OMG! A very feint BFP for me! Very feint but DH sees it too, so I am not imagining it! Will do another in the morning. I am scared, excited, nervous & ecstatic all at once.
Will keep you posted for sure..... sorry for the personal post I just cannot think straight atm!!!!!
OMG Aries!!! I just logged on and saw your post!!!! I am so excited for you hun, a second line is a second line, no matter how faint! I think you have a BFP sweetheart!
Will start my celebratory little dance now Congratulations hunni!!!!!
Our very next BFP! Told you July was going to be a good month!!!!!! Bring it on I say!!!!!
I know hun, I still think I'm going to wake up from mine! lol. Take it easy hunni, your head is going to spin for a few days but you have a BFP!!! You deserve it so much, so enjoy every minute of it. Wishing you a long & boring & uneventhful 9 months!
Keep spreading that baby dust round girls!
And lots of special AF dust to Cheryl to get your cycles moving too
AFM, Fertility friend thinks I already ovulated on day 10 this cycle. I used my maybe baby for the first time and did get ferning which has now gone. And I had EWCM which has also now gone. So maybe it's right. Not much of a temp rise really though. Lucky we BDed once... On that day though so might be too late.
I wouldn't be surprised if FF is wrong anyway. It was day 15 last month and 16 the month before that. Better keep up the BDing just in case If DH ever gets home from footy training!
Had a very down day yesterday. My friend from work had her baby boy a few days ago and yesterday she put his photos on facebook. He looks so like Luca, except he is a beautiful pink alive colour. It was one of those things out of the blue that I would not have thought would effect me so much. Also spent time with two friends with Luca aged babies. Sigh.
Yay again Aires, let us know how it goes tomorrow.
Bec, I'm sending you a big hug darling I think there will always be little moments when we remember our beautiful angels. Our angels are never far away .
Big hugs hun and I pray you've caught that sticky eggie!
Hi darling, leave the testing until sunday and use Early Response HPT as this test is very sensitive and it picks up HCG up to 6 days before AF is due. GL sweetie I have everything crossed for you
Aries - Bec is right - don't give up hope. Did you use a different pg test from the first one? They do have different sensitivity levels. If you can hang out until Sunday morning, maybe test then. Try to stay positive but I know where you are at at the moment. Sending you lots of
Bec - thanks for thinking of me. No AF yet Have just picked up another set of herbs, different formula to use through AF until O. Which is great, now if only that would happen Anyway, trying to stay positive, not dwell on it too much and keep being healthy and exercising. Makes me sound like I'm a saint, which I definitely am NOT
Megan, Beata and Teagz - hope your little bundles are growing nicely and not causing too many nasty symptoms for you all.
to Samcougar and ALM. Hope you have a nice relaxing weekend planned.
AFM, I have a uni assignment to write to be submitted before we go overseas in 2 weeks, so I have this weekend and next weekend to write and submit it. I am trying very hard to not be obsessive with it and just do enough to get me a pass. I think anything more would be great, but I just want to feel like I have accomplished something this year which is why I have gone back to study, even though the uni said I could have another leave of absence on compassionate grounds.
DH and I went out for dinner tonight. He hasn't been doing so well recently and had a very down day during the week. He finally told me how he is feeling and why. He can see that I am getting better, getting back into exercise, losing weight, working full time and studying again, so he can finally feel like he doesn't have to be strong for me, so consequently he is starting to turn in on himself and think about all that has happened these past 4 months or so. I see myself in him now where I was a few months ago - stressed, grieving and tired, to the point of exhaustion. He has negotiated with his boss to work only a few days over the next 2 weeks so that he can have some time to look after himself and hopefully that time together with our 5 weeks overseas will see him feeling better soon. It is amazing that he is able to see all of this himself and not fall into a crumpled mess. He is such a beautiful person it hurts me to see him so upset, but I am sure he will come through it in his own time, just as I did.
Anyway, to everyone. Hope you all have a great weekend.
Take care
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Cheryl, big hugs for your hubby I know how awful my DF felt after our loss, but he wouldn't let me see it as he was trying to be strong for the both of us. Our beautiful, stong men, they they are so worried for us yet they don't let us be there for them! I really hope you have the greatest time o/s on your holiday, I think it will be so good for the both of you. Relax and anjoy it hun, it will give you a much needed boost.
BTW, what are you studying at uni? I have thought of going back myself, I'd love to study psychology.
Sending you lovely 'AF' vibes, hope it's not too far away!
