I am sitting here by myself crying and I don't know what to do - I just found out that my friend from work had a baby boy today. I am happy that another baby has entered this world safely but it has just brought up so many emotions - I just feel like everyone around me are having healthy babies, why couldn't I. I just keep going over and over the same things - I did everything right. I didn't drink, smoke, eat the wrong food, so why did this happen. I don't wish this on anyone but I know a number of people that have just had healthy babies and they drank during their pregnancies. I know that this is their choice, but I didn't do it and I still lost my baby. I'm just so angry with the world right now and just so upset.