Well I'm back from Byron, I had such a good weekend. The GF I went with is my closest friend and just happened to be visiting from Melbourne when we lost Charlie so she was here and went through that time with me. She is such a good friend and whilst there were plenty of tears over this past weekend, we also managed to have some girlie giggles as well. She came specifically at this time because it is EDD time for me. Charlie was due on the 16th of October and she booked this trip ages ago so she could come up and make sure I was doing ok and coping with everything.
I have read all your posts about feeling really negative towards others at time and I can totally relate. My other really close GF who also lives in Victoria did not acknowledge Charlie at all, no card, no flowers, no nothing. She left a couple of messages at the time saying she was going away on holidays and hoped I was ok and would call when she got back. She was only going on a holiday within Victoria, its not like she was going to the north pole. I have spoken to her once since losing Charlie and she barely asked about it at all. As you all know I recently graduated which was a huge deal for me, especially after what I have gone through and I have not heard anything from her. She would not even realised I am now a lawyer and started my first 'lawyer' job last week. Then to cap it all off I got a txt msg from her last night going on about how she just completed a mini triathlon and what an achievment she thinks it is. I couldn't even bring myself to txt back. Normally I would be so excited at such an achievment but it just made me realise we are no longer friends. Its a bit sad after having been best friends for nearly 20yrs but I guess its just what happens as you grow older and experience the ups and downs of life. Some friends truly are there through thick and thin and others are not.
Anyway, as I said, I had a great weekend and am now gearing up for me 2nd big week of work.
Katie, I had a tear in my eye reading your post about the car seat. I wanted to say thank you for sharing it with us though because these are not things we would think about ttc or early in a PG and now that you have spoken about it, the rest of us can know that it is likely to happen and be a little bit more prepared.
This really is a wonderful support group and I thank you all for sharing yourselves so openly, how wonderful it is to know that even at our *****iest we are still normal!!
Have a great week everyone and even if I don't have time to post until the end of the week I will definitely be checking in on you all.
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