I had meant to check in yesterday, but have been so busy that I worked through the night Sunday and on through most of Monday to meet a timeline. Dead tired now (day after is always the worst). Makes me feel old! I used to be able to do this on back to back nights without missing a beat (20 years ago, that is!!!!).
Angelic – Sending you my love and best wishes, hun. I know that must have been a difficult decision to come to, but somehow freeing also. Thanks for your encouragement and friendship. Take care sweetie. xoxo
Powelly – Sorry about your BFN, hun. Maybe July will be a better month. Also hoping your DS is doing better.
Gigi – Glad to see that you were able to take care of yourself first at the market that day. It’s too easy to think ‘I should be able to handle this’ when your little voice is telling you to get the H&LL out of there! Also sounds like you had a great night out boogie-ing! I can’t remember the last time DH and I did that (hmm… think I need to do some planning..)
I think you are right about your DH trying to protect himself by not getting his hopes up – mine does the same. Sometimes it just feels like you’re being smacked by wave after wave of disappointment and it’s just so hard to stay on your feet. Know that we are here for you, hun, and that we have hope enough for all of us. Fingers crossed for your BFP this month.
Tenibear – Looks like the BD bonanza is well started. Gotta get those fresh swimmers in the queue! Good luck sweetie!
Samcougar – Hope everything is going well. Are you going for bt’s?
Dory – Glad your side effects have passed and that your furbabies are doing well. I do have another poem for today’s HPT, but BB has rules regarding foul language!
Hi also to Chez, Cmeglles, Crumpet, CharliB, SusieQ, Hope, Lemonade, and anyone else I may have missed. Hope you are all doing well.
AFM – I was going to test Monday morning, but since I was up all night from Sunday I couldn’t really tell which was my first morning urine (iykwim). I thought it best to wait until today. Unfortunately still BFN, so I’m going to stop my progesterone and bring on AF (19 dpo). When I’ve been pregnant before, I always showed positive at least by 15 or 16 dpo, but I just wanted to be sure. On a positive note (tmi warning), at least I know that the progesterone gel suppository I started using this month is delivering enough hormone to stop my lining from shedding. Last month I was on transdermal progesterone alone and AF rudely showed up before I invited her! I’m actually not surprised we aren’t pg since DH and I were visiting relatives in different parts of the state when my EWCM showed up (of course). This time it looks like I’ll be o’ing right in the middle of a week long vacation we have planned, so maybe July will be our month!
Dory and Chris...yes I was mega proud of me for pulling the pin. I usually do just that Chris, soldier on and suffer it later. No more, when i get the feelings to go...i will go. No more compromising us.
Dory, glad things are on the up for you sweet with the meds. Hope you have a beautifully relaxing week...a couple of dvds and a good book. xoxo
Chris....yes definitely go for a boogie hun. It is so lovely and not smokey as it used to be when we were all a dam sight younger.
Thanks for your faith hun. I think our hubbys are pretty incredible to go for so long and not show a crack. It is pretty normal and comforting to see they feel the same way. xoxo
i am so glad you have worked out the Progesterone that is good for you babe. One less thing to have to question. I hope July is your month too. I am sorry you have had to pull the pin on this one. Thanks for your hope...I have plenty for you too. xoxox
Gigi - hope your parents are ok with their new adventure. My dad is moving this week. He's 68 now and moving house and towns. Maddness, but at the same time I applaud him for embracing change. Your night out sounds great.... bogey the night away! your poor DH - it is easy to forget that this journey takes its toll of them too. Give him a hug for me.... any news on AF?
Chris - I like the sound of a vacation BD fest.......
Teni - awesome that in the midst of all that seeming confusion that you got your ewcm at the right time. Things are looking up....
Powelly - sorry about your bfn.....bugger. What you said to G was really nice...
AFM - on the mend from those side effects. I do miss the energy spurt I had though.... I am off to see my counsellor on Friday. Time to check in and it's Amelia's 1st anniversary of her EDD next week ... not too sure how I feel about that impending date actually. It's the start of some significant dates in quick succession ....Nicholas' birthday then Sophie's birthday and then September. I am hoping to get to September. Anyway, thanks for listening....
