Trying to Conceive after Stillbirth/Recurrent Miscarriage/Late Loss

Lan -- sounds like you're the opposite of how I was with TTC. I was pretty depressed for the first 2 weeks of my cycle, rather a wreck after AF came, and then sloped upward and upward in the last two weeks, probably because of the "I'm definitely not pregnant now" vs. "I might be pregnant now!" difference. We'll try to help you make both sides positive. :D

Laney -- thanks for the help about the albums! I have nothing to post there yet, but soon I might be done with our nursery and want to share it with you guys. I understand that there is no point at which you will be able to relax. Even I feel that way. But you're doing so wonderfully so far, and about to pass by one of your "bad" anniversaries...

Teagz -- usch, sorry your body isn't treating you nicely! But good on you for keeping up the TTC despite that. :D Silly that your friend called you a hypochondriac. It doesn't even fit. :P I blogged about how pretentiously naggy people are about carefulness during pregnancy (The Pessimist's Cookbook: Logical Fallacy) so I won't rant more here. :D Even though they say implantation bleeding is rare, I also had it, both with Beiron and now with Kebab. I had a small but distinct bleed something like 3 or 4 days before I expected AF, and then it stopped. There's no reason you can't be pregnant on your first cycle of trying! Since it's a digital process (each month you're either pregnant or you're not, and then you start over!) you're just as likely to get pregnant this cycle as any other. Remember that!

Diana -- does this mean that your IVF cycle starts now? What is it that you're sniffing, btw?

Beata -- well, I'm not quite down to 6 weeks left just yet. :) There's a little more than 8 weeks left until my due date, and so it might be as much as 10 and a half weeks until I meet bubs! Wah! :( On the upside I had another good weekend as far as pain and such goes. I shopped, cleaned, painted furniture in the nursery. It's work that my body is allergic to! So I'm counting down the 5 weeks until maternity leave and hoping life will be "breezy" after that, haha.

Helen -- glad to hear of the good scan and the good cervix! If your OB says you don't need another scan, you can always say "But can I have one anyway?" The worst he can do is say no. I was so happy to have the extra scan at 30 weeks even though I knew they thought everything was fine. Those little peeks inside keep us sane.

And Jo as well -- what great cervixes (cervii? cervices?) we have going on in here. :D It's great that you get that result even after being a bit more active.

Rozzie -- cloth nappies, eh? I've been pondering it. Don't know if I have the strength, though, hah. With some things I've decided that we'll start with this baby first and then get creative and modern etc. with the next... Can we see pics of your nursery when it's done? I'm working little by little on ours, but after I'm done painting this one last piece of furniture all the big bits will be in place.

I have the midwife after lunch today, but that's just all routine stuff now. Although this time she has to weigh me, and I'm not looking forward to that! :rolleyes:

Jo your cervix is fabulous :clap: I also had a chuckle at the thought of your little girl's girly bits up on a big screen at her 21st.

Helen, YAY for a fabulous cervix as well :clap: You two are my poster girls and it brings me much comfort and hope for when my cervix has to be stitched up.

Tildy, the spray is to suppress my own natural hormones for a more controlled environment and to ensure I don't ovulate on my own before egg collection - particularly because my cycles are so unpredictable. I sniff twice a day at 12 hour intervals. I have a BT on Friday to ensure my hormones are "down regulated" and if so, I can start follicle stimulating hormone injections to grow numerous follicles. I love reading your blogs BTW. Always a great read and full of witty, logical thoughts. Also look forward to seeing the photos of the nursery, it sounds like so much fun.

Rozzie, how exciting to set the bassinet up. I long for the day. I can also understand your hesitation to finish the cross stitch now but perhaps one day... Taking leave now sounds very tempting! I it were me and I felt ok, I would try to take the least amount of work off as possible before the arrival as I think time would just draaaaaag on. Afterwards however means more time with little one!

Teagz, ignore everyone that has nothing useful to say. You are doing your best to be in perfect health for your next pregnancy and you should be commended.

Laney :hug:

Beata :hug:

:grouphug: everyone.