Aries, hope 'AF' is staying away hun, fingers and toes crossed hunni!
Bec, hope you're feeling a bit better hun. Remember to stay positive and I hope a BFP visits you very soon!
Megan, how are you going hun? When is your scan? Big hugs hun xx
Samcougar, Teagz & Jo ladies, I hope you're going well.
Sending lots of & to all my beautiful girls TTC, I hope we'll see some nice BFPs in here soon!!!
AFM, I'm off to the Dandenongs tonight, looking forward to spending some romantic time with DF.
I'm doing a Masters of science & tech in aviation. It is very much work related but it does interest me. I would love to do some uni study in acupuncture and chinese herbal medicine but since I don't live in Sydney or Melbourne and therefore can't do one of the uni courses there, it's not much point as I wouldn't be accredited by AACMA who are the leading industry body. But that may change once a registration board is implemented from 1st July 2012. So I will wait on that one for a bit and try to finish my Masters instead.
Hope you and DF have a lovely weekend in the Dandenongs!
Thanks for your thoughts, I am pretty sure that AF is on her way.......... I am having a crappy afternoon.
My niece has spent the last two hours asking questions about Alex - where is your baby, how long til the baby comes out etc & although I am pleased she remembers and cares it has made me so sad. I just took a long walk and realised I would be two weeks away from maternity leave and 6 weeks away from his birth. I should be fat with a preggy belly!!! The emotions are so full on at the moment which is another reason I feel AF is on her way.
I want to be pregnant so much but I have to admit I am also very scared to do it all again. Maybe Im not ready yet....... I thought I was being so strong and dealing really well but in actual fact I am a mess.
Anyhow.......
Chez - Good luck with your assignment. Having your trip coming up must be a great motivation to get it done!
Hi to all - sorry not much motivation to do personals today, I hope you are all well and will check in later
Aires, that must have been so hard. It is only natural for you to have ups and downs in your grief, especially before your due date and when milestones like when you should be going on maternity leave come along. I was lucky in a way, only have to wait 5 weeks to my due date, but I still kept looking down at my tummy wondering where my baby had gone. Grief has been described like waves. Something triggers a stronger wave of grief and you feel worse again. But in time, even though you still have times of feeling worse, they become shorter (you feel better quicker) and further apart. Can you tell I love to read books LOL. Sometimes it helps, and nothing helps, all at the same time!
Cheryl, I'm busy studying this weekend too. I have a presentation at uni on monday. I am anxious about it though - some people who were in classes with me last year will be there and I'm sure someone will ask how my baby is and I'll have to tell them he died, right before I have to give my talk. Hope your assignment is coming together without too much trouble. I kept going at uni this year for a similar reason, though I partly regret it - it's been really hard. I'm looking forward to finishing my masters in October though!!
I think it's meant to be quite common for men to have their turn to grieve after we pull ourselves together a bit. This hasn't happened with my DH but maybe that's because I haven't pulled myself together! Is there a men's group he could go to? SIDS and Kids run them in melbourne - not sure about elsewhere. DH doesn't got but he comes to the perinatal loss ones with me and I think he finds it helpful. SIDS and Kids have a large booklet with stories men have written which might help him too - I'm sure they would send a copy. I think it's called men grieve too.
Beata, have fun in the Dandenongs! Should be lovely. You'll have to rug up though!
Bec, big hugs to you too. I've forgoten where you are in your cycle sorry.
Hi to anyone I missed.
AFM, still looking like I ovulated on day 10. But we're still BDing just in case. Would anyone be ale to check our my chart and tell me what you think? It's doing my head in. This cycle is just so different to usual and it worries me. 1c90ce Ovulation Charts
Bec, I don't know a thing about charts so i can't help you there but i'm sending you a huge hug hun, i'm praying you caught that little eggie.
Cheryl, Goodluck on your assignment hun, they can be so stressful. I'm sorry DH is feeling down, My DH did the same thing and i think it shocked him a bit. You just have to be there for him like he is for you, Bec is right, is there somewhere he can go to talk to help him out? My DH talked to a few friends who are fantastic, eventhough they haven't been through the same thing i think it helped that he could talk to someone else. I hope i made sense, I tend to babble alot!!
Aries, Huge hugs hunni, that must have been so hard, I don't know what else to say. Bec's right grief sneeks up on you like waves, you think they are gone and then you find yourself bowled over again. Keep looking for the light hun, it is there no matter how far away it seems.
