sorry me again, DP came home on thursday night, he'd bought me an ipod because he wanted me to hear a song that reminded him of Phoebe. we listened to it and both just sat there and cried and cuddled. I just wanted to share it with you, its by Coldplay so you might think its a bit depressive, but here goes, its called Fix it.
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Hello everyone,
Been very busy with DS 11th birthday party. I am sorry AF came Mel. I have had 2 weird AFs lately to combined with terrible pelvic pain on one side, going back to gynae to get it checked out for a possible lap. I have endo so all the pg and m/c of the last few years may have made it worse.
Klee, that song is meaningful for me too- wish I could be "fixed".
Lyn, thinking of you and hoping the 6 month b/day is not too difficult for you.
Funny how we look forward to m/s once you've lost a pg
Jo
Lynn - How are you doing today? I have been thinking about you.
Mel - How are you going?
Tommysmum - How did you enjoy today without MIL? Are you feeling any better? I won't be going on wednesday either, mum is working so no monster-sitter.
JLK - I dont blame you for being peeved about that, how hard is it to put some paperwork in the mail or fax it? Hopefully they will get onto it right away so you don't have to wait any longer.
Well, still no real signs for me yet, but I did do another HPT today, and according to that I am more UTD than last week. Go figure! But I have another BT tomorrow, so hopefully all my levels went up nicely over the week. I will come back later to see how everyone is.
Lynn - you are an amazing person, mother and friend. You have been in my thoughts today, along with Cooper and your DH. I wish I could take your pain away but I can't, all I can do it give you a great big cyber and tell you how much we all care about you.
Klee - So sorry AF arrived Its a hard decision to make about whether to skip TTC or not, just do what you feel is right. I guess one thing to consider would be whether your OB will deliver your next bub prior to full term. If so then maybe the dates wouldnt be as close as you think. Either way, you will make the decision that is right for you and DH. What a beautiful song, I havent heard it - you will have to bring your ipod when I see you so I can listen
Jo - Sorry to hear AF came for you too.
Georgie - Nice to hear from you again. Give yourself some time, its a long road
Jo - That is awful the council have stuffed up so badly, I would be angry too. I hope they are going to get onto it straight away now.
Hi to everyone else, sorry for the quick one - made myself go to work but feeling really crap and my temp seems to be 35.5 which I think might be a little low so I should really rest up. Might have a nap and pop back later.
Sweet Cooper, the sky is dark and the stars are about to begin shining for the evening. Shine down on your Mummy and Daddy sweetie little boy and let them know you are ok.
Mel: I am sorry to hear how awful your period has been... :hugs: I am more sorry that that Bfn came at all... So, this is the month for the "post coital test" It doesnt' seem fair tht you have to go through all of this... Sending you big big hugs my love...
Lynn: How are you today my love??? I hope that you are okay after Coopers birthday yesterday... I was thinking of you so much... When is your blood test my love??? Is it today??? I have everything crossed for you and HOpe this month...
Jo and Klee so sorry tht your period arrived also... Let's hope it's the last one you see for a looooong time... :hugs:
Nat: I hope you are okay and that you got my email back??? How is the bus ride going for your DS?
Everyone else HI from me... A Bit stressed at the moment. Waiting for bloods on this friends little boy who has ?parvo virus (it can cause miscarriage... and he has been here playing with my kids)... So I am praying that he hasn't got it and that *Col* stays strong...
Oh Flowerchild,
I am hoping everything is ok with your friends little boy and he doesn't have parvo. I am sure that Col will be fine, but you certainly don't need to be stressing over this. Let us all know as soon as you hear. Hold on in there Col.
Hi everyone,
Nothing much to say, I had another blood test this morning and will get the results this afternoon, so just hoping that there is a nice big rise in those levels.
Flowerchild - Any news on your friends son?? I am hoping everything is ok.
Oh Bailey I have been thinking of you... We are all here waiting with you my love!
No, no news... She decided to take him for a b/test this morning but the results won't be available until tomorrow at the earliest I suspect... I am just feeling so damn annoyed. She wasnt' even going to tell me... I saw him yesterday when I picked up her dd and I could see his red cheeks and her dh said we think its... I just geat so annoyed at how lax some people are about public health... Anyway it's done now I can't change the course only hope that he hasn't got it and if he has that our family hasn't!
Flowerchild - I hope all is okay with you - is there a vaccine that can be administered if it is Parvo? Fingers crossed the BT comes back negative and you can stop worrying.
Bailey - what are those levels? Eagerly waiting your results - will check in on you later.
Lynn - hope you are doing okay? Have you had your BT yet? Looking forward to you being our lucky third BFP.
Hi to everyone else - just a quickie as still at work and got loads to do.
Yesterday was a lot harder than I thought it would be. I know it has been 6 months but I think it really hit me yesterday that although Cooper is home with me, he will never be coming home the way he should have, iykwim. I bought some white oriental lillies on Saturday so that they would open up yesterday and the first one opened yesterday which was special. I love the smell that they give off when they have opened. I also blew up a balloon and hung it above his urn and teddies. I held Cooper and spoke to him and cried for most of the day. I spent most of the day reading poems and listening to special music. It was really tough without my mum here but she rang last night and we had a really good cry together (an expensive cry because she is overseas and called from dad's mobile). My sister who lives in Bris called and we too had a good cry together and she also offered to fly down to be with me because I didn't have any of my family around me. DH got home from work and we had a really good cry together too. I gave him a poem with a picture of his and Cooper's hand (his favourite picture which he is thinking about getting as a tattoo). I want to share the poem with you all.
Dear Daddy
Don't cry for me Daddy
I am right here
Although you can't see me
I can see your tears.
I visit you often
Go to work with you each day
And when it's time to close your eyes
On your pillows where I lay
I hold your hand and stroke your hair
And whisper in your ear
If you're sad today Daddy
Remember I am here
Angels took me away
This we know is true
But you will always be my Daddy
Even though I'm not with you
I am Daddy's little boy
We will never be apart
For every time you think of me
Please know I'm in your heart.
I Love you Daddy!
You're Baby Boy
I just wanted to thank you all for your wonderful messages, emails, texts and calls. You truely are the most special people that I know and knowing that I have your love and support is what gets me through each day.
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and tell you how much we all care about you.
Its a hard decision to make about whether to skip TTC or not, just do what you feel is right. I guess one thing to consider would be whether your OB will deliver your next bub prior to full term. If so then maybe the dates wouldnt be as close as you think. Either way, you will make the decision that is right for you and DH. What a beautiful song, I havent heard it - you will have to bring your ipod when I see you so I can listen
and he has been here playing with my kids)... So I am praying that he hasn't got it and that *Col* stays strong...
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