Just thought I'd quickly drop in and write a selfish post ^^;
We got our new kitchen put in today, it's oh so purdy! I think I may be in love :lol:
Had an appt with the gynocologist that helped with Jayvan's delivery for a discussion about the test results... The only thing I can remember is that she said it was absolutely ok for us to be TTC again :rolleyes: Selective hearing much?
She sent DF and I off to check we have normal chromosones as a one last option to rule out, although she thinks we'll be fine. She basically confirmed in person they have no idea what happened, but there are lot of "it could have been this's"
I have the notes of the test. They're kind of hard to read (emotion and smarts wise)
Aaand, only 5.5 day's til :noaf:

:grouphug:

Hope the heat isn't getting to everyone! xx

hi girls.
I'm still around just.
looks like ill be delivering next week sometime, my little girl wants out. had steroid shot today and will have another tomorrow afternoon. then its just waiting to see when they want me in there for delivery.

at least I'm further on than when my youngest daughter was born. she was 645gms at 26.5weeks.
I'm now 760 gms by measurement which is slightly small but I'm 27.4 weeks ATM

so I'm wishing you all good luck. I'm hoping to be back on tomorrow but we will see.


love to all cindee...

Hi Ladies,
I just got back from the high risk doctor, very long day. Way too much waiting around for appts. The scan took over an hour. Everything looks good right now. He is still big for dates! It has been a very emotional day, very difficult for me to go back to the hospital. It is nice to talk to a doctor that really understands how hard of a time I have been having. He told me that he has had a few women that have asked him "So when is this baby going to die?" The question that is on my mind everyday.

Cindee, I will be thinking of you. Please let us know how your bub is doing.

Hi Girls,

Cindee, I am praying for you that the bub is ok and that everything goes as smoothly as possible :pray:. you are always in my thoughts. I haven't been around for that long, but do you mind me asking why your other daughter was born at 26.5 weeks ? Is there anything they can do to stop the babies being born so early ? Big hugs hun, let us know how you're going, I have everything crossed for you :crossfingers:

Laney, I am so very glad the scan went OK. I can't even imagine how nerve wrecking it is for for all of the time. It must be comforting though to know that the high risk doctor knows how difficult it is for you, and he is there for you. I hope that your bub continues to grow nice and big and strong, I pray for a good outcome for you :pray:

Teagz, at least you've got the green light to TTC, that must be a good feeling. If you don't understand anything on the report hun ask the doc, they'll explain to you in simple terminology. Although, I have a feeling they'll still say 'not sure what went wrong, could be this or that.' :wall:Agrrrrrr.
On a more positive note, how are your symptoms going ????? Are your bb sore ?????
Praying :noaf: for you, fingers and toes crossed for you hun :pray:

Sending all you ladies big hugs today :grouphug:, thinking of you all.

Lots of love
Beata xxx

Good luck Cindee with your little ones arrival. That is great that you are so close to 28 weeks now and that they have time to get the steroids on board. I hope your little girls stay in hospital won't be too long or traumatic for you all x

Laney - GREAT news about your scan results!!! :dance: And wow, what a supportive doctor. Must be hard for the doctors to hear women asking when their babies are going to die, or having to tell someone that sort of news but it sounds like he is the sort of doctor you would want in that situation, unlike some of the others that you hear about!

Teagz - am hoping for no AF for you! Not long now till you know one way or the other and I have my fingers crossed for you.

Better go and have a shower. I just got out of bed...very lazy :redface: I am off to get a wax today, first time in about 3 or 4 months so that will be interesting! I can't even see my bikini line anymore but I know it is a mess so the girl is in for some fun there :lol:

Hugs to all x

Hi girls,

Sorry I have been MIA. I have been lurking and checking on you all.

I am totally buggered today. Decided to take the day off from work. This hot Adelaide weather has gotten to me. I have had enough!!!! thinking of moving to Tassie (only kidding) to get away from it.

We have received our cot and change table and am now just waiting on pram and carseat. Luckily we ordered so far in advance as there is a delay!!!

Lily is kicking away at the moment, though I do have days I don't feel her as much (bloody anterior placenta) which of course I go into panic mode and start to stress.

Started pregnancy aqua classes, which is really good. Meeting lots of girls where I live who are pregnant as well.

I have also booked my maternity leave at work. I had a panic attack yesterday when the advert went out advertising my job. Still scared things are going to go wrong.

Jo - Yippee for a great cervix and I am so glad everything is going well.

Rozzie - Good girl for setting up nursery. It is a big step isnt it??? I must admit, when I got the phone call to say that the cot and change-table was ready, I had a freak out session.

Diana - :crossfingers: for a good IVF cycle. How is everything going and how are you feeling???

Tildy - Glad everything is going so well. How was your weight?? he he he

Teagz - :crossfingers: for NO AF. Glad your appointment with gynocologist went well, but it must be so frustrating to not having any answers.