Beata, I hope you had a lovely relaxing weekend.
so AFM I think im on about 12dpo, so i did a HPT and got a BFN which was what i was expecting, but it still made me feel a little sad. anyway maybe next time. So AF should be here on Tuesday and I am so sick of her I never ever had pain when i had her, but now it's that bad it's not funny! Sorry if it's TMI. and i have the flu which is making me feel grumpy!! oh well...
Aries - sending you lots of I understand completely where you are at at the moment. If only we could have the choice about choosing our lives as they are now or choosing to still be pg, counting down the days until we could hold our babies in our arms. Hopefully this experience makes us stronger, better people. It is little comfort I know but I am trying hard to take the good out of a bad situation. I hope you can too. I am sorry that your niece had so many questions about Alex which made you feel sad. I am sure she didn't mean to upset you. Maybe you can ask her mum/dad to talk to her about Alex and how it makes you sad to talk about him at the moment. I am sure she would understand. Then you can talk to her about him when you have the strength. I understand about wanting to be pg again too. I am sure it will happen for both us, it is just something that we can't rush and maybe we will be better off for the time in between our loss and our next pg, even though it feels so painful at the moment. It has only been such a short time since you lost Alex, be kind to yourself and don't expect too much too soon. Take care hun.
Samcougar - sorry you got a BFN and that you are feeling grumpy - send AF my way instead! And to have the flu as well.... you poor thing. Have you considered any alternative therapies for AF pain? or maybe just take the day off work and snuggle in with a hot water bottle instead? Hope you are feeling better very soon.
Bec - I hope your study is coming along nicely and good luck with your presentation tomorrow. Is there some way you can avoid talking to people beforehand? I don't think I could have that conversation and then stand up and give a presentation - I would be a mess. You are so strong to have continued with uni through this year. I had considered withdrawing from my course completely but I am half way through so I decided I would continue. I guess it shows my stubborness at not giving in!
Thanks everyone for your thoughts and advice about DH. I have suggested a S&K group to him in the past but he is not interested. He has spoken to some work friends last week but I am not sure how much information they had but he did find that helped a bit. Both of them are parents so I guess they do understand in some way. At the moment I am just trying to give him his space but also letting him know that I am here if he needs me. It is a tricky balancing act!
AFM, still waiting for AF. I thought maybe she would show up this weekend as I have had lots of ab pains and twinges and sore BBs on and off, along with chocolate cravings, but nothing yet. I wouldn't be surprised if this continues until Ryan's EDD in August, which is while we are away. But I am going to be prepared - I am taking a stack of OPKs with me as I think temping while travelling will be very hard. I am really hoping that I O while we are overseas!
I forgot to say I had a look at your chart and I understand what you mean. Your temps seem a little strange. Why don't you ask the FF experts to have a look at it for you? You can access them through the Contact Us - Support menu bar in FF.
Hopefully they might be able to look at your chart and also answer any questions you might have. When my chart went haywire they contacted me with some information.
Thank you all so much for your kind words and understanding. As predicted its cycle day 1 for me today, with AF rearing her ugly self. I actually am ok with it all today, yesterday was a terrible day (hormones are wonderful!) but I think I needed it all the same. I threw myself back into work so quickly after Alex was born that I put everything to the back of my mind - thinking that I was doing really well but in actual fact it was doing more damage than good. I have a weeks holiday coming up in 2 weeks so I am looking forward to some time out.
On the plus side I have just realised that I am now on a 28 day cycle, knowing when I ovulated to the day of AF. I am quite proud of myself as I have NEVER had a regular cycle, maybe my body is sorting itself out properly.
I think DH and I are going to have a little break for a while - work on us and our situation & where we are headed. So I might back off a little from this thread, but will lurk for our next BFP's!
I really do wish you all the very best with your TTC journey and for your journeys in general. Thank you for your support - it really does help in every possible way.
To our ladies who are awaiting thier precious bundles, enjoy and take care of yourselves!
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Congratulations hunni!!!!!
If DH ever gets home from footy training!
I think there will always be little moments when we remember our beautiful angels. Our angels are never far away
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I have everything crossed for you
Have just picked up another set of herbs, different formula to use through AF until O. Which is great, now if only that would happen
Anyway, trying to stay positive, not dwell on it too much and keep being healthy and exercising. Makes me sound like I'm a saint, which I definitely am NOT
to Samcougar and ALM. Hope you have a nice relaxing weekend planned.
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to all my beautiful girls TTC, I hope we'll see some nice BFPs in here soon!!!
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