Dory, Yes i think it is pretty cool for our oldies to go for adventure. Pretty cool indeed.
I will pass on the hug for you...with pleasure.
I am holding on but with not much hope. I am CD26 and DPO12, I POAS and it is blank, completely blank. One silly little line staring at me. So, i know i have a couple of days to go, but it is not looking so good. i am going through a bit of a realisation, adjustment period, getting ready for the next few days.
Atm i just feel like I am hanging in mid air. Suspended.
I have to pick up and do the shift in my head for another cycle. Right now, it is a tall order. I am pi55ed at this not working out each time. I am so naive to think that this CAN be easy if i let it. It is a bit of a come down really...when you work yourself up and then another knock back and you have to work yourself out again. xoxo Hmmmmm
Dory, glad the symptoms are doing well. I bet the next couple of months ahead are heavy on your mind hun. I am thinking of you. I hope the little reset with the counselor sets you up the best it can. It will be good to have a chat too. How many weeks are you now babe? You never mention, and if you don't want to, I understand.
Just a quick pop in from me to wish Samcougar all the very best in her pg!!!! Congratulations sweetie!! I wish you a happy, healthy & uneventhful 8 months or so! Woo hoo, way to go hun!!!!
Just quicky, Gigi, don't lose hope hun. I know how frasturating it is to see that one damn line over and over, but your time WILL come and I'll be here to celebrate it with you. Big hugs hunni and stay positive.
Dory, sorry to hear you weren't feeling well, big hugs. I'll be thinking of you next week on Amelia's 1st EDD angelversary.
Well, that's all I've had time to read.....sorry!!!
Hi to Sheryl, Teni, Cmeglles, ChrlieB, Crumpet, Angelicdragon and anyone else I missed!! All the very best for those waiting to test and I really wish it will happen for you soon.
to the newbies and I'm sorry you've found yourself in this thread but it was my lifeline when I was TTC and I will always be thankful for that.
Beata - it is a lifeline.... some of us just can't be away for too long huh?
Gigi - I can only imagine the enormous effort it takes each cycle, to build up hope and then be crushed. You have my pure and unadulterated admiration girl. My Bestie, is Long Term TCC with 2 m/c. She is so stoic most of the time but I see ( and at other times she lets me in) her struggle so much. I wish that I could make it better for her, and it makes me so sad that everytime she sees me, that as happy as she is for me, a part of her is just shrivelling inside because I am right now what she so badly wants. But still she comes and still she supports me. Pretty amazing friend huh?
I spent a lot of my most "fertile" years with acute PCOS and somehow just got the message that I was infertile and little could be done. I have no idea why I just accepted that at the time. I suppose at the time it suited me career wise not to pursue fertility options further. I don't regret it, but I am concerned I was so "accepting". This journey is just so weird. I started it with a perception of infertility and DH and I incorporated the concept that we wouldn't have children in our relationship. It took us both a lot of work to do it. And then things changed for us in ways we least expected. I hope that your you things changed unexpectedly and you do get your bfp..... soon. Anyway, my friend told me she was reading a book Inconceivable Notion I think is its title. I have it on hold at the library. My friend told me a lot of the stories there resonated for her and helped get a sense that what she is feeling and thinking is not "crazy". Maybe after I read it I will have more of an understanding of the path and you and my Bestie walk...
Anyway, sorry today was just a post to Gi. Thinking of you and lost of dust and stickies....
Dory - Just wanted to say I'm thinking of you as you endure the ever painful 1st anniversary next week. It's never easy having to re-live the painful memories. My hubby and I have a special place we go where we remember our son. We take a single white rose and lay it at the headland and we both tell him how much we love him and how much we miss him. Not a year will ever go by that we won't go and honour his memory. It's nice to do those special things and the first anniversary will be hard, and it will hurt, but with each anniversary, the pain slowly slowly slowly lessens.
Hope the counselling appt goes well. Sounds like it's come at a good time :-)
Big hugs for you. Know that you'll get through the day. Be kind to yourself, let it hurt and cry it out. You will wake to a new day, and you WILL see September, and you never know what's around the corner :-)
to the newbies and I'm sorry you've found yourself in this thread but it was my lifeline when I was TTC and I will always be thankful for that.
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