TTC after Stillbirth/ Recurrent Miscarriage or Loss after the First Trimester

I just got home and wanted to check on Tommysmum... Sending out some positive vibes and lots of love. I will pop in and out to check on you... :hugs:

Hi again Chelle, Jo and Klee. I will come back later and do some personals.

My progesterone was 97 WOO HOOO!!!!!!! That's a fabulous result and shows that things are going well. As my obs says my progesterone is super, my endometrium is "beautiful" and I have responed text book to the 150mgs of clomid. It's just a matter of time. She is telling me I am jumping the gun by thinking I am out of the race this month. But I just feel I am not. I will pop back soon.

Hey Flower, at least three of the 'ObGyn's at BB said you weren't out of the race too!!!
We prescribe you take some of those positive vibes we are all sending back at you!!
That's a hat-trick of good news today, things are looking up and about time too!

Think I'll go and have some chocolate now...

Hi girls,

Sorry it has been so long since i last posted, there has just been so much happening lately and to tell you the truth i didn't want to come in here as i don't think i would have coped to well emotionall especially after a few sleepless and pillows full of tears nights.

Deb thanks for the info re FS when i go and see Jane i will inquire about Trixie and Scott.
Tommysmum glad to hear that your DH let out his emotions and got it all out for now that is great news!!
I have tried explaining how losing my babies has felt and i think he understands to some degree but most of the time it feels like i am talking to a brick wall :wall:
Bailey sorry to hear that DS was sick. It is hard when they are sick and you haven't had any sleep to look after them. Although i am glad it was nothing serious.
Sorry to hear that AF turned up for you. TTC with wacky cycles is hard but i managed to do it with DD so it is possible!!
Spring we must all have the best name!!! I have never come across someone with the same name as me that has been through what we have and now there are 3 of us, i am in total shock.
Ever since you started talking about the AIL i knew there was something fishy going on!
You handled it very well, you are such a strong woman who knows when she is right (must be the name hehehe). There is no way i think you were over reacting!!! You were quite within your rights to act the way you did.
Mel you were not out of line at all with what you said. It was so true!! I just hate how we express emotions different it really frustrates me. My DH sounds a lot like yours, i must admit that ttc keeps me sane and i manage to cope better whilst ttc. That is why now i have decided to go on ttc.
Sorry to hear about your fight with DH but at least now you have got it sorted. It is great that you both got your feelings out to each other and i totally understand loving him more for letting out how he is feeling to you.
Reading your paragraph about mothers day really hit home and made me cry. I still have those emotions as well but i do have one DD i can celebrate it with. Over the years i have decided that Mothers Day is the one day in the year i just wish didn't exist. Sounds like Fathers Day is going to be a tough day as well, reading that i just want to give you both the biggest hugs.
That movie sounds like it is right up my ally must go and see it!!

Congrats on good news Spring, Deb and Tommysmum.

Oh DD has just woke will be back later.
Basically i have just beem feeling BLAH, and can't stop thinking WHY??

:happyforyou: Tommysmum!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOO Y*IPPPPPEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! That is wonderful. I really felt for you re: not eating my love. I have done the same in the past... :hug: Rest up, eat well and know that we are all barracking for that little bean in there!

:happyforyou: Spring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOO HOOOOOO you keep growing so beautifully for us LIl Spring!

I am truly sorry for not answering all of your posts. Today has been hectic. Tonight I am off to yoga so I need to get dinner on the table NOW!
Thanks for all of your wishes today. I am not feeling negative. I just don't think its' my month. I am okay about it. I have a plan and once I have a plan I am okay (it's my anal nursey nature! ;))

I just received in the main my 10 x 10miu preg tests from Lullaby so that should keep my peeonastick obsession well fed!

Nighty night from me and I will *see* you tomorrow... :hug:

Thanks guys for your well wishes. Scary stuff today !

