TTC AFTER Late Loss/Recurrent Miscarriage/ Stillbirth 2010

[Gigi1]

Angel Dragon, Aries, Tenibear and Lemonade, I missed you...thank you to you too. Lemonade we have barely met but you are a welcomed energy in here.

Thanks girls above. Much love to all xoox Good Luck and keep it up. xoox

[crumpet]

WOW! Two BFPs within a few days! How amazing! Congratulations to both of you
Hopefully more of us will be joining you soon
AFM, I'm going okay. I'm not sure I mentioned that I worked the other day, but I did, for the first time in almost a year. It felt like the past year hadn't happened the moment I started (not a good thing, tbh...)
I got a few stabby tummy pains from seeing mummas with bubs or bellies but most of the day I wasn't concerned with my personal problems - more concerned with wanting to murder my coworkers

for charlie and crumpet

thanks tenibear.....

oh wow thats a big step.... im going to hear about a job today and im a bit nervy bout it all!!!!

I don't know if I can yet!!! I'm still feeling a bit unsure and don't want to jinx anything! But I will soon, once things are looking a bit more confirmed!

thats fair enough, totally understandable

Evening Ladies!

Wow a lot has happened in here of late!

Huge CONGRATULATIONS to crumpet and CharlieB!!! So happy for you both - sending all the sticky vibes under the sun and moon

Dory - Hey there! Yep I got my tattoo (OUCH lol) - still can not believe it, which of course means I didnt get a BFP yet. Still dont even know if I ovulated.... the clinic cant even tell me

thanks hun....

oohhh yaya for getting ut tattoo done!!! i still want one but it wont be for a while now!!! did it really hurt that much???

and bugger bout the clinic not being able to tell you anything!!! hope things owrk out for u!!!

[cmeglles]

Hi Everyone!

I am back! We had a lovely trip and I will write more later....I wanted to write a quick congrats to Charlie B and crumpet. And welcome to Lemonade.

I just wanted to say that today is my EDD. I spent the morning arranging flowers and dropped bouquets off at the birthing pavilion for the moms there and a big one for the nurses and doctors. DH and I have had plenty of sad moments, but we took the day off and are spending it together. I am trying to be really hopeful that maybe we were lucky in Bermuda, and that is keeping me pretty positive today in spite of the sadness....I am on CD23 but I won't test until my period is pretty late I have decided.

Sending you all hugs and love and sticky vibes and baby dust. Will write some more on not a sad day.

[dory]

SusieQ – you know, given its a TCC thread, I would be really happy if you are all using that word in the aussie context! I spent some time in the USA (OMG it's 10 years ago!) and easily translate between some of the vernacular. ( wow – took me a good few seconds to think of that word, I was going to write lingo!)

Charlie – goo to see that line is still there! Thankyou, that is such a nice way to look at things. Writing a new history. I like it!

Crumpet – so good that your session lifted a weight from your shoulders ….they are hard sessions but rewarding.

Teni – wow, sweet escape for a day when you are work. It just means you were distracted from the immediacy of your bereavement. It doesn't mean you love Ianto any less.

Aries – good work on getting the tatt! Has it healed now? Hope your cycles sort themselves out soon.

Cmeglles – my thoughts are with you today for your EDD of your darling angel Robert Christopher.
Glad you and DH are together, and the way you have honoured your angel, is just beautiful.

Gigi - sending you my love. Will try, despite my Dory brain, to remember to PM you. Is your blog on BB or another one?

AFM - all good here.

[Gigi1]

Blog is on BB hun. Sweety, you don't have to PM me hun unless you need or want to one day. Just letting you know I am there. xoxo

[Lemonade]

One more thing, after my last visit with my obs, I'm just not feeling 100% happy. I have complete confidence in her as a doctor but just have my doubts about her understanding of my situation. I think she may be way too busy to give us the caring we need.

If any of you are in Sydney, can you recommend a good obs? I think it may be a good idea for us to start exploring other docs.

Thanks
xxx

[cmeglles]

Ok so much to say!
Again charlie B and crumpet congrats! Yay- I am so happy for you and may I say a tad bit jealous.....

SusieQ- How awful to have to start all over again. Hopefully the procedure is pretty painless. I am thinking of you.

Lemonade- I can't give you any OB recommendations, but I can totally understand how you are feeling. Your OB really hasnt seemes to be on top of anything. How frustrating. I am not the most patient person and the fact that you still don't have all the results must be really frustrating. (The autopsy on my DS was delayed getting back to us too and I was really frustrated about it). Sending you good luck with the hunt and TTC.

Blessedatlast- It sounds like things are going better for you. I am also sending you a It sounds like this move is allowing for healing and provide a great new start. You are so strong to have gone through with it. Maybe something to consider in the future would be IUI.....just a thought. I know it is probably way to soon to start thinking of that sort of a thing right now. You are in my thoughts and I am sending you lots of Please feel free to PM me whenever!

Dory- How are you doing? Feeling any better about history repeating itself? It sounds like things are going really well for you. Wonderful!

Beata- Thanks for the hugs and encouragement. it is nice to hear from you now and again. Please keep popping in!

