Jo - I hope you are ok and are able to take the time out from work to remember Jack. You and I have come so far since we first met around this time last year. Thank you for all the support you have given and I hope you have found the same in return. I know you miss Jack like mad, and it will also bring up emotions attached to Madison - be kind to yourself and let your tears flow whenever they need to.

Laney - I will be thinking of you on Wednesday as you remember Parker on his first birthday.

Wednesday is also Nathaniel's angelversary. I can't believe it was a year ago that my whole world shattered. It is hard to explain, but having Anna has made me realise even more how much I miss my little boy. I find myself holding her and bursting into tears. DH is being very supportive and giving me lots of hugs. My counsellor did warn me that Anna's arrival may bring up emotions and it certainly has. I just wish more than anything that I could have both my babies, but I know at least that we have a special angel watching over us. When Anna is on the change table she oftens looks at the same corner and smiles even though there is nothing there, so I like to think that is where Nathaniel sits to watch over her.

Rozzie- I understand how you feel about seeing 'miscarriage' written for Edward. I didn't give birth to Nathaniel (had to have a D&C) but at times it bothers me that he described as a missed miscarriage. I carried him for 20 weeks, and I had all the hopes and dreams of any first time mother. It is hard when you get to the same gestation as your last baby, but know that you have a strong one and enjoy every kick and flutter.

Group hug everyone - I think we need it