I have never been in your situation, but my heart goes out to you (actually to all of you) who have had late losses. It must feel like it takes forever for everybody to eventually know and it must be such a shock each time you come across somebody.
Helen - So glad your spotting has stopped.
Hello to everybody I have missed. Hoping everything is going well.
I can't say what was worse, the overwhelming desire to be pregnant again or the fear when I was pregnant. I was quite a psycho lady for the first 20 plus weeks...still am actually!
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