Trying to Conceive after Stillbirth/Recurrent Miscarriage/Late Loss

ROLF, Tam, Poor DS XD
I was telling Df about it and he asked if he could see it, I said no because I doubt that he'd ever be interested in sex again :p But I thought it was very very interesting, I learnt alot that's for sure.

I clicked on "Community" and then "Pictures and Albums," and got a message about how I was trying to edit someone else's post or access administrative features that I'm not priveleged to, heh. Where do you guys post your u/s pics when you put them up? Anyone know if the photo albums part of BellyBelly is only for paid members or something? Except it's weird if I can't look at pictures now either, hmm.

Hi everyone. OK, today is CD1... Actually spotting began yesterday, does that count as day 1 or is the first day of proper red day 1? Oh well, I'm going to call today CD 1 since it's the 1st and I'll remember better.

Anyway, this month I'm going to make a 100% effort and I need you all to totally discipline me into it. While reflecting (and feeling sorry for myself) I noticed that I started every cycle enthusiastically but spiral downwards towards the crucial O time. I also never truly believe that I'll conceive and have rarely ever pictured myself with a living baby.

Not this cycle! I need positive vibes all round so don't indulge me when I started my tanties again. Tell me to wake up to myself and focus on the end result. Diana, you're local, please drive over slap me if I start carrying on.

Yay!

Anyway, enough about me, I'm going to go back and read your posts properly now.

Megan, yeah that horoscope was really good for us dragons, in babies, health and wealth. It did say to be careful of jealous people and to be "humble". What CD are you now?

Tildy, I've actually posted a pict but for the life of me I can't figure how. When you look at your own post do you see a Gallery under the number of posts on the top right hand corner? I think that's how I got in.

Rozzie, so happy for your scan result. I am so excited that you're only a matter of weeks away from holding Edward's little brother/sis. I very interested in all the organic baby stuff you're buying and will ask you when and where as soon as I have someone to buy for.

Helen, glad the little one is finally kicking away. About time!

Laney, will focus very hard on sending positive vibes to you for your upcoming scan. Can we breath easy after this one?

Cindee, hope little one holds on till at least 28wks - that's when your last child was born, wasn't it?

Oh goodness, who else. Sue! What's new in the world of Lily? All well?

Katie, those pics of you and Anna lying on the bed and laughing together are priceless. I wish and wish and wish that will be me next year.

Jo76, so now that the horoscopes say we're good, will you be TTC-ing with me this month? Only kidding, you do what's right for you. About your tarot card reading, I've also heard that the death card means the end of something, not specifically death itself. I've only had a reading once and think I also got a death card. No one died but I let go of a massive crush on a nasty boy that I had then met DH 3mths later :lol:

Diana, I'm taking this Fri and the following Mon off work. Want to wag work and hang out :-) Want to go and get our cards read??? What about you, Megan. You're in Sydney too, right?

Beata, you are a brave and patient woman. May the force of babydom be with you when you can start TTC-ing :pray:

My dear positive Paula, does it feel real yet? You have to help me find my good vibrations like you!

Teagez, I got no answers for Hamish's death either. It does help when you can accept that because no one can ever answer why. And what CD are you now?

Jo (Luke's mum), hope you're allowed a bit more mobility now that your cervix is behaving. Third trimester here you come!

Oh, and blow being cool and relaxed. I'm starting temping again - http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/19e9cf

Phew! That covers everyone, I think. Must go grocery shopping now.


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Lan, I'm CD21 today. We went like rabbits from CD9 to CD19 XD
I have had thrush and a horrible cold now in between things so I'm not really expecting much. My Poor body's crashing on me a bit atm!
And don't worry we'll turn you into a minx during O in no time *notes down day Lans CD1* ;)

Tildy, there is an issue with the picture gallery right now. I tried to get on it too because I have posted a bunch of pictures of our ultrasounds. There is a short cut in a forum about the photo gallery issues. I found it one day, took a while. Sorry, I can't remember where or how right now. I will give it a longer look. It hasn't been working for over a week now.

Hi Ladies,
Lan, there really isn't a point that we will be able to relax. The growth issues can start at any time. Our bub will be watched and measured often until he is here. It would be a little relaxing to me if we could grow him to a good weight and long enough that he could come out healthy even if he is a little early. There is still a good chance that he will be taken out early.

Jo, I know that there really isn't anything that I can say to help you through this difficult time. Just know that I am here if you ever need to chat.