Lan - Thinking of you, good on you for tempting again. I felt that it gave me some sort of control.

Cindee - I will be thinking of you and hoping all goes well. I will be praying for you and your little one.

Laney - So glad everything is going well - Fingers crossed that the next couple of months goes just as well.

Beata - I know what you mean about the hot weather. I am over it!! So glad your scar is healing well and you are on the road to recover.

Jo76 & Katie - Hope all is well and thinking of you both.

Helen - Yippee for a great scan - I will be thinking of you over the next week.

xxx Sue xxx

Cindee, everything is crossed and am praying for you that all goes well :pray:

Laney, YAY for a great scan :dance: Made me very emotional to think women think they need to ask that question. My heart really goes out to them.

Teagz, glad to hear your gyno said you can safely TTC again, but sorry you still didn't get the answers you were looking for. Good luck testing later this week?

Jo, enjoy your de-hairing session. Bet you will feel so good once it's done :lol: So can you and DH participate in any naughty business or is it still forbidden?

Hi Sue! Have missed you around here. Glad you are doing well and thanks for the good wishes. I am not nervous at all but have a horrible cold atm so feeling down about everything atm. Can't wait to start my injections so I feel I'm actually doing something substantial. All this sniffing at the moment is driving me mad. Enjoy your day off relaxing.

Hi Beata, hope you're doing ok and not going to stir crazy at home.

A big to everyone else x

cindee, fingerscrossed that little bub holds on at least another 2 weeks. I would be nice to make it to at least 30. I'll be thinking of you, let us know how everything goes.

Laney, good news about the scan!! Sounds like your growing a nice big strong bubby in there :)

Beata, I have an appointment with my normal Dr today which is good as we read the results from the gyno last night and I'm able to ask him everything I need to know today. My Gyno pretty much said what you said "We're not sure what happened.. it could have been a number of things". I'm making my peace with it now, there isn't much else I can do.
No sore BB :( I did get a 2 minute rush of "omg I'm going to be sick" yesterday morning, but I'm not sure whether that was from embarrassment as my car had broke down in the middle of a busy petrol station yesterday morning or hormones XD
The spotting I had on monday has stopped now though. So... Only 5 more days!

AngelLukesmum, Good luck with the wax ;) And so you should get a sleep in!! Not lazy at all.. I would if I could. Actually I did this morning and I was terribly late for work... Damn day light savings!

Sue, I feel so sorry for you girls in SA atm! Poor things, I hope it cools down shortly! How exciting about your cot and change table! You can start putting everything together when you start your leave ;)

DD, I sympathise with you! I have a cold atm as well. Almost 2 weeks running now! I had the biggest coughing fit last night, and DF slept through the whole lot!! Good to know he won't be sleep deprived once he returns to work after we have a bub ha!

AFM, I'm wishing my 5 days away til :noaf: Another Dr's appt today. Nothing exciting happening here atm. I've been feeling a little more content lately, although I've become a complete hermet. Other than seeing family I can't be bothered with anyone else.. How horrible am I?

Hi everyone

I know I have been absent for a few days but I don't have much to report and I have been under a lot of stress at work.

I am so over having to deal with staff issues and lazy people who don't even want to be there!!

Just want you all to know I think of you all the time and I have been checking posts but I just haven't had the energy to reply or give you all the time you deserve. I am so sorry.

I will get back on track soon.

Love you all and sending all the best wishes I can muster.

Theresa xxx

Hi all - had to pop by to wish Cindee all the best for next week. I hope all goes well and your wee little bub is delivered happy and healthy. I will be praying for you this week as I am sure it must be nerve wracking.

Laney - so glad the scan went well and that you had a supportive and compassionate doctor. I think your little bub is a fighter so try to stay positive. I will be praying for you as well as I know these coming weeks will be very stressful and emotional. The milestones are so hard. :hug:

Hi to everyone. I hope you are all doing well and good luck with TTC. We need some more BFPs!!! Sending loads of baby dust your way.

Anna is doing really well and has been giggling for a few weeks now. She is very social and loves meeting people and giving everyone big smiles. I have been told on many occasions that she is a big flirt! She truly is a blessing and I am reminded of this daily when she looks at me and smiles.

I've just been counting days from when I had my D&C and my last AF. From the day of my D&C to the first day of my AF is 25 Day's. Today I'm on day 24.
How accurate would the "cycle" after my D&C be, do you think? Should I assume I have a 25 day cycle or just stick to assuming it will be a 28 day cycle? I guess there isn't really anything to say what's what with these things really, is there?
In case you haven't noticed I'm getting rather impatient... I don't know how you girls did it, especially Zacharys Mum, I don't think I saw you complain once about the wait til you got to test!

