Hi girls,

I've gotten out of bed at 6am to send e-mails to my boss and project leader saying I'm not coming to work today, as I haven't slept the entire bloody night. I'm a bit wound up about it being Beiron's EDD today and about some spotting and cramping I've had since yesterday, about the approaching 17 week mark, and even about the release that was due today that I now won't be finishing. Super-insomnia strikes again. Bah, and now one of the cats is whining obnoxiously and keeping DH awake... little rascal.

Paula, I've had to reevaluate many of my friendships since losing Beiron, as it casts a new light on almost every relationship I have. It hasn't been flattering for the three girlfriends I thought I had -- they were all three bridesmaids at our wedding last August -- but on the other hand I got to be very impressed by another new friend and my SIL in a way that I'm very grateful I got to see. It sounds like the lady you've gotten the chance to see what a good friend you have in the lady you went to Byron with, so there's a positive counterpart to the triathalon lady.

Katie -- it was moving to read about your reaction to the car seat, especially what you said about not getting to raise all your children. I know it hurts that what you've been through "corrupts" your happy memories, like DH's excitement from last time. But I hope that when your baby comes that she can turn that around for you again; that you can more easily think about Nathaniel with a soft smile in place of some of the pain.

Laney -- glad to hear your BFPs are getting stronger. It's great that you're seeing the OB straight away.

Cindee -- Jebus on a scooter, people can be stupid... I hope you can put her out of your head!

I'll have to catch everyone else later, as I think I need to lay down again, perhaps after getting something to eat. Back later.