Rozzie, I really wish that I could be as positive about my pregnancy as you are. I know that the clexane has worked at least a bit. He has grown better and kicked more than Shelby or Parker were ever able to.

Katie, I have a 30 minute DVD of Parker at 12 weeks. I have not been able to watch it. I know that I will want to someday.

Tildy, I will see the doctor on Tuesday. He will tell my the results of the scan. I just hate the wait between the two appts.

Tildy, I found the picture gallery. There is a link that you have to use until the menu bar is fixed. Go to the Help forum, gallery tips, link to gallery.
https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums/gallery/index.php

Lan, it's so good to hear from you hun. You're posts always make me laugh ! I've been told CD1 is your 'red' normal flow day, not the spotting that comes just before it. When I did my first cycle of IVF I was supposed to inject myself on the 3rd day of my cycle, and I remember the nurse said the CD1 is the proper bleed day not a spotting day.
I like you plan!!! I know you'll get there hun, don't think you'll never conceive as you're putting negative vibes out there and you'll scare the baby away ! lol

Girls, sorry I have been lurking more than anything lately, feel really flat after the heat wave, have had a migrane for 3 days running....yuck. Will post some personals later.

Big hugs to everyone

Love
Beata xxx

Teagz, that link is very interesting. I have actually always wondered what it looked like in there so thanks for the enlightment. Good luck for a BFP this month, not long now until you can test.

Beata, how are you feeling? Thanks for the info you sent me, it helped a little. When will you go back to work?

Lan, the witch arrived for me too yesterday so I am on CD2 as well. We will definitely be partners in labour if we both get our BFPs this month. Enjoy your extra long weekend. Anything planned? I would love to take a day off and hang out with you but will need to keep them up my sleeve for the IVF days I need to take off. I am glad you are back in the TTC game and I am armed and ready if I need to come and slap you :lol:

Rozzie, can't believe you potentially have only 6 weeks to go. How exciting. I'm glad you have a birth plan in place now so lets start counting down! Enjoy all the shopping and thanks for sharing your own feelings about how you felt with your sister and SIL pg. My reaction makes so much more sense now seeing that most of you all went through similar emotions.

Tildy, thanks for your support, you alway word things so well. Hope you and Kebab are doing well. Countdown is on for you too!

Jo, hope your scan goes well today and your cervix is still very well behaved. Can't wait to hear how it went :pray:

Laney, are you scanning today as well?

How are all our other pregnant mammas going?

Afm - the witch finally arrived yesterday on day 40 but I took the provera tablets to bring on a period so who knows when she would have shown up without them. Means I can definitely go ahead with my treatment now so I'm still sniffing away and hoping to start the injections at the end of the week.

Another freaky due date if I fall pg this month - same as Sebastian's. Oh please Dear God let it be, please please please :pray: :pray: :pray: :pray: :pray: :pray:

Hope everyone else is doing well.

Love Diana

Hi Girls,

Diana, hooray for AF ! Normally I'd say, damn that AF, but in your case that's good news as you can soon start your treatment. I'm probably the only person in the whole universe who is actually excited about my next IVF cycle, as I keep thinking it worked a treat last time and it gave me Joshua. I'm counting weeks until I'm OK to go again. I am keeping my fingers and toes crossed for you for a BFP really soon :pray:

Dee, what did you end up doing on your due date ? I hope it was a nice day for you, but I know it would have been a very sad one as well. Big hugs hun :hug:

Jo76, thinking of you this week as the kids are off to school again!! Must be a little bit sad but also a little relief too!

Jo, good luck on your scan today, I hope all is well :pray:

Laney, sending you lots of positive vibes and lots of strenght to get you through your pregnancy. I'm always crossing my fingers for you that all is well and that the bub is growing well :pray:

Katie, when you said about watching the U/S DVD, I asked myself when I think I will be able to watch Joshua's DVD. I have two, one from his 12 week scan and the most recent one from the 20 week scan, but I just cannot bring myself to watching it yet. I don't think there are enough tissue boxes at home!

Cindee, when is your scan hun? Hope bub is nice and happy in your belly, and is not in a hurry to arrive! :pray:

Helen, how exciting for your cousin to get her BFP!! Now you can call each other and talk babies!!! How is everyhing with you?

Rozzie & Tildy, can't believe in 5 and 6 weeks you'll have your bubs! That is just awesome, you have done so well girls :p

Sue, we don't hear from you so much there days!! How far have you got to go??? Have you bought any new furniture/clothes/toys for your new bub???

Theresa, I hope you're going OK hun, you've also been very quiet...are you still tired and have you got m/s?