So Flowerchild - 10x10 preg tests...are you saying there are 100 in there ??? If so, are you planning on having 100 more babies - geez you are keen...:p I don't know anything about "levels" etc but by what you have written it sounds like you still have a chance.... so if there is a chance, no matter how small, there is no reason it can't be your month....

Kristee - sorry you have had a rough time lately. I was wondering where you had got to but had totally understood at the same time. It is a sh*t isn't it ! Just not fair and life can be so cruel - and again "why us". There has to be a positive turn for all of us and there will be - sometimes it just takes time (and what a sh*t way to play patience)...:hug:

Heybacko - you will be pg again and maybe again after that - geez that is something to think about. I hope you are doing ok - well better than ok.:hug:

Hello to everyone else - hope you have a nice evening. I am going to hop into my toasty bed and watch tv - i have socks on (my feet are absolutely frozen) - i am turning into an old maid. Before i go why not spread some :bluedust:

Hello Ladies,

Wow, there are so many new people here, I still haven't had a chance to go through all of the posts I missed when I was away, so I don't know you all yet, but I am sorry that you are all here, but glad you found us.

Tommysmum - I am so so so happy that everything is ok with bubs. I was just up thinking about it all last night. I felt that it would be all ok, but I also know that I would be feeling exactly the same. I am gonna give that baby a good talking to when they come out!! I didn't go to playgroup today, crappy weather and DS is still a little unwell and cranky, so I thought I would ditch it today. But I will go next week, I am very keen to catch up, plus I have DD's fairy dress to give to you.

Spring - Glad to see that Lil Spring is being good, maybe because they know that they will be seeing daddy tonight so they have to be on best behaviour :) Drive safe and have a fantastic time away.

Lynn - How are you doing? Hope you are having a nice time away. What did you think of the Sids and Kids meeting?

Mel - Hope you aren't still crying about the gift from your workmate. I am sure that she knows how much you appreciated it. Hope you are DTD lots and lots :D

Flowerchild - Yay on all the good stuff going on in your body :D I don't know what it all means, but it all sounds exciting. Don't give up on your self just yet, it's not over till the old witch sings (or a hundred bloody HPT's tell you otherwise) Fingers and toes are crossed for you.

Kristee - Yes, not sure what is going on with these cycles of mine, they are mad. But it is good to hear that you managed to catch an egg with yours. I have just ordered a trucjload of OPK's to try and pinpoint my fertile days, so I don't waste too much time DTD for no reason...lol, that is terrible, poor DH, but he knows I am using him :D

hi there too to Klee. Heybacko, jlk, chelle and of course Dream (where are you??)

Well, I have had a better day today, I had a bit of a meltdown over the last two days, but of a 'why me' 'how can this happen to us' blah blah - I am sure you all know the drill. I tried to snap out of it, but then I figured, if anyone deserves a little self-pity it's us, right girls? I think a big combo of getting home from holidays (now with nothing to look forward to) a crappy all over the place cycle (as well as the false positives i got just before going away) and the realisation that I will not have a baby before chrissy now just all hit me harder than I expected. Oh well, it's all been purged now, so hopefully I will feel better now. Hope you are all well.

Bailey

I hope you feel better soon - it is crap i know and i know how much you wanted a bub before xmas - that in itself is a challenging task for anyone i must say - i mean the pressure has been on for all of us. I also wanted you to be pg with me so we could have our bubs on the same day (cause now that they put my dates back we could have been day for day - how funny would that have been). You will feel better - this was just another hurdle and a bloody high one at that - it just sucks doesn't it.

I do have the Maybe Baby in my handbag but it doesn't work - the batteries are either flat (wow that didn't last long) or it is damaged (from DD playing with it) but have a go anyway - and pls remind me when i see you next as i am bloody hopeless remembering things these days (years really).

ok i am off to bed now really i am

Thanks Tommysmum,
It is a stupid deadline I had put on myself. Stupid christmas!! I think it was just that last christmas was so fake and forced for DS's sake. And for everyone else around me's sake) so I just had this dumb dream that if I can just have a little one by this christmas it would make me feel better. I know deep down that is not the case and I will never be 'better' but I just put too much pressure on myself about it, so it is just so dissapointing. Oh well. I will just have to jump poor dh's bones all month. Thanks for the Maybe Baby. I'll try the batteries.

