I am sitting here by myself crying and I don't know what to do - I just found out that my friend from work had a baby boy today. I am happy that another baby has entered this world safely but it has just brought up so many emotions - I just feel like everyone around me are having healthy babies, why couldn't I. I just keep going over and over the same things - I did everything right. I didn't drink, smoke, eat the wrong food, so why did this happen. I don't wish this on anyone but I know a number of people that have just had healthy babies and they drank during their pregnancies. I know that this is their choice, but I didn't do it and I still lost my baby. I'm just so angry with the world right now and just so upset.
Lynn: I wish I could reach through this computer and give you a big hug. You have every right to be upset, mad, sad, whatever you are felling. We were talking today about how people who take risks like drinking alcohol, go and have perfectly healthy babies and there is nothing I can say or do it make it seem ok or fair. It is unfair. I know you wouldn't wish this pain on anyone, but it is hard not to feel ripped off when you took every precaution possible an life still was so cruel. I don't know if I have helped much but more than anything I just wanted to reassure you that it is ok to feel how you feel. You are a wonderful person, a wonderful mother and the most amazing friend. :hugs: :hugs: :hugs:
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