Kirsty : babe, a BFP is wonderful news.. Congratulations on graduating from the TTC club. I hope you have a H&H pregnancy and that you have a wonderful little Christmas surprise.

TommysMum: Babe, what you are feeling is totally normal. The yearn for Tommy will not fade just because you have a BFP, if anything, it only gets stronger because you begin to pass the same milestones such as your first scan, and every step reminds you of your little boy. I have found it to be a time of mixed emotions. Grieving for one child whilst trying to get excited about another child is just so confusing. It will begin to sink in babe, I hope that that BFP only gets darker and darker as the days pass. In some way I found it easier to grieve for Harry once I fell pregnant, I guess I had a reason to go on, a bit dramatic I know, but I felt like I had to pull myself together for the little baby inside me. I talk to Harry every day and ask him to look out for me and his little brother/sister. I know he is taking care of me so that makes me feel safe. It will be ok honey, those feelings of guilt will fade, you are not dishonoring Tommy by having another child, he would want his mummy and daddy to be happy :hugs:

Mel: How are you feeling hun? A cold is no fun at all. I hope you are on the mend. I prescribe an insane amount of Chocolate as the cure (lol) do you think you could handle that? Best of luck for getting the loan for the house, if you could email me the plans also I would love to have a look. I find playing around with designs to be so much fun. PS, thanks for your sweet message on Friday.

Flowerchild: I am glad you had a nice break. An Easter Egg hunt.. How much fun must that have been! Having tonsillitis is no fun though, I hope you are on the mend also. Good luck with your scan tomorrow, I am sending you some huge positive vibes your way.

Lynn: How has your Easter been? I hope it has been ok. That you for your sweet text on Friday, it means a lot to me. Have you started the injections yet? I am not really sure how it all works but I know you were waiting on AF to arrive. I hope that the injections are just the thing that you need to get ovulating and that you can have your magical BFP soon.

Chelle: I agree with Tommysmum, CD 33 and No AF, test babe!!! It can't hurt. I hope you get a wonderful surprise. Kick those kids off the computer and make sure you tell us ASAP.

Bailey: I don't know if you have had a chance to log on to the net over there but if you do I just want to say that I hope you are having a sensational time. Enjoy yourself babe, you really deserve it. If AF hasn't shown up yet, then I hope you can get your hands on a dodgy barrrrrrley HPT and test. I can't wait to hear all about your honeymoon, well not ALL about it IYKWIM

Nat: boy you get wifey of the year award, meringe baskets and banana cake, mmmm yum. I hope you and your DH and DS had a wonderful Easter break.

Klee: Thanks for your post about Harry's birthday, I hope you are doing ok. As I have said before, just take it day by day, moment by moment, that is all you need to worry about now.

Well after my major cyber-vent about my MIL I am feeling a bit better. Told mum about it today and she said that my MIL has psychological problems, there is a long history with my MIL that I won't bore you with, but she isn't a rational person who can be reasoned with. DH and I have agreed that she is not worth getting upset or angry about. I won't stop her from being involved in her grandchilds lifes, but I also wont be going out of my way to include her in our family. My mum and dad are such wonderful caring people, that I want my children to grow up in that sort of environment, not an emotionally charged, irrational angry environment.

I am feeling a little bit down that I haven't really felt movements yet, but with Harry it wasn't until 20 weeks that I was sure that I could feel him move. I just hope it happens earlier this time. Anyway, I have another crazy woman scan this Friday so I get to see Lil' Spring then.

I hope you are all well. I am going to stalk BB for the rest of the afternoon so hope to catch up on all you gals.

I hope Easter has been kind to you.

Big love
Spring