Hey Mel

You know what, sometimes life sucks and don't feel that you have to pretend that it doesn't I am so sorry to hear that the witch showed up.... It is a cruel twist of fate that your body is like clockwork except when you are trying for that BFP. I am not going to tell you what you should do about the Chickenpox injection or hysterogram but I am worried that if you don't do the tests then you are going to be even more nervous when you do fall pregnant. I know that DH and I are facing 6 months of not TTC and the thought of it drives me insane, but I am trying to remember that not everything in my life is in my control and I am going to have to let what will be happen. Doesn't change the fact that I cry myself to sleep over it but I have to believe that It will happen babe, I just wish it had happened for you guys already and patience is a BIACH!!! Hey, maybe we should plan a girls weekend while we are both on a break from TTC and party our worries away

About your necklace babe, I am really sentimental and superstitious about those sort of things also, but you know that it doesn't make you a bad mummy because you forgot to wear it. You know what, Nicholas is deep inside your heart and you will never be without him. It probably is the PMS making you feel worse but you are entitled to be precious today. Just know that you are a wonderful mummy to Nicholas and that the necklace is just ONE of the ways you show him how much you love him, just having the courage and strenght to get through the tough days like today, and not giving up is the way you show him how much you love him.


Anyway hun, if it is too tough at work today just go home and turn on your favorite songs and have a good old cry. I'm thinking of you babe, hang in there, I am here for you always.

Luv
Spring Angel