TTC a mircale - oh blossom.... what heartache and tragedy brings us together. First of all congratulations on being a mumma to angels. It's a very special club. Secondly, I am so so sorry your angels couldn't stay. How are you doing emotionally? When you're ready to share your birth experiences and your memories of your precious wee ones, I would love to hear about them. Until then, thinking of you and sending you lots of love. In terms of TTC, where are you in your cycle? I found being in here, and the loss threads incredibly helpful in my healing and I have made some amazing friends here, that have turned into IRL friends. Much love. xxooo Did you name your babies? Did you get to see them, cuddle them? Could you? Some people can't. What investigations have you had? A lot of questions, I know and you don't have to answer any of them. You can tell me I am a nosy parker......


M22 - I am so vague..... are you TTC? How is it all going? I really want to be in here again officially TTC instead of just dreaming and hoping my time will come again. How are the kidlets? How's your grief?

It's Amelia's 4th anniversary soon. OMG, 4 years! When did that happen? Sometimes I miss the raw grief, the struggles just to do everyday activities. It sort of gave me a purpose. And I suspect an identity. A bereaved mum. Now? It's harder. Most people just assume because I am blessed to have my rainbows that the angels no longer matter. Oh how wrong they are. I am so shaped by their life and death.