Teagz, you really do make me laugh :rofl:!!! This time it was about going for it like two little rabbits, that's a picture I find hard to get rid out of my head now, lol !!

Lan, how are you feeling this week?? Do you need a kick up your bum to think those positive thoughts?? I can be on the next plane if you need me to give you a wee gentle slap, LOL

Katie, how is Anna doing? Has she done something new lately? Big hugs hun.

Well, I hope I've covered everyone (sorry if I've forgotten anyone!!). AFM, the headache is finally gone, thank goodness, the heat was driving me up the wall. Yesterday and today will be very muggy, I hate sticky muggy as well, when does it end??? Still have 4 weeks off, starting to get bored a little, have been reading a few good books lately (maybe that's partly the reason for my migranes???, who knows..). The scar is healing well, yesterday I started putting on vitamin E oil on it to minimise the scar. The actual cut is still raised (swollen) & sore to the touch but I think the nerve endings are slowly coming back....Joshua's due date is next week on Thursday, I can't believe how quickly the time has gone...

Love and huge hugs to all my beautiful friends
Beata xxx

Lan, I have just realised you'll be able to make special use of Valentines Day during your TTC month! It may take the pressure of it a bit if you just went all out for the V-Day weekend and make it a truely romantic one to remember! ;)

DD, I'll be praying for you this cycle as well! I've picked up on a nasty habbit of wishing on the time 11.11 lately :redface: I'll put one in for you as well to keep that witch away! :)

Jo, I hate the smoking thing as well. :wall: And drinking. And people that quit smoking their entire pregnancy but then start back up again once bub is born... You can handle 9 months without it why not go the whole hog?!

My most recent pet hate is people who critisise a Hypochondriac. A friend of mine colours my hair for me, just blonde foils, when I asked her to make sure it didn't touch my scalp she called me a Hypochondriac. I'm not getting her to do it anymore. I don't think I should feel guilty and stupid about doing everything I can to bring a live baby into our life, whether it be an old wives tail or not. And I know having a fit about haircolour is probably a bit lame but, I feel paranoid about almost anything that goes into my body at the moment.
One week until AF is meant to be due! :pray: it doesnt come. Yesterday I noticed flecs of blood (like grains of sand) after I went to the loo a couple of times, so I'm not holding my breath, but I'm still crossing my fingers!

Beata, Sorry if I grossed you out ><;; It was funny (not really haha funny, more like luck funny) because we started at day 9 and went all the way through to day 13ish, the DF thought we should wait for our test results to come back before we try as he didn't want it coming back as a genetic problem, (we've had alot of indecisive moments between us the last couple of months) so we stopped, Dr's called on CD15 (which is when I was ovulating) and said that they couldn't find anything so we picked up where we left off :p
But, again, sorry for grossing you out! I actual like having somewhere to talk about our sexual patterns while we TTC, though. The only other person I know who has been through what I have is my mum, who had a still born bub and lost another at 16 weeks, but I just don't feel right about talking to her about my sex life, as much as I adore and get on with her!
I'm glad your headache is gone. And poo to the weather. It's 38 degree's here today, yuck! I'll be thinking of you next thursday as well :) Time does fly, Jayvan would have been due in 3 months and 2 weeks today.

Hey Teagz, I think that's a good little sign as it might be an implantation bleed!!! I'll keep my fingers and toes crossed for you this cycle, let's hope it's the one!!!!!
And I don't blame you for doing everything in your power to have a healthy body in preparation for your bub, good girl! Let it be a sticky one in there, please !!!!!!! :pray:

Hi everyone, well back from my scan and....it was GREAT!! Cervix hasn't changed in a month and bubba looks good, I had to fight back the tears as I don't know how I have got through this last couple of weeks, every little thing has sent me into a bit of a tail spin of worry and seeing that gorgeous little bambino was just so overwhelming! Off to the OB tomorrow, I am sure he will probably say I don't need another scan until 32ish wks to check if my placenta has moved up more, but I don't think I could mentally cope with that! I feel so relieved but at the same time we are just over a week away from when we lost Cooper so still very nervy. Must go had visitor all week and now another one coming possibly tomorrow and I have so much work to catch up on, yuk.

Teagz, you silly sausage, you didn't gross me out at all!!!! You just made me laugh as I kept seeing these two little bunnies going for gold!!!! And that's exactly what you should have done, cos that's the best time to do the deed....

