Thank you Deb. :hugs: I know that you are all here for me. I guess I just feel like everything is going wrong at the moment so why not today. Ok enough negativity, I will start to be positive now! I think the nauseous is from the Metformin. It has started since I started taking it. I will talk to my FS this afternoon about it. It is definitely not pg symptons because test junkie here did another hpt this morning - why??????? I don't know maybe just because I thought I could have all this wrong and was clutching at a chance............but that chance has gone. Good luck this afternoon although I'm sure you don't need it - everything will be fine. I love the way you are staying positive - send me some of those positive vibes. Let us know how you go.
Leabead - I am so sorry for the loss of your son. The guilt that you are feeling is what we have all felt when we started to the TTC journey. Just realise that you are not replacing Noah, just the hole in your heart that he has left. He knows that he could never be replaced, and how could you, he is your perfect little angel, your son. When was Noah born?
Leabead - I am so sorry to hear you have lost your precious Noah As Lynn said we all felt guilt in the beginning of our TTC journey but with time I think you will truly believe that all Noah wants is for his Mummy and Daddy to be happy and hold his brother or sister in their arms. Nothing will ever replace our angel babies - how could it? They are our flesh and blood and will remain in our hearts and memories forever. I believe all we are doing is adding to our families. Please know that we are all here for you if you need anything
Lynn - I have been thinking of you today and I hope you went ok, talk to you soon
Deb - Did you get your results? I hope everything was perfect and your little bean is growing as he/she should be. I think it is great you have such a positive attitude and I hope I can take a leaf out of your book if and when I am pregnant.
Spring - How is lil Spring treating you? Did you have another scan today?
Nat - Wow you sound like a busy little bee, you will need a weekend to recover from your weekend... I havent felt that way since I was about 21 LOL
I did another test this morning and got a BFN - I am starting to get a little disheartened about this month considering I am CD23 today, you would think at least a faint shadow would be visible
Hi to everyone else, I hope you are all well.
Mel
Last edited by Mel1977; February 27th, 2007 at 04:51 PM.
Leabead: I am so sorry for the loss of your darling little man Noah. I am glad that you have found BB as the women on this site provide the most amazing support and friendship to help you through the difficult days ahead. I know how you may feel guilty TTC. Most of the ladies in here have experienced guilt about many different things,TTC being one of them. Just know that you are not being disloyal to Noah if you TTC.
Lynn: My heart breaks reading your posts, I have tomorrow off work so I'll give you a call and have a chat if you feel like it. I am so sorry that he drugs are making you ill, can they give you anything to make you feel better? How was your appointment today, I know you were nervous but I hope that you finally got some good news. Take care sweetie :hugs:
Mel: I am sorry that you got a BFN this morning, but remember I didn't get a clear positive until the day AF was due. It depends on the hormone levels and every woman is different. It doesn't change the fact that you must be driving yourself insane with the wait. I want more than anything for the next post I read from you to be filled with news of a wonderful BFP. I didn't have another scan today, the Doc wanted me to try to wait one and a half weeks this time so the scan is on Friday afternoon.
Nat: I am so envious of your hectic weekend. My weekends basically consist of house work and perhaps a DVD with DH. Can't complain though, it is nice to have him home on weekends. I hope that you are well babe.
Flowerchild: Hey honey, I posted to you in the Pregnancy thread. Big babe.
Well I'll pop in later, I am worried about my girls so make sure you all pop in and let me know how you are.
Mel - that BFP is just around the corner. Like Spring said, you may just have to wait a few more days. Talk to you soon.
