Trying to Conceive after Stillbirth/Late Loss/Recurrant Miscarriage October

[Laney]

WELCOME TO THE WORLD ANNA! I can't wait to see some pictures of this tiny little girl.

Tildy, I wish I could take it one scan at a time and celebrate some milestones. I am just not that kind of person. I am always thinking and worrying about what is to come. My history gives me too much to worry about and it is almost impossible to expect a different outcome for this bub. I have a tiny bit of hope due to the heparin. I try to tell myself that every pregnancy is different.
There are a couple of ladies due before you. Michelle71's little *Edna* is due in a few weeks. ButterflyWarrior is also due in a couple of months. The pregnancy thread has been extra quiet for months so I haven't chatted with them in a long time.

Buliej, Welcome. I am very sorry to hear about your loss. I am glad to hear that your bleeding has stopped so soon. After I had a D&E it took 2 months. I was also pregnant again within 3 months.

Rozzie, I will be thinking of you over the next week. Keep yourself busy.
I understand how you are feeling. Sometimes the way people talk about Parker and Shelby blows my mind. They say such insensitive things that they feel will help me if they talk about them at all. After I lost Parker my dear friend who has experienced a loss herself told me that it wasn't good timing for a baby anyway. We would be ready the next time I got pregnant. We were just buying a house because my husband started a new job. I find myself avoiding people all together now. I pretty much alienated/isolated myself from everyone. I hope bringing home a healthy little bub will help me get past everyone's shortcomings in the support department.

Lan, I have to go back to some of the same ultrasound places. I wanted to keep my doctor so I will have to have more done in his office. I will also have to go back to the high risk office where I had all of my scans with Shelby. I really don't think the room makes much of a difference to me. They are horrible no matter where I am. I will never go back to the place where I found out about Parker. The woman was rude and insensitive. She just wanted to get rid of me so she could do her next appt. I wish that I could take some BB ladies with me for that 17 week scan.

I think that is a good idea. I am going to have to find some projects to fill my time. The fact that I work from home makes my days a bit long. The holidays have been speeding up time. I have started shopping which keeps me busy on the weekends.

Jo, I don't know why but I thought your testing day would be sooner. My scan is on the 5th, I hope we both get good news.

Parker's EDD is Dec.3rd. I want to do something to remember him on what should be his first birthday. It should help me stay busy and not think about my upcoming scan.