Helen, woo hoo for a good scan!!! Very happy for your hun :clap:

Helen, woot for a good scan! Well done! :)

Beata, I hope it is implantation :pray: I'm finding it really hard to fathom that I could possible be pregnant on the very first shot. So far though I have two of the symptons I had with Jayvan, I've all of a sudden become a bottomless pitt over the last couple of days (which then turns into horrible horrible nausea as we go along!) and my skin has gone to complete crapola! And every morning when I wake up I give my boobs a bit of a poke to see if they're starting to get sore, cos that's the next thing to go!
Mind you though it's probably my body going into wishful thinking mode XD It would be a little early for symptoms now, surely...

Hi all you beautiful ladies :)

Well my scan, like Helens, went perfectly. My cervix has barely changed in the last fortnight and that is after lifting my rest a bit so that is a relief. We got to see bubs and we even got to see her face again in 4D before she moved so we were lucky. We also got a picture of her girly bits in 4D - one for the 21st :lol:
The sonographer thinks I might need 1 more scan at 30 weeks so I have booked in but I see my ob on Friday so will see what he wants to do. It wouldn't surprise me if he is happy to leave things as is now. Whatever!

Diana, it is funny when you are actually happy to see AF show her face. Must be a relief though as now you can get going on the next phase of the journey. I have everything crossed for you hun that it doesn't take you long to get that BFP.

Beata - I am so happy to hear you are healing so well. Enjoy your remaining time off work as before you know it you will be back and wishing not to be!

Hi to everyone else, sorry gotta go. Thinking of you all x

Jo, so happy everything went well at your scan today, you must be a very good girl and resting heaps!! Ha ha for the rude bits on the screen! How funny is that...definitely a great 21st pic! Stay strong and keep going the way you're going, and all will be good :dance:

Teagz, great signs so far! And never say never to the first go to be the one!!!!! Keep me updated on your little signs, and stay positive, it's not wishful thinking!! :pray:

Hi ladies!

Lots to catch up on. Firstly, Lan, I'm so glad to hear from and I'm really glad you have decided to TTC again. I will definitely prod you if I think you're falling into uncertaintly too. When you're ready I'll fill you in on all the organic/enviro research I've done. I'm trying hard to be responsible, have not bought much new, trying to get a lot of second hand stuff, and going to try the modern cloth nappy road. We'll see how I go!

Beata, glad you're healing up well. I had that numb scar feeling after the birth and it does go away thankfully, cause it's a bit freaky.

Diana, how exciting, you're starting your IVF cycle!! woohoo!!!

Jo, glad your scan went well and cervix is behaving well.

Helen, ditto! I think though that the lead up to being at the point in the pregnancy where you lost Cooper is probably worse than the actual day, at least it was for me. I hope time passes quickly for you and bubs give you lots of jabs!! You're not finding out the sex, or have I missed a post?

Teagz, I had implantation bleeding both times, this time on CD 8 (BFP on CD10). I don't remember what stage it was first time as we had been told to go on IVF and had given up so I wasn't paying attention. You can get pregnant first cycle, Katie and I did (and probably others I've forgotten), in fact after pregnancy you seem to be fertile... what was nature thinking with that?? Also ignore people with that hypochondriac-type comments... I think that's just rude.

Jo, I think you're a saint to be around your SIL smoking... if it were me I'd have probably chucked a tanty and caused a family incident. We all understand how you feel though.

Laney, I hope your baby can stay in there till full term, but if the worst comes to pass you don't have very long till bub has an excellent chance of being perfectly healthy if born. I'm sure you know this already though! I know a girl on a forum who just had a baby girl at 27 weeks and she's doing really well, should have no problems in the future at all.

As for me, the folks came down for a late-notice visit to bring the bassinet as I won't see them again before the birth. Yesterday Mum, DH and I rearranged the nursery (which involved taking apart and reassembling a bed so it fit in a different part of the room) and put up a dado of Barnaby Button Bear, it's so cute :) so the nursery is just about ready. It's very scary to commit like that but I'm glad I've taken the plunge. I was doing a lovely cross-stitch for the nursery when I was pregnant with Edward and Mum asked me if I was going to finish it, and I said I'm not a superstitious person but I just can't quite bring myself to do it... it's funny I'm like that with all sorts of things... I won't put the baby on a childcare waiting list until it's born like I did last time, won't tell everyone I know etc. Weird.

I worked out today I had enough leave to stop work tomorrow till my maternity leave starts in 3 weeks, then have enough to cover the 6 weeks of annual leave I applied for over Christmas and Jan (so I get the free pulic hols hehehe). Very tempting.

Love Rozzie