Gigi,
I feel for you. I really do. You don't need a budget for counselling. SIDS offers counselling for parents who have lost a child in any way including in pregnancy. They are wonderful and experienced and I know they even talk to people 20 years after their loss. You can call their 24 hr number and they'll help you!
NSW number is 1800 651 186. During work hours you'll speak to a counsellor in the office but after hours you talk to a trained parent who has also been through a loss. They'll help you make an appointment or just talk to you on the phone. I have had huge amounts of support from this wonderful organisation.
One of the hardest things to do is actually get started with getting help.

Powelly I so so hope your scan goes well. Please tell us as soon as you can!

Dory thanks for your ever gentle and kind words.

Good luck to everyone else.

I have a midwife appointment tomorrow so I'll be edgy all day about that and worried I'll forget something.