HI everyone,
Sorry I have been out of action but I am back now!
LYnn: I am so so very sorry - follicles can look much like cysts - however it is unlikely that such a mistake was made. I am wondering if perhaps what is happening is that your follies are not maturing. This happens with low hormone levels - there sometimes isn't enough lutinising hormone produced and the little loves just shrivel up. It sounds like this to me. One of the treatments is clomid and the injectibles you have spoken of. A hcg trigger shot is given so that the follies release their eggs and then hopefully within a few cycles pregnancy occurs. This is just my take on what I feel may be happening but of course I can't know for sure. Big big hugs my love - it is so disheartening I know. I know what you mean about a baby for Christmas. I have had two Christmas's now without that baby to add to our family. Last Christmas was to be the last but it's not looking like that is going to be the case for me either... I picked up your stone yesterday and I will post it on Monday - I am hoping you will get it for Easter.

Mel: I am sorry this isn't your month again. That poster was very insensitive and I know how much those words hurt. Mel, have you had your hormone levels checked? It isn't unusual to take some time for fertility to resume after birth. It's great that your DH is having a SA. I just wish I could give you a big hug. I know how disappointing it is to see another month pass. :hugs:

Bailey: Yay at the internet connection on holidays - we won't miss out on you while you are gone and we can all have a little "cyber holiday" with you! Are you testing soon?

Spring: You deserve this pregnancy and Lil Spring. Don't you waste any time feeling guilt at being pregnant. We will all get our chance - our journey's are all different. The timing is different for us all and the lessons we have to learn are unique to us all. We will all get there - you are the first cab off the rank - but there are lots more cabs to go. You just enjoy the miracle of your Lil Spring. We so much appreciate your love and support.

Tommysmum and Klee: Welcome to this thread and I am so sorry for the deaths of your babies. I look forward to getting to know you. May your stay in here be short and sweet!

Well I got my period yesterday I knew it was coming as I had tested and got bfn. My progesterone on 9dpo was 42 this month on 100mgs of clomid. Not so great. However, the peak is on 7po so, it is likely that the level was higher. I saw my gorgeous obs yesterday and left feeling good. Her take on it is that my fertility is working just fine - but with the lower prog. it is showing that I am probably only producing one follicle. As we all know (big sigh!) as you get older (I am 39 for those who don't know) egg quality is decreased. So, if you only produce 1 egg a cycle you have to wing it that that eggy is gorgeous. It would seem my eggs haven't been so gorgeous of late - possibly why we lost the pregnancy last month.:sad: .

So, the plan is that we need to stimulate a few follies a cycle to give me the best chance. We are upping the clomid to 150mgs for the next 2 months with follie scans. If my follies are looking ripe we will do a trigger shot so that sex can be perfectly and religiously timed! So, this month I will have a follie scan the day after Easter Monday (cd12) and go from there. I don't have too many side effects on clomid (cranky but nothing much else) so let's hope I go okay.
I always feel better with a plan so I am feeling good now. She is very positive and optimistic that it's a matter of time. So, I am going with that. Of course nothing is certain but I truly believe I will get there and I am not going to stop that belief. It is a bloody hard road though TTC after so many losses. So many babies that have been said goodbye to - it is really hard to be patient sometimes.
My friend pregnant with twins and due around the same time as my last Angel was due had a show yesterday - it's very exciting. I will keep you posted. These little boys are very special - they are a reminder that life goes on. It is a hard time though knowing that I would be due too and instead I am trying to get pregnant!
Anyway I am off now to do some jobs around the place. It's a lovely cool day here - looking like rain. I hope you all have a great Saturday - I will be back over the weekend.