Hey, I just have a question for the medical team (Deb and Nat) Since Asha died and I got my period back, I have had 3 cyles, one at 36 days, 34 days and then 44 days. Even before they have always beeen between 30 and 35 days. I just read online that travel can sometimes affect your cycle. Have either of you heard that before? My whole body sometimes plays up when I go overseas, so I am not sure if my cycles are stuffed or it could just be a one off beacause of the disruption?? Any ideas? I am just wondering if I should go and see someone about it. I am not overly worried, I just don't want to waste months and months ttc if there is something wrong iykwim.
Thanks guys.

Hi girls!!

Bailey - after I had Caitlyn, my cycles were all over the shop (or so I thought!!) What was once a regular 28 day cycle was changing to 25 days ish. In the end, my body was VERY specific and just wanted the first day of my menstrual period on a Saturday (which is the day I menstruated from day one, except when I was on the pill :rolleyes:). Consequently, when my cycle reverted back to Saturday starts, I got pregnant. That took until the September. My EDD is the same day as Caitlyn's - a Saturday.

Travel can interrupt your cycles, but post partum can be a time of adjustment in your cycles as well. I guess it is worse when the cycles are longer and you are not sure what is going on. If you are worried, get it checked. But irregularity is not uncommon after giving birth.

Sending a big :hug: to everyone. I am following your paths closely and I am always around if you want to chat.

Good to *see* you in here Michelle! I have missed you... :cry:

I've been around Deb - just trying to deal with a few things. I posted in the other section. I'll send you an email :hug:

Hey gals,

Hope your all ok, sorry I havent been around for a couple of days - just gonna have bite to eat (veggie bake - yuuuuuum!) and then Ill come back and read up on everything I have missed.

Just wanted to say hi.

Mel

OK well I am back with a full tummy and a quickish post cause DH is nagging me to sit and watch Kokoda with him (not really up my ally but after everything that has been said recently I am trying to dedicate a little more "quality" time to him), so here goes....


Lynn - YAY your back tonight :confetti: Hope you had a great holiday and cant wait to hear all about it. I am expecting you will be buggered when you get home so probably wont hear from you. Text me if your gonna be on, otherwise we can catch up tomorrow night.

Deb - Thats great your prog levels are good, thats gotta give you a little confidence... have you tested again as yet?

Spring - As per my text, glad to hear lil Spring is doing so well - and BTW are you gonna make me beg for pics? LOL ;)

Klee - Will send you an email after this post :)

Bailey - Hope you are feeling better still, and that you get all the answers you need about your cycle. Definitely go the OPKs to help you out I reckon.

Chelle - Dont put too much pressure on yourself to be *happy-as-larry*, I think everyone understands it is stressful - just because you are nervous and scared doesnt mean you are not grateful for your pregnancy.

Tommysmum - So glad to hear your little bean is perfectly ok, I would have been as terrified as you I think. Its hard with little ones isnt it? They just dont understand the word 'careful'.

Kristee - Yeah Mother's Day is one day I have been fearful of lately, I just know what kind of emotions it will bring up and I just dont want to feel them all - I would rather not feel at all sometimes, life would be much easier.

Jo - Nice to hear from you again, hope you are doing ok and had a nice break.

Hi to everyone else, Alex, Michelle, Clare (havent seen her for a while) and anybody who I havent mentioned but is reading this, hehe.

All I have to report is that I did a HPT this morning with a BFN :crying: All of those symptoms I *thought* I had have gone away and now I am wondering if they were all in my head to begin with. I am due for AF Monday so I know it is still "possible" but after the BFN this morning I am not gonna get my hopes up too high. I think it would all be too good to be true, after 7 months of trying why should this month be any different!

