Wait wait wait Suzie....Don't go so fast.
My god hun, this is horrible news. I am so sorry you are faced with this.
Can we go back over your history...if it is not too hard for you to do so. I am so sorry my memory of your details are foggy. When you lost the twins, and when your daughter was born- Can I ask why she was premi?- Did you get to find out? I can remember that you had to have her placenta removed manually, and then i think 2 more D&Cs for further bleeding and issues. Is this correct hun? Have you had any other D&Cs before the twins? Was your pregnancy with your little boy...by the way- HAPPY BIRTHDAY to him for this weekend, was your pregnancy with him text book?
I guess what i want to know is, how has so much scarring come about for you and is it hopefully they can remove it without making more? Were the D&Cs done blindly or by ultrasound?
I am so sorry for so many questions but I am heartbroken for you and I don't think you should leave here when it can be such a place of support when you need it most. I want to understand what you are goin through as much as anyone can and be there for you. When do you come back to Aus? Are you in London? How long have you been over there?
Again...too many questions I am sure.
You have taken me back to 18months ago when I was getting ready to leave London and my baby girls life was hanging in there. I remember needing to talk it over, over and over again to find myself. I was at home there and my pregnancy was handled well there, when things went wrong they were lovely, but I am happy that DD was born here how we wanted. I think what i am trying to say is that...make sure whatever procedures you go into, you are 100% happy with your care, you have had the time you need to process it all and you have choices and support.
God listen to me...you have probably been there for years and everything is perfectly fine. If so PLEASE ignore me. I don't know what has come over me. I have this need to just spit it all out in case it is what you need to hear. PLease please ignore this if it is too much and crossing a line.
Anyway i will let you be in peace. Love and thoughts are with you.
Hm xoxo
Susie Q - oh sweetie.... I am so sorry that you got news that devastated you so much..... big hug my sweet. Give yourself time to adjust to the new blimp as you're still in shck and it's raw now. And then do as you do, research the topic, ask questions and give yourself time to process everything. Please don't feel that you have to leave here. This particular thread is my spiritual home on BB, mostly because of the amazing women who honour me by sharing their journey's. At this time in your life, I would be so sad that you didn't have what little support we can provide. But if you feel you have to move on, I want to thank you, from the bottom of my heart for all of the support and friendship you have so generously offered to me in my bleakest and darkest hours and also the odd wit and sense of humour you have offered on those "good" days. You will never be far from my heart or my prayers. Go gently my friend.
And thanks for your support. Dr's app went ok. Not pre-eclampsia yet, but have all the little tell tale symptoms, just not serious enough yet, so traces of protein in my urine, oedema, visual disturbances, headahces, grumpy ( not like me at all) and slightly higher BP but not enough to be a "real concern, but enough to get some advice to take it easy and watch the symptoms. LOL about getting enough mobility in due course.
Gi - I wanted to write yesterday and tell you I was so sad to hear you were having a rough day. I was too. The demons I was fighting were pretty overwhelming, but then I managed to find a way through, which is good for me. I hope today has been a better day for you. Hugs my friend.
Oh dear, I just read over my post again to Suzie and I fear i was a bit overboard and sad. I think i just let my head race ahead three steps too. Sorry hun. I know you will handled this far better than I. Dory...calms me down like no mans business. It is lovely to have a friend whose words say....SLoooww down chicka. One step at a time and all will be fine. Adjust, regroup, be kind and be strong.
Dory, glad you are feeling bit better today hun. Those symptoms seem a bit sucky. I am sure you are handling it like a goddess! and not a Diva!
Stay put sweet cheeks....you are cooking a bubba!
Love to all. xoxo
CD10 for me today and I am a bit pensive today. Going through a few boxes of books and things to put in our cupboard. Old things in old boxes gets me pensive.
xoxoxo
Dory, your comments are always so on the mark. I was completely in shock. In my last post I probably wrote down about 0.1% of what was actually going through my brain.
Gigi thank you for your concern sweetie. Ah, where to start with answering your questions. My daughter was born premature due to complexities surrounding the twin. Well this is what they think happened. We found out at the 12 week scan that there was a second sac/foetus which probably stopped developing around the 6/7 week mark. They said the body usually absorbs this and I may get some bleeding. I did get some bleeding at the 13 week mark and then it stopped unfortunately it started again at 17 weeks and never stopped. Bubs was doing well though and I was told that some people just bleed through preg. We had numerous scans and nobody could tell us why I was bleeding other than the twin reabsorbtion. Anyway, I went into pre-term labour due to an infection. They can't tell me what sort of infection it was other than they could find no 'bad' bacteria. The consultant's explantion was that sometimes with the bleeding, the good bacteria have a nice warm environ in which to grow and multiply and they overwhelm the system. It is the only explanation I have but at least it is an explanation and something which they believe will not happen again. I had a manual extraction of placenta and then 2 further ERPC's for retained products 4 months later. Probably the last one caused the damage as the consultant did tell me he had to get a bit agressive in order to remove the last of the RP's which were firmly attached to the wall. He was the one that mentioned Asherman's to me. The stats say that 40% of Asherman's cases develop from D&C's 2-4 weeks after delivery. Wish I was in the other 60%!
No other D&C's. Had an emerg c-section for DS as he was undiagnosed footling breech. Anyway, that is another story. But my periods returned after bfeeding fine so I suspect that didn't cause any problems. I think any scarring would have shown up on the u/s with my daughter when my uterus got bigger.
Anyway, I am in the best of hands here. I am seeing what is called an A-lister (the asherman's group rate surgeons) here in London (DH and I have been here since 2001 - how time flies!). I am going privately so I can get immediate treatment though luckily my DH has private insurance through work. There is only one A-lister in Oz and he is in Sydney so a long expensive way from Perth so I am hoping I can be treated successfully here. The other good thing about my A-lister is that he worked in Perth for a year so knows people who could perhaps assist in my recovery. Don't know, will have to see what happens, hopefully if I need two or more surgeries I can get them all done here before Xmas. Otherwise we may have to rethink our timing on coming home. So everything in my life is completely up in the air at the moment. At DH's insistence, I am trying not to stress out too much as I just have to wait until surgery. There is a fantastic international and UK asherman's community which are an incredible support. I have learned so much just in the last few days from reading others experiences. I can only hope I can provide an inspirational story for others. Fingers crossed.
I hope that answers everything Gigi. I definitely feel calmer after my extensive research. It is just out of my hands now and I have to hope this surgeon is as good as everyone says he is.
At the moment I am on a different path and as you can imagine talking/reading about TTC would be a bit much for me. Oh how I wish for a TWW now!! But I will pop in from time to time to make sure you are all doing OK. I will definitely be stalking Dory for her birth announcement. I will let you know how I get on though....maybe a few days later though after I have processed it and am no longer in shock!!!!
Good luck all....and I wish with all my heart that if or when I do return that none of you are here and you are all in the preg thread. Lots of babydust.
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