Tenibear- It sounds like work was good for you. I have been trying to work and keep myself busy to not be so focused and worried about ttc. It seems to be working and my outlook is healthier, but it does make me tired! Sounds like your co-workers are great distractions, but unfortunately not in a good way. Argh- I can totally understand how some people can be frustrating, but it never seems to last too long. I hope the same is for you.

angelicdragon- Hi, how is it going with you? Seems to be busy, and I hope it is a good thing.

Chez- So sorry that AF arrived, and that things have been so difficult. I hope you get some answers soon on your wacky cycles. More importantly I hope those answers lead to a BFP. I have no idea if you can ovulate 2 in a cycle!I hope that you can find time to schedule a holiday if you can! It was so wonderful to get away from it all- including worrying about TTC. I feel heaps better.

Hi to Aries, Teagz and anyone who might be lurking that I missed

AFM- rough week. My EDD went better than expected, but made this week kind of hard. Sorry I haven't written much. The vacation really was nice. Unfortunately the weather was pretty cold and windy so I didn't get in much beach time, but just leaving home and not worrying about work and TTC was really great. We were on holiday when I O. Today is CD28 and no sign of AF. I have had a few elevated temps mixed in with reg ones, and was hoping it might be a triphasic chart, but I haven't been doing them continuously. I did test today and got a BFN. I am better with it than in previous months, because I have tried to distract myself with work. I don't know.....I am pretty frustrated. I read a statistic somewhere that said that in the under 30 group 96% of couples get pregnant within 4 months. I guess again we are in the minority. It is also frustrating because with wrok/school and timing of TTC, if we don't suceed in the next 2 months I am really going to have to re-evaluate my planning for going back to med school. I am thinking about going and talking to a doctor- we have been doing everything right. What do you think? Am I just getting ahead of myself? I am also wondering if I have a luteal phase defect.....It is only 11-12 days usually for me, which seems right on the verge...sigh. Lots to think about.

Sending everyone lots of

[Miss.B]

Hi lovely ladies,

Oh wow, congratulations Crumpet and CharlieB!! I am so thrilled for you ladies, and wish you a happy and healthy pg!!

Ladies, I'm sorry I don't pop in too much in here any more, but I do lurk from time to time. Always on the look out for the lovely BFPs!

Just quickly, as I haven't gone through all the posts, I'm sorry to hear that you're taking time off belly Gigi, but I totally understand and wish you all the very best in your TTC journey. Take care of yourself hun, and I pray that one day I'll see you in here reading all about your BFP. Big hugs to you hun

Cmeglles, thinking of you hun and sending you a huge hug

Big hello to everyone in here, and spreading lots of and

B xxx

[Lemonade]

Hi All,

SusieQ - thanks for the welcome. I understand the frustration of not being able to understand what is happening inside our bodies. I hope your cycle gets back to normal very soon.

Crumpet - sooooo exciting about BFP!!!! That's really fantastic news. Keep us updated. I'm glad the counselling went well. I've had a couple of sessions with a therapist and she has been amazing!

CharlieB - how's everything going? When are you going for your blood test? I am not able to PM on my account yet but I wanted to ask you something. would you mind emailing me on sweet_lemonade@y7mail.com

Dory - thanks for your feedback on the obs - your words of wisdom seem to always uplift this forum

Gigi - I wish you heaps of happy vibes. I'm sorry you're going to be away for a while but it seems everyone is so welcoming and supportive here, that I'm sure you know you will be welcomed when you want to pop in again

TeniBear - well done for going back to work. I found that it was such a welcome distraction for me. Our CEO's EA sits opposite me and she is very preggie. But hopefully she'll be going off soon so it won't be in my face the whole time. Besides that, it's been a good experience being back.

Aries - holding thumbs that your intuition is giving you the right O signals

cmeggles - you must have a wonderful tan now. I can only imagine how difficult your EDD must be - but it sounds like you spent it in a beautiful way. Sending you lots of BFP vibes

AFM: I'm a little freaked out now. We went to see the obs for our seven week follow-up appointment. She hasn't got all the results but there was some reason why this happened. Apparently baby had a tumour in the chest. The obs reckons it's one of those one in a billion things to happen but is still waiting on the final report for further answers. I guess I had convinced myself that we wouldn't find an answer (not sure if it's true but so many ppl told me that the chance of finding a cause was low). But now that we have a cause I'm not sure how I feel. Should I feel relieved that there was actually something serious that caused this to happen, concerned, worried, happy, sad. I guess in some ways it does make me feel better to know that my body was doing all the right things and there was nothing I couldn't have done to prevent this (at least as far as I know). It makes me more slightly more hopeful for next time but I'm still quite shaken. Hopefully we'll get the final results soon so we can move on.

[dory]

Lemonade - oh blossom. In time you will make some peace with the news, but for anyone it is shocking news and it is likely you will have some grieving to do. Give yourself time to work through the news.

I am so so sad for your little angel but you are right, it is rare, and for the future that is something to hold on to, but still doesn't take away how sad it is for your angel.

I understsand about at least being able to have some more confidence in your body which gives you some hope for next time. There is always hope - sometimes we just have to work harder to find it. It can be pretty elusive. Thanks too for your kind words. I don't try to be uplifting or anything, I am just me. Mostly happy go lucky but like with all of us on this journey, there are dark days and dark times.

Sorry taht you have to be sitting across from the heavily preggers EA. but like you said - she'll not be there soon.

Hi ho to everyone else. Thinking of you and sending you lots of love..... and positive vibes.