Anyway, thats all from me - ciao for now!

Mel

morning ladies
mel - it still might be too early to show up on HPT, fingers crossed for you. can i ask, and this can go for all the ladies did your pre AF symptoms change after pregnancy?
spring and kristee - it is a little strange that there are a few of us with the same name going through this, its kind of scary. by the way i am with a k ending with ie, i am not hyphenated but my middle name is lee.
biggest loser finale tonight ladies, am with you guys on the addiction to reality tv, i only got into it about half way through, around the time of Phoebe, i think it was probably more to do with feeling better about myself lol. have been banned from big brother though, i think its because if I get addicted DP knows he will too

just another question, we got a letter from the obstetrician at the hospital the other day saying there was no mention of it being the cord in the delivery notes, is that unusual? I mean I don't think the midwife would have said it was that had it not been true, but I'm just wondering

Hey everyone! I'm back. I missed you all so much.

Well the inj have started. DH is doing them for me because I just couldn't do it myself. He bruised me the first day but he is getting better at it now! Today is CD9 and I had a bt this morning so I am waiting anxiously for the results. I just hope my body is doing something. We had a nice, relaxing time away but it just felt like someone was missing. I just wish that this could have been Cooper's first holiday.

Deb - how is that 2ww going? I have been thinking about you. Stay positive and this will be your month! When is AF due?

Mel - how are you babe? I think it is still early to test. Please stay positive and you will get your BFP! :hugs:

Spring - thanks for the text. I was so excited to hear that lil Spring is going so well.

Bailey - welcome back! It felt like you were gone for ages. I'm sorry the witch turned up. I think it does help to chart. Have you looked at fertility friend on the web. It is a good website to help you chart and what to look for. I did OPK's, temps and maybe baby and checked CM. If you are worried about the difference in cycles maybe it would be worth seeing a FS.

Nat - thanks for your help re: meds while I was away! How are you going? How is your dad? Hope you are well :hug:

Tommysmum - I'm glad that your little bean was moving around down there. It must have been a scare when you saw the blood. I'm so happy that everything is going well. Thinking of you, DH and Tommy today on his 4 month birthday. Big hugs to you. Take care :hug:

Hi to Sarah, Klee, Jo, Chelle, Alex and anyone else that I may have missed.

luv & hugs
Lynn
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Klee - Was your ob there when Phoebe was delivered? I would ask him to check with the hospital. How have you been? I have been thinking of you :hug:

Hi everyone,
Klee: For me pre AF symptoms are identical to pregnancy symptoms. It's the higher progewsterone that's the key. Usually it takes a ccouple of weeks for morning sickness to start (if you get it - I don't!). What cd are you on my love??? With regard to Phoebes birth. You can obtain your hospital notes from Freedom of Information. It will only cost the fee for photocopying (approx $20-30). I strongly advise you to get them and have someone with you if possible that has a nursing/medical background to decipher. Did the midwife at Phoebes birth state that it was a cord accident? If so it will be recorded in your notes. Was your obs there too? If you need any help Klee you can feel free to contact me.

Lynn: So glad to have you back... :hug: I missed you and have been thinking of you each day and wondering hwo those injections are going. Your DH is a sweetie for doing them for you. I have all crossed for lovely blood test results today.

Mel: it could be just a little too early to test my love. It would be great if we all had wonderful restraint and waited until 15dpo. Much less wondering, obsessing and less expense! I am not one of them either so I send you big :hugs: and it's not over yet okay!

Tommysmum I hope you are still on a big high after your wonderful u/s. There is nothing more gorgeous than that little heart beating back at you... :hug:

I have a meeting this afternoon and then the park with a friend and THEN footy training for Finn. So, I need to go and get organised.
I am LOVING my new slow cooker - Thursday's are always hectic here and it's so nice to walk in the door at 6pm to dinner all but cooked! (Oh Lordy I sound like Martha Gardner - *she slinks off slightly embarassed!*)

It's time for a new thread before I go - you will find it here.