Sorry I have been posting infrequently lately, but it actually hurts to sit down for long periods of time now that I'm off the super strong meds.
Tildy, yes, can you believe 1 kg ? When I was weighing myself lately, I didn't take off that much ! I do believe in creating positive images in my head too, I often thought of the fibroid being dead and shrinking and that's exactly what happened. When I go for my transfer hopefully in May/June, I will imagine the little embie sticking, and that I'm actually pregnant so hopefully I will be ! Woo hoo to a big baby ! Sounds like he's loving it in there. I think it's a boy.
Theresa, it's so sad you've had all these terrible delays and stuff ups when your heart was breaking about not being able to take home your little boy. Fortunately, the people at my hospital were lovely, and the midwife was excellent and everything went as smoothly as possible on the day. Mind you, I can't recall the whole day now as I was just in shock.
On the positive side, I hope all goes well with you next scan :-)
Jo76, I think that was a lovely reading. She can see you with a baby in your arms and that's the best gift she could have given you. I think the death card can also translate to a new begining or a birth to something new, so I'd say it's a positive card.
Teagz, just go with your gut feeling, that always works for me. I'd do what the naturopath says ( at least you dont have a loud clock ticking away at you ! )so don't try too hard on TTC for the next couple of cycles and see what happens. Just follow the rule of doing the deed on regular basis, more so from day 10 to day 16 days of your cycle and you will have a good chance to conceive again.
Oh Diana, I would have killed that stupid midwife !! She shouldn't have given you such negative images of your baby. And after all that, he was born so perfect ! I wish so much that Joshua lived even for a few minutes, the journey for him down the birth canal was just too much. He was born an angel, but oh boy, he was so beautiful and perfect. He had the cutest button nose and little cupid lips and his fingers and toes were so tiny and so so perfect. I couldn't stop looking at him. When the midwife initially asked us if we wanted to hold him straight away, or to wait until she dressed him, my DF was so worried that he would come out deformed or something, so I asked her to bring him to me after he was dressed. Well, after he came out, I had this overwhelming need to hold him, that I asked her to put him on my belly, and I was so happy to be holding him. I was wishing for him to take even a single breath so I could tell him how much I loved him, but he never did. I cuddled him for a few minutes, but I was too scared to touch him too much as he was so tiny, as if I would break him. He weighed only 350 grams.
Please don't beat yourself up about not wanting to see Sebastian straight away. You have cuddled him, and loved him and he would have felt that. He will always feel your love, always. In his heart, your're his beautiful mummy and he will always love you and be with you forever. Big hugs hunni xxx
Big hello to the other lovelies, I will post some more personals tomorrow.
Not looking forward to the staples coming out tomorrow, my OB said it won't hurt, but I've heard this before so I don't trust him ! LOL
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