Spring - I would love the chat tomorrow, thank you :hugs:
Nat - thanks for the chat. As always you put things into perspective and it all makes sense - thank you! You are the best
Deb - hope everything went well today, am thinking of you
Well I went and saw my FS this afternoon and all I can say is 'about time'. About time I got some good news. All my tests came back negative which is good and my chance of a miscarriage is very low (not sure what they test for but I will take the FS word). So now I just need to wait for AF and then I can start my next month on clomid and metformin and hopefully this is enough to make me o and get pg I asked my FS about o'ing late and he said that some women do and it is ok to fall pg on those eggs but he does want me to o a little bit earlier than I have been (ok I will just let my ovaries know!!!! lol) They are going to monitor me with BT and u/s for my next cycle so we can see exactly what is going on. I said so I don't need to do OPK or temps and he said no. What am I going to do without my tests!!!!! He said that I can still do temps if I want but there is no need to do OPK because they will get a better indication from BT and u/s. I think I will still do temps just so I feel that I am doing something.
I am feeling a bit better too, not feeling to nauseous which is good. But I'm sure that is all going to change tomorrow when I increase my dose! Oh well, I know at the end of this I will be feeling nauseous for other reasons and that is what I have to keep telling myself.
Lynn - That is fantastic to hear about your FS appointment. It's great news that everything is looking OK, now you will just need to coax those eggs down a little early and there should be a BFP soon. I am glad to hear you are feeling better, and maybe this good news is just what you need to keep you positive for next month's TTC. I hope you have warned your DH that he will be a busy boy next month. I will be thinking of you and your little man Cooper tommorrow.
Mel - Sorry to hear about your BFN, but stay positive, it's still a little early for testing and it ain't over til Aunty Flo sings. I wish that old witch would realise that she isn't welcome in this thread!! I am crossing every body part for you!
Spring - How is Lil Spring going?? Did you give in and give him/her that red meat they've been craving?
Flowerchild - Good luck with the results you are waiting on. I am sure they will be good, this is the year of the Golden Piggy after all!
Dream - Yeah, I still have a little while to go before I should start those HPT's, but they were just sitting there begging for me to try them I am trying to stay positive, but like I have said before, I will try not to get too upset if I don't get my BFP, it is only my first month. That said, I have had a few little signs, but they can be taken either way. Why are AF and BFP early symptoms the same??
Leabead - I am sorry to hear about your little boy Noah. I am sure we have all had guilty feelings about TTC. Not a day goes by where I don't feel some guilt about things I did or didn't do. But in the last week or so, I have decided that this journey is hard enough without letting guilt add to it. Noah knows he was and is still loved and that he will never be replaced. I am sure that all of our angels know that.
Well, I have had a bit of a mixed night. I was telling Spring and Lynn when we met up that my little boy (just turned 3) has not said anything about the baby since we lost her in November and had only just bought it up last week. We haven't really gone into it with him as I feel he is a little young to worry about death just yet, but we had decided to take our cues from him, as in talk about it openly when he wanted to or asked abou it. Well tonight there was a baby on the TV and he said to me " you don't have a baby in your tummy any more" "the baby is broken, babies don't have batteries" I just burst into tears and then laughter. It is such a simple way of looking at life. So here I was preparing to explain it to him, and he was over it, he just started babbling about toys etc. I love his little world and the way he sees things. But i think that him acknowledging this has made me realise what he is missing out on too, and that sucks. He is a big brother, he has a little sister. But he will never know her. That is hard.
The guilt that you are feeling is what we have all felt when we started to the TTC journey. Just realise that you are not replacing Noah, just the hole in your heart that he has left. He knows that he could never be replaced, and how could you, he is your perfect little angel, your son. When was Noah born?
Talk to you soon.
I asked my FS about o'ing late and he said that some women do and it is ok to fall pg on those eggs but he does want me to o a little bit earlier than I have been (ok I will just let my ovaries know!!!! lol) They are going to monitor me with BT and u/s for my next cycle so we can see exactly what is going on. I said so I don't need to do OPK or temps and he said no. What am I going to do without my tests!!!!! He said that I can still do temps if I want but there is no need to do OPK because they will get a better indication from BT and u/s. I think I will still do temps just so I feel that I am doing something.
I will be thinking of you and your little man Cooper tommorrow.
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