Hi Girls,

Teagz, how did you go yesterday at the doc's?? Did you find out anything more? How are you symptoms going???? Not long to test now! No AF for this girl!!!

Cindee, thinking of you and praying everything goes well for you and bub :pray:

Theresa, so nice to hear from you hun!!! Sorry things at work are so stressful, but it's the last thing you need! Take it easy hun, hope you're feeling OK otherwise, and the bub is doing nicely...:D

Katie, how exciting it must be to see all the little changes in Anna, she sounds such a happy little girl! Have you posted any new photos of her ?

Laney, you're always in my thoughts and prayers, I am sending you lots of strength and big hugs :hug:.

Diana, when are you injecting hun? I think you said later this week...good luck hun, I know you'll be just fine. Sending you big hugs :hug:

Jo, how did your wax go? Hope it wasn't all that painful, although it's nice to have it done hey??

Sue, lots happening at your end, it must be pretty exciting! (and a little bit scary, no doubt). Those aqua classes sound so good, I planned to do them too, it will have to be next time! Sound like you've got most things now for Lily, look at you go! Very happy and excited for you hun, look after yourself :D

Tildy I'm so sorry hun for getting your dates wrong!!! I thought I'd read that you had 5 weeks to go, but that was obviously till maternity leave, hellooooooo!!! Silly me....how are things with you hun? Are they still looking after you????

Lan sweetie, how are you going ??????

Rozzie, woo hoo for 3 weeks until maternity leave !!! you must be very excited ! Hun, how long was your scar like a swollen bump after your c/s ?? It's been almost 3 weeks since my op, and although my swelling has gone down a bit, it's still there and it still feels a little bit painful there and a little bit numb....It looks like I have two pot bellies now :redface:

BTW, is anyone testing soon ???????? I feel like I've fallen behind a bit.......

Big hello to Dee, Paula, Jo76 & Megan, how are you doing lovely ladies ????

Love & big hugs
Beata xxx

Beata, I love reading your posts! You're always so enthusiastic haha!
And I completely forgot to update on my Dr's appt..
They couldn't really tell me much. There were a lot of "it could have been this's" but nothing definate. So, Officially, it's a mystery.
I felt very optimistic after I had seen my normal Dr yesterday though. He is basically on standby for when I get my next BFP, he's going to book me in straight away from a dating ultrasound and then from there I'll be sent to Perth for all our other ultrasound's as their technology is waaaay better than it is here (considering it's all of 2 hours away.. jeez!) He's picked three Dr's out for us to choose from to do the ultrasounds etc in Perth (one is an Ob, Gyno and Ultra tech all in one which I quite like!) and he's basically made me feel like I'm his only patient, when he probably has 100's.
It all felt very reassuring, like being medically pampered, it's just a pitty it takes something to go wrong to warrent this kind of treatment.

Teagz, very happy with the news that you'll get top notch care. So you should and you deserve it hun!! It's so good when the doc is nice and caring and gives you 100% isn't it?? My OB is like that too, so that's very comforting to me. He said he'll be extra vigillent now that I had a 'major' complication with my pregnancy. Thank goodness, as I reckon I'll be a walking mess....
Any more signs yet??? ie sore bb, fainting, short of breath (dunno if that's a pregnancy symptom, but it sounded good ha ha). You've got me on the edge of my seat!!! :pray: for :noaf: for you sweet!!!

Beata, that's good! It's good there are some good ones out there, I've heard some shockers.
How long will it take for your scar to heel before you can start TTC again?
I have nooo sore BB, or nausea or faintness or anything... But! I have no AF symptons either :dunno: Time will tell! Only 3 more days :)

Teagz, i just lost my whole post!!! grrrrrrrrr. We definitely need another server....I was just saying that i'm keeping my fingers crossed for you in 3 days :crossfingers:....you never know you could be our very next BFP!!!!!!! what are you normal symptoms of AF??? Mine are sore BB for a whole week before it arrives (although i haven't had sore BB since I had Josh, very strange...) and usually a headache for a couple of days before.
My scar is healing OK, still a little tender there and a little 'hump' which i call my second pot belly. I go and see my FS/OB/Gynie (all rolled into one) on 27/2 to have some blood tests done to get the ball rolling for my transfer hopefully in May. He said it takes 3 months for the uterus to heal properly.